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Insane Day of Court. Literally in the court house from 9 am until 4 pm. Will write more later.

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You know? One of the things I think about? Nancy wasn’t “standard knock out”. There are plenty of people in this world who would probably say that she isn’t their cup of tea. But I found her b...

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I know I don’t have to censor the title but I felt it appropriate. Yet again, my Friday night was an absolute disaster of loneliness and over-drinking. And I understand why Friday nights are the...

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Today’s therapy dealt primarily with trying to investigate why I didn’t feel like I was enough. A bit of teeing up from youth… in that “work hard, strive forward, always do better” is good motiva...

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Well, this is bloody stupid. One would think that a scheduled repair or service would put some kind of importance on the concept of SCHEDULE. I had scheduled a heater clean for 8 a.m. and a water...

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I have finally discovered the Meme for when my Therapist and Parents say “Stop worrying or caring if you’ll ever achieve your dream of being a husband/father and having a stable loving family. Y...

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(1) This shouldn’t need saying. But often does. Just because hearings are being done over the phone now? Doesn’t mean it is okay to turn up drunk or high. And YES, we can tell! (2) Just read a ...

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As can be expected from my entry yesterday… YESTERDAY WAS FRACKING RIDICULOUS. I got home and I was just… I’m sorry, Nala. I was exhausted. But I wasn’t going to just… not interact with my bel...

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Yet another day where things get off to a “hit the ground rolling” start. Last night was nice. No sexual expectations, Victoria and I just hung out and finished all of New Who. Which… I know be...

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(1) Yesterday, the White House released a statement that does what Donald Trump always does… reinforces the extreme Us versus Them rhetoric which is the only thing his brain understands. This ma...

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My professional and personal life provide far too many terrible examples of humanity and the brokenness of too many relationships. Get this: A woman is with a man and they get married. The man n...

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Knowledge is power. They say that there is no knowledge that is not power and I’ve debated both sides of that issue. As in all truly intelligent debates, the first building block is determined by...

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I wish I had someone to say this to in person and really work through it. But as even therapy is digital these days… that isn’t an option. And it is important to have an IN PERSON interaction b...

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SO… I’m really honestly going to try to push through and get some stuff done tonight. But I made a terrible and exhausting choice. A friend was writing about why he was worried about Amy Barrett’...

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So… I don’t know why but today I woke up and I’m just feeling… down. Just lower self esteem, no motivation. So of course… foolish me… in this state of mind, I decide to update my Christmas Wish L...

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Today is Magistrate Day so… I’ve been in court. Getting nothing done. And as I’ve been quarantining… I have noticed something. (1) My drinking is fluctuating. :( Some days, I’ll be good and dr...

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Just saw this online interaction: Biden4Prez: It’s too bad Trump supporters have their own delusional reality. TrumpLyfe: I think you have that backwards, there. Biden4Prez: Okay, how about you ...

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I woke up in extreme pain today. I mean, it is obvious. I’m walking three miles a day (or so) plus trying to exercise plus trying to keep my house running plus work. My body is going through a...

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okay… I know this is going to come off as calloused or insensitive but after watching some TV today? I honestly think I have to temporarily add “You can do better” to my list of trigger phrases....

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So… one of the things I promised myself I would do with this “quarantine time” is to tackle my reliance on alcohol. I would say that it is okay or not that bad but… Sunday, I drank one drink. G...

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Such. Bullshit. I mean… I.... ::sigh:: No wonder I don’t do well alone. Get in to work. E-Mail is flooded. FUCK! What happened over the weekend? “We’re having sex. And we were having sex. But ...

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So the ASM Entry relates to me writing about my emotions regarding the divorce and processing my new normal. I mean, as COVID fell and continues to impact us all, we’re all discussing “new norma...

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I’m asking all social media: When a problem cannot be solved with anything other than patience, but there is still pain or hardship… what is the limit on “discussing it?” Is there a time where “e...

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Just… Two Face Quote. Starting with “You thought we could be decent men in an indecent time.” Which frankly… I felt a kinship with Two Face as early as 1992… but that comment in today’s world s...

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