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Trying to Hold On

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11 hours ago

Survey

So… a little outreach can be helpful. JUst doing a survey to fill some time while I wait for a phone call: How old will you be in five years? I will be 40 days away from my 40th birthday How tal...


1 day ago

Thanks and More

Thank you to people who left comments on my last entry. It helps. As does spending the weekend with my parents. In their way. My father still supports Trump in ways that should otherwise make...


3 days ago

All in All

When things go according to expectations… and that isn’t great. Got home. Tired and exhausted. Went to the gym. Tired and exhausted and still the same weight. Came home… nothing much of anyt...


4 days ago

As It Goes

Oh holy hell. Another day of go GO GO GO GO Got here at 8… first “breather” was at 11:06. And that breather was rather forced to happen by me because I’d been going nonstop. It is funny. I...


5 days ago

Self Sabatoge

I want to start this off with a specific noise to express how I’m feeling right now but I can’t find the right letters on the keyboard to do so. Today. Has been. Busy. I got to work at a quart...


Today is… an odd day. I woke up from a fascinating dream that I will share at the very end of this (as hearing people’s dreams can be a bit boring) and I noticed it was 4:50 a.m. And I was rathe...


So… yesterday was St. Patrick’s Day. I had to start late on that… we worked out and I drank a bunch of water to try to counterbalance the sweat. So when I started drinking, I was drinking Double...


March 18, 2019

Ready Set Go

Speed writing? Because this is going to be quick. This week promises to be busy, next week promises to be a fucking nightmare so we’ll see how much my writing and reading keep up or don’t. I am ...


March 17, 2019

30 Second Entry

Just wanted to pop in today and say Halloooooo and everyone have safe St. Patrick’s Day festivities if you are in a location that celebrates this holiday with copious amounts of alcoholic beverag...


March 16, 2019

Beginning with a Question

Question: Is it more respectful to not mention something you aren’t directly impacted by, or to acknowledge a tragedy and try to throw a few words out into the ether that could never matter or ap...


March 15, 2019

Kali-mah Thirsty Day

It seems spring is in the air. I’ll hold my breath and cross my fingers and hope it isn’t an illusion. After all, in the midwest it isn’t entirely uncommon for us to get snow as late as May… so...


March 14, 2019

Grumble

So… not surprising… and not new… but.... I need a vacation. Obviously. I’ve already said that exact thing this week. But I’m making “bad choices” in response and that doesn’t help anyone. You ...


March 12, 2019

For Kristo's Sake!

So… if you’ve read my previous entries… you know that today was going to be a tough day. A weekend filled with insomnia. A weekend filled with bad decisions in attempting to treat that insomnia....


The following was written in short bursts through the evening of the 9th, Morning of the 10th. This shall be quick and typically rather pointless. However, there will be photos and videos that s...


March 09, 2019

On Motivation

Well, bollocks. This morning, I was in a mood to write in my Drafts Folder and put up something sexy. I’m trying to write some stories that effectively convey alternately the kind of Chat Experi...


Happy Friday to everyone who gets to treat Fridays like the end of the work week! Notice: To those who participate in the archaic and arbitrary practice of Daylight Savings Time, we lose an hour ...


So I just heard of something I’d never heard of before. Screen Team. Now, I don’t want to say anything for or against any of the members of Screen Team or what they do. In fact, quite the opposi...


March 08, 2019

Days that end in Eventh

Today is a strange sort of “nothing day” in that there is a lot of “nothing” on the official calendar but I certainly expect some stuff to bog up the day. We already had a meeting this morning wh...


March 07, 2019

Recaps and Bother

Last night, I drove home and left the garage door open, as I do when it is a Workout Night. However, after getting her feelings out in her PB Journal, my Wife was not in a good headspace to go w...


March 06, 2019

Tuesday

It is funny. When I woke up today, strangely, I had no idea what day it was. I actually lay in bed debating myself on whether it was Tuesday or Wednesday. Strangely, the arguments that it was ...


March 05, 2019

A Need to Vent

Oh, Holy Christ! I know it is only March but life takes planning. It doesn’t just happen. Especially as an Attorney that has things like trials. My life already has things scheduled for OCTOBE...


March 05, 2019

Kurokawa

Super busy day. Likely won’t have much time to write: which is SUPER strange for me. Though, maybe for the best as I kicked my ass at the gym this weekend and need time for my body to recuperat...


I hope but cannot promise that at the beginning of each month, I will review my Yearly Resolutions and chart where I am. It is another way of keeping me honest, keeping me focused, and hopefully...


Song In My Head: All I wanna do is see you turn into a giant woman (a giant woman) All I wanna be is someone who gets to see a giant woman Transitioning from that to this: Guess what I did this...


March 01, 2019

TMI Statement to Start

WARNING: SOME OF THE FOLLOWING MAY UPSET YOU OR OFFEND YOU. FRANKLY, WHEN I’M WRITING LIKE THIS… I DON’T CARE. SOMETIMES A PERSON JUST NEEDS A PLACE TO VENT. That being said, I SUPER thank the ...


Book Description

This will now be my sixth year writing in Prosebox. I started as a Law Student considering Divorce… and now I’m a Government Attorney who owns a house going to marriage counseling. After 6 consecutive years of “Looking for something new or better” this year, I’m just trying to hold on to what I’ve got. I like my job. I like my community. I like my house. I’m just trying to hold on to all of it and make sure I keep things going.