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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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In the Morning After Waking in Meditations
I found it very easy to connect to my energy. There was a blockage, or a darkening of the energy quality in-between my heart and throat. I felt into this and, discovered an upside-down pyramid ...
This was so interesting There was something going on, societal collapse I guess. Wherein, we (my family of creation and I) we’re roaming about. We did not really have a home, but that seemed t...
I'm Losing It in Journal
and it’s beautiful Do ya’ll know The Crucible? Ever have a British Literature teacher like mine? Mine was great, don’t get me wrong, but he made everything so personal. Anyways. I’m finding i...
The Holy Grail Vortex Prayer in Journal
[url=https://postimg.cc/Wd9sg07c][/url] [Visualize and empower a clockwise rotating spiral at the center of the space to be prayed over- its the opposite than one would think, the direction move...
Lately hasn't in Journal
Actually been noteworthy So here’s pics [url=https://postimg.cc/v4pS8thD][/url] Bunnies, because obviously. [url=https://postimg.cc/mcCpP1pj][/url] My sexy man [url=https://postimg.cc/SnXvpv...
Clarity in Meditations
Selfless clarity and transmission of consciousness. That is the feeling impression I receive from the sky on such a night as this - when after today the sun shone hotly from the deep azure blue ...
Joy in Meditations
The light is joy and the sun is bringing it ever anew in each moment The first light touches my deepest soul and outermost limbs warmly The plants are dancing leaping shouting - for joy The gr...
Woke up before both children had nightmarish/agitated states before midnight. I have been noting these incidents more frequently. Decided to start making a log. After a Holy Grail Vortex praye...
there is actually a ton of dead etheric bodies all over the place. When I saw them, a few months ago or whenever it was… It wasn’t just me. They are actually stuck here. I just saw them. I did...
What am I paying for? in Journal
Has been a particularly harrowing question for me. That reading I did a bit ago. I got a recording of it. I watched it again. I’m so stuck by the … The sheer depth of challenge that it reveals...
The start in Meditations
23 May is when I decided to get serious. I’ve read How To Know Higher Worlds, The Art and Practice of Yoga, The Tao Te Ching, and just a slew of other esoteric books including The Holy Bible and...
Today’s the day I realized I can see through time
It's not my shame in A Childhood Lost
It never was the feelings that were a problem. My parents use them against me. Maybe it does suck to have bad parents, but at least I could rely on people outside the family? I was barely at ho...
Seems like in Journal
I’ve fallen prey to every foible in the book. At least I’m aware of what my foibles are? Generally I’ve become more sensitive. That is expected, having been doing the practices for a couple ...
I actually kind of Like in Journal
This new approach. The approach that seeks out a feeling and just accepts that feeling, no matter what. Like, “oh, you have the belief that your dad is capable of murder (or worse) and the fa...
Processing Fear in Journal
Fear seems like such a tame word for it. It bring the feeling experience that I encounter when I contemplate or even acknowledge the possibility of a choice that might offend my parents. I’ve r...
Have you ever seen in Journal
A real life glitch in the matrix? Im curious. How many have seen one, or haven’t.
Fear, terror, and sadness in A Childhood Lost
Wow it’s been awhile for this journal, eh? I’ve often reminisced about how I had little to say about my dad. That I just hate him, he’s an asshole, end of story, no need to look further. Shi...
Is an ugly, ugly sky; [url=https://postimg.cc/njRtkWqk][/url] [url=https://postimg.cc/nMrxzHtw][/url] [url=https://postimg.cc/rzZ8CDJk][/url] And this [url=https://postimg.cc/sMWzPK6F][/ur...
I'm Changing the Weather in Journal
It’s not a question at all anymore. It was for awhile. Quite awhile. Since 2018 when I began, in fact. This series is from just the other day. [url=https://postimg.cc/9zXTbtBH][/url] [url=h...
a lightness and a joy in letting go Being a follower is not as easy as it sounds. At least, not a good follower. Letting go and following has brought me back to my Dad. Good old daddy issues,...
How safe are you and, can you be of any benefit to me? That the feeling I had when entering the group. “You can trust me.” Oh, okay. Just let me set aside all my discernment, then! I clearly don...
Do you ever feel like in Journal
Everything is becoming Meta? Like. I can’t just feel my feelings - I apparently feel (or imagine I feel) what Feelings as an archetype are. It’s become an experience of experience. And I don’t...
Why Wouldn't I in Journal
Be me? I drank a cup of coffee at 5pm. FIVEPM WHY DID I DO IT So naturally I’m tired but VIGILANT. lol. It’s actually almost my normal bedtime. So not too late. I find it weird…? How I can ...
Interesting convo in Journal
Just now, Questioning whether I identify with wounded scripts. I say no. I identify with my choices. Which includes the choice not to identify with past programming. How do I know which is true...
