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7 hours ago

Good for Good Reasons

Before I go into the more recent, I want to make sure I explain something from a few nights ago. You see, when I say that Nala loves when Victoria and Essen’s kids come over… and loves those kid...


1 day ago

Bah

I got maybe 67 minutes of sleep last night. Drove to Des Moines and back for new glasses. Was still in the office by 10. Working on the dumbass list of Magistrate Bullshit tomorrow. After work, l...


3 days ago

That Tears It

Call me judgmental but… I sent this to my therapist: Condensing: I need and want to treat Therapy like a Battle Strategy because I like knowing I’m making progress. And this year “progress” in an...


3 days ago

Unsettling

Today I woke up feeling only two things. Anger and Emotionally Cold. That’s… not a great way to wake up. I’m wondering if it is because this is “back to work after a Holiday”… the whole concept...


I just received the greatest compliment of my life Essen said that I remind her of Samwise Gamgee. “You’re loyal, pure, steadfast, and determined through adversity. And you’ll come home to your...


4 days ago

Uniquely Positioned

There are three things that I see from my tower that I feel I am in a unique position to see (1) Man’s absolute inhumanity and cruelty never ceases to surprise or dismay me. The brutality, the h...


5 days ago

Additional Therapy

So, my Therapist’s response to THIS was “So sad you are struggling, Chris” So… I pretty much explain the last 36 years of my existence, repeatedly tying it back to the concept of “Less Than” that...


5 days ago

Seeing it again

For some reason, I am seeing a lot of Facebook posts today about “Women, don’t let your man treat you bad.” Or “Why ain’t there men with emotional intelligence?” Or “How hard is it for a man to k...


I’m writing my Therapy Assignment here so that it doesn’t get deleted by a Refresh on the Therapy page. The assignment was to dig through your past and present to determine why there is such a c...


November 25, 2020

Bah

Oof. Super slept in. Have house cleaning to do. The hyper-Trump “COVID is a hoax” former High School friend in Texas? Live tweeted her travel this week. Apparently she and her husband went to t...


November 24, 2020

Proper Perspectives

(1) I didn’t want to simply launch directly into a complaint of anything so I wanted to state at the beginning that I had a lovely night last night. I don’t know what the specifics were necessar...


November 23, 2020

Unfortunate

I really don’t feel good today. It’s all having to do with sinuses, post nasal drip, and my stomach. Not to mention there is a Boil Order in my city. You see, afraid that November wouldn’t hav...


November 22, 2020

Le Sigh

I am not okay. I don’t like it and I don’t know what to do about it. But I am not okay.


November 20, 2020

Therapy

It’s fun to confuse my therapist. She was shocked by how confident and certain I sounded when I said, “I know I’m a catch. I know I’m capable. With motivation, point me at a task, I will accom...


November 20, 2020

Silly, I guess

So I came into the office today. The only reason I did so was because I anticipate a defendant coming in to sign papers “at some point.” Otherwise, I’d be home. Because today is all about “Pla...


November 19, 2020

Opening a Vein

I wouldn’t normally come to this space to discuss this issue but it seems that my avenues to discuss this are quickly shrinking and I don’t think I’d be doing myself any favors by not being open...


November 17, 2020

Interesting Things

Yesterday was an epic win for the dog. Some… issues… but that is to be expected with 5 kids running around for longer than normal. Like… yes, Nala did get some of the couch fluff again… but tha...


November 16, 2020

Grumble

My sinuses were bugging the living shit out of me today. Coughing, making it hard to breath, worried about a fever. Yes, I did wonder if it could be the Rona. Temperature Gage at work said 96.1 S...


November 15, 2020

Nala & More

This entry may involve some content that some would find objectionable. Fair warning. When you think about things, the following items are true. (1) Nala is almost 2 and still has a great deal o...


November 14, 2020

For Now

Victoria, Remus, and Essen volunteered to do literally whatever they could to keep Nala around. I plan to email Nala’s vet, too. And talking to the neighbor. And blasting all of the area Fac...


November 14, 2020

Damnit Nala

UF! So, I was planning to call my parents when I got home as discussed in therapy. However, when I got home… Nala (my dog) had lost her tiny mind. She has been an unholy destructive terror and...


November 14, 2020

Therapy and Surveys

I’ll summarize therapy really quickly: “So your parents… what is the protocol there, then?” We’re supposed to call them. “Is that always true?” No, they used to call me a little more. But ever s...


November 12, 2020

... and What is Taken Away

The plan for Wednesday as I knew it was as follows: Wake up. Go to Des Moines to get glasses fixed. Come back to get my car fixed. Victoria comes over, we walk Nala, have dinner, enjoy each ot...


In some ways this shall be a more in-depth retelling of events than I sometimes get into but… that is the benefit of not working tomorrow. (This was written on Tuesday) During my work day, as it ...


November 10, 2020

An Expected Surprise

Iowa’s Supreme Court, recognizing the massive strain COVID is placing on the state, have once again cancelled all Jury Trials. To be renewed in February. This is… both positive and negative. ...


Book Description

I was 20 when I first started taking pills that let me see the world with a little less pain. A few months after that, I met a woman that I thought was beautiful and interesting. When I was 26, I proposed. We married when I was 27 and moved to Omaha. That is where our marriage ABSOLUTELY fell apart. That was 2011. For the last many years; I had been trying to salvage the marriage. At the end of 2019, I told my wife that we needed to separate. This year we file, she moves out, and I try to figure out how to get my shit sorted.