J.E. ⋅ 38

“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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March 30, 2021

Flow My Tears in Hello

Tonight was seven days sober. Court in less than twelve hours. Since I don’t have my liquid comfort I’ve been an emotional wreck since Wednesday. I don’t know what’s going to happen. Thursday I ...

March 27, 2021

Caution: I Don't Sit Still in Hello

3:08 AM. Doc at 9. I lie here by the light of one lamp, the visuals and sounds of Looney Tunes with the fan casting a light breeze upon my exposed flesh. Sylvester the cat is doing a bad French a...

March 26, 2021

Steamed Not Stirred in Hello

I’d kill right now for a fucking drink.

March 25, 2021


I’ve got a headlight out that I’m going to get fixed this weekend. (I think there is an electrical problem in the car ‘cause a new bulb wouldn’t work.) Well, I got pulled over less than half a ...

March 23, 2021

Adulting 101 in Hello

Paid off the lawyer. Paid the accountant for my taxes. Called and made the appointment with the new psychiatrist.

March 21, 2021

Sleeeep... in Hello

I’ve woken up waaay too early for me today and yesterday. Today I friggin’ got up at 6:30 AM. The week at work was really good so of course Friday had to suck. The engraving tool wasn’t, well, ...

March 20, 2021

Is It Weird...? in Hello

That sometimes when watching the machines do their turn paths I listen to classical compositions and compose what the machine should be doin? Also, listen to Rhapsody In Blue while tripping acid....

March 13, 2021

Stupid Body in Hello

I missed time at work today. When I got out of bed my knee and hip were killing me. My regular doc is closed on Friday’s so I found a walk in clinic. Steroid and NSAID shots ensued. Got Peacoc...

There is so much yelling in my mind.

March 10, 2021

Is It Time To Panic Yet? in Hello

I need at LEAST three grand by the end of this month. Lawyer needs to be paid off (court case isn’t looking so good) and my expensive car insurance is due. Shitshitshitshitshit

March 05, 2021

Meanwhile, At Wayne Manor in Hello

Just popping in to say I friggin’ LOVE my new job. Everyone is super chill and the boss is actually training me unlike other places I’ve been.

March 03, 2021

Untitled in Hello

My mind is like an abandoned ancient city. I’m wandering down back alleys and ducking through doorways, trying to find an answer. Yet all that I find is debris and skeletal pieces. The sun burns ...

Snorting coke on acid while a joint is going around. Good times.

March 01, 2021

Halp in Hello

She fuckin’ asked me for help and I got lazy and never called a psychiatrist. Stupid Stupid Stupid

February 28, 2021

My Fault? in Hello

Peacock is in the hospital after a failed suicide attempt. This is on me, I’ve been a bastard to her…

February 23, 2021

Stuck In The Butt in Hello

The nurse laughed at me when I rolled up my sleeve for the steroid shot. I did end up going by work to drop off my note and fill out my new hire paperwork. Today I’m able to walk without the a...

Friday morning the H.R. lady called me. She wasn’t there the day before and wanted me to come in and fill my paperwork out. I told her I’d be in an hour before the shift and she assured me i di...

February 19, 2021

Sum' Bitch! in Hello

Currently laying on the couch with the heating pad on my lower back. First night on the job and it went decent. My feet and back hurt, as to be expected. I gotta get used to standing again. Sa...

February 17, 2021

Interesting in Hello

I start the new job tomorrow. Forgot my birthday is Friday, not tomorrow. Peacock and I have caught up on lost time doing X-rated stuff to each other. We’re still together but am keeping some ti...

February 16, 2021

Drafty *Update* in Hello

I know my house is drafty but damn. I’m on the couch in jeans, socks, house shoes, boxers, t-shirt and long sleeve flannel and it’s still a wee bit cold in here. My birthday is Thursday and with ...

February 13, 2021

We're All Living A Lie in Drugs 'n Drunk

I’d rather be the Invisible Man. Looks fun.

February 13, 2021

Reading in Hello

Well, the New Year’s resolution of reading more is going good. This week I’ve read: Star Wars: Dawn of the Jedi Into the Void And Star Wars Old Republic: Deceived Both were good reads. I still ...

February 08, 2021

Monday in Hello

I got an interview tomorrow at 9. Wish me luck! Edit: It’s with a temp service but thanks for the confidence notes. A while back I bought Rage 2 at Wal-Mart for five bucks. Pretty cool game so f...

February 05, 2021

12:00 in Drugs 'n Drunk

I’m just so fucking confused....

January 31, 2021

So I Was Stupid Again... in Hello

Peacock came home Friday. Lot’s of sex ensued. Saturday she tells me she ended up making out with the trucker friend ‘cause we aren’t together since I asked her to move (I was reconsidering it.) ...

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