Park Row Fallout ⋅ 35

Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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August 03, 2019

8/2 PIX in Trying to Hold On

So, you want a real entry go back one. You want an entry where I post a plethora of Chive Bullshit, stay on this one. I just got finished with a meeting of a Sexual Assault “survivor” I use the...


August 03, 2019

8/2 in Trying to Hold On

There may be multiple posts today. On Wednesday, my typically high-pitched and irritating voice settled into a scratchy, rough, sexy baritone. If it weren’t for.. y’know.... throat pain and bein...


The Weird Al Concert was awesome. My illness has progressed to the point where after court today I am likely to go home. But that still doesn’t spare me the “before you sit down” morning items… l...


Today started… ugh. Before I sat down… reports of Domestic Violence where Husband and Wife were mutually beating the shit out of each other. As I sit down… alert that I may have to cover a trial ...


July 30, 2019

Likely TMI in Trying to Hold On

Today is Juvenile Court Day so my morning is busy af. I have stuff to say but we’ll see if I can say it when I get back. Back for my “in between hearings” break and I can feel my stomach eating ...


HAhaHA! My sense of time has been all jacked up so this could be a straight up LIE but.... I think I haven’t done 3 entries in one day in many months! BUT my boss and our victim witness coordina...


I haven’t done this in a while. I tend not to anymore. But I am going to copy and paste a CNN article I expect will be quite controversial. Hell, simply having a title that says “CNN” will att...


All envy my job and despair (total sarcasm) AS I SIT DOWN AT MY DESK (1) Report of an incoming statutory rape case because a 22 year old had sex with his 15 year old girlfriend. Yeah, I’m okay c...


July 26, 2019

Waiting in Trying to Hold On

Today starts off feeling like a “blah” semi-nothing day. Which creates anxiety because whenever you feel “blah” there usually comes something in this job to turn it into FUCK! So I’m in a “blah...


July 25, 2019

Incongruity in Trying to Hold On

Some interesting observations for today: (1) Action vs. Emotion Last night, Wife actually spent time in the basement! Apparently, she spent large parts of the day down there with Nala because Na...


July 24, 2019

Dive Right In in Trying to Hold On

I had a really tough time sleeping last night. I’d get two hours, then wake up. Repeat that pattern from midnight until 6. But then at a little after 6:40; I discovered my wife being snuggly?!...


July 23, 2019

Hooooooo Bou in Trying to Hold On

I feel tempted to write a preface or a soliloquy or something more artful but at present I haven’t the time. Weekend was… acceptable. I noticed some strong, real, definite changes in Wife. But ...


I start today with feelings of worry, apprehension, and concern. The temperatures are expected to hit triple digits. Heat Index up to over 110 degrees Fahrenheit. And already the difference in ...


July 19, 2019

Brain Fried in Trying to Hold On

I made a whoopsie. I pushed so hard because of this morning’s clusterfuck of shittery that I got to three o’clock, all stressed and depressed and NOT looking forward to the very dark shit coming...


July 19, 2019

Surveys in Trying to Hold On

Last night was.... fairly typical. Got home from work. Wife was watching North Woods Law (so, not horror for a change). We took the dog for a walk. Came home and ate dinner. I excused myself...


After work was… mostly typical. Got home, Wife was watching a horror movie (Intruders) but had at least unpacked and done some laundry. I changed clothes and when the movie was finished; we look...


Oooooooooookay beautiful boys and girls. We have returned to the Land Locked State of Iowa and I’m playing a spot of catch up with Work, Prosebox, Grocery Shopping, and Life Not On Vacation, lol...


Oooooooooookay beautiful boys and girls. We have returned to the Land Locked State of Iowa and I’m playing a spot of catch up with Work, Prosebox, Grocery Shopping, and Life Not On Vacation, lol...


Oooooooooookay beautiful boys and girls. We have returned to the Land Locked State of Iowa and I’m playing a spot of catch up with Work, Prosebox, Grocery Shopping, and Life Not On Vacation, lol...


July 09, 2019

Babs in Trying to Hold On

I finally drifted off to sleep sometime after Hawai’i 6 a.m. When I awoke, the waves outside were… angry. The wind was high. In fact, Hurricane Barbara is kicking up a LOT of wind so there is ...


July 08, 2019

The Last Bit in Trying to Hold On

In Iowa, I’m writing this at around 7:00 a.m. In Hawai’i, it is 2:00 a.m. I can’t sleep. So, here are my notes on the last few days. On Saturday, I decided that Wife would get until Noon to fi...


July 07, 2019

At The Corner in Trying to Hold On

This entry is written at the corner of Intoxicated and Enlightened. Traditionally, I do an EXCELLENT job of not writing when I may not remember what I wrote. It has happened. It even happened...


July 06, 2019

Otra Recap in Trying to Hold On

Time Zones and Day Reviews are interesting. From one perspective, Tuesday was a “travel day.” Except… perspectives and relative time through space play with it. From one perspective: Tuesday wa...


I started this almost immediately after I finished my last entry because… that’s who I am? I mean… I’m a documenter and a writer and a little obsessed with stories whether my own or someone else...


July 02, 2019

Before I Go in Trying to Hold On

So, I think the honest truth is… I will likely be checking work e-mail and prosebox and facebook and instagram on my vacation. That’s… probably just expected. After all, Wife (I know) will be c...