What is our relationship in Journal

To the sky?

Mine, anyway, has grown considerably even just in the last month. As I learned more about the nature elemental beings, I realized that I have a distinct connection to the ones in the sky. Not just the daytime sky, but also the night sky.

I am sure that most everyone will feel that special deep joy at seeing the sun at certain times of the day. That I what I feel, also. I can call upon it at any time, and it responds. I rather love these spirits, of light and warmth. They bring me not just joy but a deep inswelling of energy. It’s not… Physical energy. Although it could be, if I wanted it to be, I think.

And I feel so much gratitude. So much closeness, like a child for her mother. It’s a feeling of awe and receptivity - a feeling like I could never really understand all that the light and warmth does for me. But I just bask in it, happy to be ignorant of it’s true work and only glad that my gratitude is a benefit to it.

I notice that the sky changes visibly when I turn my attention to it in this more spiritually attuned way.

Why should this be so?

Is it a plea from the elemental beings to draw my attention to their plight? Are they finding relief and solace in my attention, or are they still desperately trying to gain it in more committed form?
Is it something else entirely?
I don’t know.

Do we have the skies that we deserve? Will the sun be blocked out? Why do the skies clear when I come outside? What is my relationship to it? And if I have this dramatic an effect… What of everyone else? Do they merely chalk it all up to random weather effects?
I try to imagine what I would think of I saw the weather and sky as just a dumb bubble of atmosphere and moisture. I’m not sure that I would think about what it was doing at all.
I try to imagine my concept of what the sky is from the perspective of believing it is a dumb atmosphere bubble. I guess it’d be pretty kooky. I would not be able to see any particular benefit from it. I might be very worried about fake (s)elections and contrived controversies.

Which is kind of an interesting comparison. Bringing my focus back, and back, and back, to my immediate environment, with the people and things and beings directly perceptible in it, has all but filled up my attention. There is very little else in my mind. This has been a deliberate and disciplined act of will on my part. And I’m not always great at it. But it is definitely an enormous change of mind and habit. So much that I must imagine the experience of complete peripheral hyper focus. I no longer embody it enough to feel what it’s like somatically.

I remember the first time someone told me that “did you know, you can make contrails disappear with your mind?!” In a hurried breathless way. I think of this person, now, and… Nothing much has come of her. She kind of flighty, bouncing from thing to thing and never but scratching the surface. That was over 20 years ago. We’re not all the same, I get that. But what if she had spent the last 20 years researching and experimenting with just this one thing? I’ve spent some off time on it, for only about 8 years, now. Maybe 9. But I’m not sure what I can do, now, because now I have a relationship based on personal and internal experiences that cannot be transferred to anyone.

Perhaps it people did know about the existence of the nature elementals, and that they could have a relationship with them, then they’d care?