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Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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January 03, 2019

Araw Tatlo in Trying to Hold On

Positives and Negatives At work last night, my boss recommended I check out a case that the State (we’re county, so they’re like our Big Brother) is filing on for inspiration for my Resistance. ...


January 02, 2019

A Bit of Fluff in Trying to Hold On

Saw this on Abstract Sunflower’s page (ala Front Page) and decided to do a version of my own. Not to say “fill out the survey for myself” but “fundamentally alter elements of the survey”. Parti...


January 02, 2019

The Second Day in Trying to Hold On

The second day of 2019 dawns. It has not yet been Chinese New Year (that happens on February 5th), but when that dawns it will be the Year of the Pig. 2018 was the Year of the Dog. So, arguabl...


January 01, 2019

New Year in Trying to Hold On

So, what were last years “Goals,” or “Resolutions,” or “Dragons”, or “Hopes?” 2018: https://www.prosebox.net/entry/652151/ (1) I want to get under 200 lbs (2) We need to work on our marriage (3) ...


Briefly: Yesterday (December 30th) was an almost perfect day. Joy, family, and accomplishment. Hell, the only way it could have been any better is if my wife deigned to interact in an affection...


My Christ I am exhausted. I texted my Wife. I let her know that I couldn’t sleep last night, woke up around 2 a.m. to a night as bright as day, went to the basement, drank the brandy, spilled so...


Largely summarized by the following: What was your biggest life lesson this year and what did you learn? It is a lesson that I am still learning and still trying to use in my life… but I lea...


I don’t know if it is because of who I am, still with a strong sense of my childhood self inside of me, or if it is because of my previous work environment with the Chinese… but there are still p...


So… all Private firms have this week off, it seems. My “friends on Facebook Messenger” list is now pretty much everyone from Law School being bored. And why not? Courts aren’t doing shit today...


So, since I couldn’t sleep last night, I am 100% exhausted today. Just sitting at my desk, in pain, fighting the passionate urge to close my eyes and drift off to sleep. That is what I want to ...


I’ll write a better entry later but It is currently around 3 a.m. I couldn’t sleep. Wife was out like a light as soon as she hit the bed… didn’t even take any clothes off. For those who are on my...


A genuine and enthusiastic Merry Christmas to all. I genuinely hope you are all doing well and enjoying the day. I have realized a strong and unfortunate massive personal flaw. I completely lack ...


The Congress and Senate of the United States, voted for by individual states which translates into much closer representative government despite extreme gerrymandering, had agreed on a budget to ...


I have unrealistic expectations of myself. All month I’ve been working out, watching what I eat and drink, and trying to do well for my body. I’ve lost literally ZERO pounds. Now… technically,...


Why not do more whining, I’m not getting notes anyway, lol. It could be said that my largest problem is how much of my life is lived on-line. But all things considered… that is how things are he...


So… my spirit has been in a weird place. I have a house, my wife and I are starting to do well(ish) in counseling, I’m in a job that I like that pays well… that hopefully I won’t lose anytime soo...


I’m feeling lonely and a bit listless. It happens, especially when living and working in Rural Iowa… but it isn’t a fun place to be. I’m just… feeling a little lonely.


I’m torn. I’m happy that next week is Christmas because I certainly need some time off; but I already know that my Christmas “time off” will be much like most of my weekends of late. Hustle, dr...


Oh… the News. I think one of the reasons why Weekends are so rejuvenating for me is that I don’t watch the news or read the news at all. That’s what makes the weekends so restful. Immediately L...


Statement 1: Oh, my wife. This is one of those wonderful experiences where I become a little bit of both of my parents and my Wife becomes the other bit of both my parents. You see, Wife and I ...


As some of you may be aware, Mortal Kombat 11 got an Announcement Trailer. For those that are not aware, I present it to you below: Now… the nature of the world On-Line is one of repetition, de...


Wow. It didn’t take long for fandom as a thing to be turned into a weapon. This isn’t new and it isn’t news but the fact that it is becoming more and more THE STORY of fandom is a tragedy. I ...


So… consider this one of those “Stupid BS confessions to the void that doesn’t need to be said but I’m saying it anyway” I’m sick of porn. Like… I have a beautiful woman in my life that I’m marr...


Title chosen at random but for those curious about the similar sounding “Unbearable Lightness of Being”, Wikipedia says the following: “Challenging Friedrich Nietzsche’s concept of eternal recurr...


UFDA! Today… was a busy, hectic, crazy day. Made worse by my half day yesterday. Don’t get me wrong, the half day yesterday was good! I was in terrible pain, I went home, my Wife showed me deep...