Life in the Lost Lane...
by Willowby80
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Welcome to My Own Private Hell
How can life just go so out of control without me even realizing it? Feeling just lost again, like this is my life, going well until it doesnt. Lost all over again. Do i not deserve happiness? A...
Forgiveness
As sad as i am, i’m hoping to be an adult over all things, of course i am hurt. He gets mad when i mention that he should have tried harder. I feel defeated especially since my spidey senses tol...
Islands in the Stream...Sail away with me...
Dolly Parton and Kenny Rogers, beautiful song. I continue to have mixed feelings about everything. More than anything im sad, at missing what we’ve had, what we could have, i am hoping this is j...
Life Re-Started
How…Do you just restart after so long together? I already had to do this once almost 8 years ago, i had no plan or wants to have another relationship. But it happened and we couldn’t have been h...
Disturbed...
So after that whole shit with my now ex bff, which just happened last weekend, i’m hearing that shes gone off the deep end. Like she’s seriously lost her marbles. Talking shit about me, when all...
Growing Up & Growing Apart
How does like sometimes just get away from us? Like thick as thieves one day and the next not so flipping much? I have to say that my no so much friend anymore have been through a lot, and who wo...
Life is Unexpected
Life surely is unexpected and it’s brought a lot of twists and turns for us the last couple of years. Since my last entry lots of things have occurred, my Husband was finally able to go to the h...
All you need is Love...
Well its that time again, more things going on and the need to vent or express my feelings. Since my last post its been quite a while and what a busy year it has been! Holy heck has it been crazy...
Barely Keeping It Together
Dear Diary, As always i’m writing when i’m just so flustered and not having any other options. Life is crazy and sure sends lots of crazy things my way. I know that everything in life is a lesson...
Catastrophic Mess
Good Morning!!! As always i get on here when things are just tumbling out of control and theres absolutely nothing that i can do about it. What a difference a year makes, we are that much closer ...
What To Believe In
So hey there, it’s been so long, where do I even start? Maybe with the most recent, my Grandma, the matriarch of my family and she’s had kidney problems for a while along with heart problems. Her...
Thoughts From Long Ago...
So hey there diary, been a long long time. Sooo as always im here to vent, to be over emotional to just hash it all out. Yeah thats what i get to do on Monday with my new therapist! WooHoo!!! Yes...
Wedded Bliss, a divorce and a newbie!!!
Well its that time again, craziness is what the word is, so many things going on and i just dont know where to start, well in 16 days ill be getting married!!! Yes, thats what i said, ill be jump...
Tomorrows Never Promised...
After working in an emergency department, ive seen some pretty messed up things. I know now that i don't want to be in this kind of setting forever, i would like to get into maybe a correctional ...
Anxious, What's To Come?...
I've got laws and bills on my mind right now. I look at Pancake and think how can any mother just abandon her children like that and why does she have the right to even have rights if she's had t...
Never Amounting to Much...
Wow, sometimes i just have days and im like WTF have i done with my life. At least when i lived in TX, i had a great paying job, i had a house, but of all those things i wasn't happy. :( But n...
Afraid to be Alone, so settling for less...
What a fucking day, bad enough that i have to work part of a 3rd shift...But my brother has been going through a divorce that my parents are paying for, lets be honest, my parents buy a lot of s...
I have to work with what???
Good Morning there...Its always so very frustrating at work when you have people that dont want to work, help out and so on and so forth, well ive become this person. It pains me, but ive always...
Chubby with a lot to Lose.
Good Morning to all...That scale always makes me cringe, seems that i cant do it myself without having WW on my side. Im horrible at self control and i only take Hydroxycut to go and suppress my ...
Me, Myself and I Come First...
I guess i will just never understand a persons need to drink and do drugs outweighs the need to be an upstanding person for your children. And then i also do not understand how the government con...
Out of Left Field and she gone...
Wow, just one crazy damn thing after another, just found out that dumb SIL had gotten arrested for public intoxication with her new boyfriend over the weekend. How the hell can you say that you w...
Confused and Out of Whack
So as a family we are going through a divorce and child custody issues, it seriously sucks, i would have to say i was the first one to tell my brother he could have ran away on his actual wedding...
Bits and Pieces of What I Remember...
Okie, where to begin, well i guess everything started when i had met my first real boyfriend, when one is so young and desperate i guess one will pick the first suitor that comes along. I had to ...
Book Description
I used to be on Open Diary, im very upset to hear that they closed with not even an email, i would have been more than happy to download the 15 i had, but it was more of a how far ive come to be the person i am today. I would have really liked to transfer it over. So i guess now i will be writing about my entries whenever i want, kinda like i did before, but you wont have the background, i could probably remember some things, but to get that raw emotion that that once was will not be there.