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Therapy for me today was good. I’m always pleased when a professional therapist is astounded at my self-reflection, self-awareness, and knowledge of emotional and intellectual concepts. We disc...

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Funny thing is? This happens. I have words floating around in my brain completely unattached to ANYTHING. Meaning… no definition, no picture identity, no historical markers, no emotional conte...

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I woke up today to loud thunder booming around the house. Not surprisingly, after a few of those… Nala decided she no longer wanted to sleep on the couch and came back to sleep on the bed. Her l...

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HA! Me writing for the first time today at 2:00 p.m. We must be busy! Today started with what I would call an interesting issue. Depositions in a Domestic. Most of the notes are familiar. Defe...

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Here’s some humor! I may have started a bees nest of bullshit. I follow a page dedicated to being against Toxic Masculinity. Considering I was on College Boards about that subject before the ter...

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So I Nala destroyed more of the couch. :( And then when I got home from a 4 hour drive for new eyes (apparently, my prescription changed enough for it to be significantly noticeable to me.) I wal...

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Actually, let’s start with humor first. You know how I’ve got a big ol’ weakness for legs. Like… stockings and a skirt could be considered my Kryptonite? My appreciation of the following comic...

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This should really start with Sunday night. I won’t go into details. I’ve already written about it a great deal in an effort to process everything. The quick sixteen second version? Victoria i...

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Insane Day of Court. Literally in the court house from 9 am until 4 pm. Will write more later.

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You know? One of the things I think about? Nancy wasn’t “standard knock out”. There are plenty of people in this world who would probably say that she isn’t their cup of tea. But I found her b...

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I know I don’t have to censor the title but I felt it appropriate. Yet again, my Friday night was an absolute disaster of loneliness and over-drinking. And I understand why Friday nights are the...

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Today’s therapy dealt primarily with trying to investigate why I didn’t feel like I was enough. A bit of teeing up from youth… in that “work hard, strive forward, always do better” is good motiva...

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Well, this is bloody stupid. One would think that a scheduled repair or service would put some kind of importance on the concept of SCHEDULE. I had scheduled a heater clean for 8 a.m. and a water...

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I have finally discovered the Meme for when my Therapist and Parents say “Stop worrying or caring if you’ll ever achieve your dream of being a husband/father and having a stable loving family. Y...

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(1) This shouldn’t need saying. But often does. Just because hearings are being done over the phone now? Doesn’t mean it is okay to turn up drunk or high. And YES, we can tell! (2) Just read a ...

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As can be expected from my entry yesterday… YESTERDAY WAS FRACKING RIDICULOUS. I got home and I was just… I’m sorry, Nala. I was exhausted. But I wasn’t going to just… not interact with my bel...

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Yet another day where things get off to a “hit the ground rolling” start. Last night was nice. No sexual expectations, Victoria and I just hung out and finished all of New Who. Which… I know be...

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(1) Yesterday, the White House released a statement that does what Donald Trump always does… reinforces the extreme Us versus Them rhetoric which is the only thing his brain understands. This ma...

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My professional and personal life provide far too many terrible examples of humanity and the brokenness of too many relationships. Get this: A woman is with a man and they get married. The man n...

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Knowledge is power. They say that there is no knowledge that is not power and I’ve debated both sides of that issue. As in all truly intelligent debates, the first building block is determined by...

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I wish I had someone to say this to in person and really work through it. But as even therapy is digital these days… that isn’t an option. And it is important to have an IN PERSON interaction b...

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SO… I’m really honestly going to try to push through and get some stuff done tonight. But I made a terrible and exhausting choice. A friend was writing about why he was worried about Amy Barrett’...

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So… I don’t know why but today I woke up and I’m just feeling… down. Just lower self esteem, no motivation. So of course… foolish me… in this state of mind, I decide to update my Christmas Wish L...

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Today is Magistrate Day so… I’ve been in court. Getting nothing done. And as I’ve been quarantining… I have noticed something. (1) My drinking is fluctuating. :( Some days, I’ll be good and dr...

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