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Book Four: Ichi-no-Tani 2017

by Park Row Fallout

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January 01, 2018

Last of the Year then 2018

By the time I sat down to my computer to write this, I already had 8 different ways I wanted to start this. So I guess I’ll just start talking and see where this goes. I’ve been myopically focus...


December 30, 2017

Seriously

(1) 13 years ago, I left acting because I wanted “the little slice of Americana” more than I wanted anything else. I didn’t know how to get it, but I knew that trying to be a professional actor ...


December 29, 2017

Oh These People

Remember my San Francisco thing? Y’know… the trip where I told my future employers that I could not accept the job if it would not be cool to go on? The trip where I only missed two days of work ...


December 28, 2017

Sht

Just got email confirmation that I did not get the Cedar Rapids job. I feel heartbroken. I feel like once again I was shown that things could be better… that Wife and I might finally get a break...


Perhaps best summarized by the two following image: What was your biggest life lesson this year and what did you learn? I continue to learn a great deal about myself. I learned a great dea...


December 27, 2017

39.4 Seconds

Still no call from the ACA Job. I think I’ve entered into the anger stage of loss. Because I keep thinking that there is NO WAY I could be more professionally qualified for this job. Like… the j...


December 22, 2017

Should Have Guessed

I should have guessed that today would be a Two Entry (or more) Day. DEFINITELY more if I get the phone call. Though, I’m guessing I won’t be getting it today. Just intuition. Last night, I fi...


December 21, 2017

Oh, Fine

I wasn’t going to write in here today. I was going to let the day happen… take a break from writing… allow those who may wish to a chance to catch up, lol. But I reconsidered as I should docume...


December 21, 2017

Fuses

Well… consider my fuse lit. Chinese Boss has a large mountain of Immigration work that (1) needs to be done immediately and (2) needs to be flawless otherwise our clients will suffer and if our c...


December 21, 2017

Roulette Wheel of Destiny

I’ve mentioned it before, I’ll mention it again… the first e-mail address name I ever had for myself was BatVillains. I still use it occasionally for spam-potential e-mail requests (see also: Gi...


December 20, 2017

Woodrow Wilson

“You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich t...


December 19, 2017

What A Day

My day began at 5:30 this morning, when I set my alarm. My Wife doesn’t understand why I set my alarm to wake me an hour before I have to leave the house. It is an important part of pain manage...


December 18, 2017

Here I am Bitching

Have I mentioned that I really hope I get that job I interviewed for? Have I mentioned that, just because we are in the age of Cell Phones, that doesn’t make it cool for employers to bother you w...


December 18, 2017

The Mind Will Roam

Two roads diverged in a tortured metaphor and neither could be chosen. The roads, you see were fractured possibilities of a future yet to be created. Being the traveler, I could not select which...


December 16, 2017

Insights

(1) It is… difficult being in a position where there is nothing you can do about something you want. It is interesting. So many people scoff at the idea of fate or chance or luck. My brother, ...


(1) I picked up 7.9 billable hours yesterday. That is entirely due to Chinese Boss agreeing to pay me 4 hours for any Legal Aid Day… provided I do something with those 4 hours that would work to...


December 15, 2017

Comparative Measures

Around this time last year, I was feeling pretty depressed. I had really wanted a job with the Polk County Attorney Juvenile Division. I had gotten an interview. But as I left that interview, I...


December 14, 2017

Start The Day

I am going to explode with technological rage and fury but first… The interview went well. No way to know for sure if I nailed it but I have experience, I was relaxed, I made jokes, and I demons...


December 13, 2017

There's Always Tomorrow

So, I got up early today to do my work. Checked E-Mails at 8. Went to Ames and Back to grab some much needed discovery. Started researching Divorce and International Law. Read some terrible thing...


December 12, 2017

That One Thing

So, I am doing that one thing I didn’t want to do. I’m getting excited. I’m getting my hopes up. I’m actively contemplating a move, a job change, house hunting, all of it. I am hoping. I am g...


December 12, 2017

The World Continues To Spin

So, yesterday was a long day. But I enjoyed it (after the first several hours). 2 am Sunday Morning, my wife was like a woman possessed. Shrieking, screaming, crying, injuring herself, insulti...


December 11, 2017

Additional Iritant

So… after a ridiculous and exhausting night with Drunk Shouty Sobby Wife, she is sleeping in the bedroom while my guest and I watch K-On. Then my phone explodes into text messages from work, a ph...


December 10, 2017

Fucking Hell

My wife drank WAY too much last night. Ruined the evening. Then I woke up at 2 am with her shouting and sobbing at the top of her lungs. Mind you, we still have a guest in our fucking house. And ...


December 09, 2017

Once More

Today is a three entry day. Maybe more. And for that I apologize. But… it comes with what is going on right now. Seriously… I have four things listed on my TO DO list. (1) Finish Asylum Petiti...


December 09, 2017

Memory

I have a song stuck in my head. Just the very last bit of it, in fact. You can ne’er return again Which… is so eerily appropriate. Because that is from the song “Toyland” and the only time I eve...


Book Description

The name references a Japanese Battle whose important actions have been portrayed in Kabuki and Noh. I hope… in several ways… my actions of 2017 can be a shadow of the importance of that event.