A Welcome Guest in Journal

Last night I could not sleep as I was lying in bed. It occurred to me that something was amiss. Something internal. Psychological, even.

I then asked my Angel, could you please reveal to me what is keeping me awake? Please, tell me what is wrong that I should be aware of. Immediately I recognized a feeling. A feeling of wrongness and standing facing the wrong direction. I was practicing Feminine Communication in the wrong way: my attitude was that “I’m right and you’re wrong.” and this has always been my attitude. I was brought to that part of me that is stuck in my neck. Like a viper, poisonous and deadly, it coils there. It tries and wants to attack in self-righteous indignant injury in order to make them feel the pain. This part is angry, but underneath it is so very sad and unloved.

I asked Christ for help. I did not ask for strength to change it; I asked for humility and openness to receive whatever will bring harmony to this part and to this relationship.

I feel asleep. Later, I woke and witnessed someone enter the room. It entered so serenely; gliding in like a welcome guest. No fanfare, but no knocking, either. In contrast to the being which entered rudely after a night of upset sleep, she was like an angel, herself.

If I had to put a name to it, I would call it an Elemental of Right Dealing.

Elementals, to me, seem to be people. I have read accounts of others describing them as fairies, gnomes, mermaids, etc. And, maybe they are. But to me they seem much more human-like. And perhaps that is because I am only well acquainted with my own auric Elementals, and not as much the Nature Elemental Beings. Although I am learning to befriend the latter.

Miraculous changes seem to occur around me whenever I encounter a new Elemental. I will just detail some not-too personal experiences. As a bit of background, I have multiple chemical hypersensitivity, and this also translates to EMF hypersensitivity, because apparently EMFs interact with and irritate metals (like a microwave). So, basically, I can’t be around Wifi or cell phones or Smart Meters.
Our home has never had a Smart Meter on it, but when we moved I needed to make sure that our new house did not, either. So I had it taken care of right away. Something went wrong on the Power Company’s side and this triggered them to come out about a year later to put the Smart Meters (electric and gas) back on the house. This was around 2022.
I had several tense and short interactions with the workers who came out to the house. Then, I called the company. They claimed not to have any record of our opt-out. I became so upset and irate. I was trembling and breathing harshly, and said a lot of stuff that I should not have to the operator. No swearing or anything, but I was definitely not composed. I hung up on the operator and felt terrible. I was holding back tears, upset, and obviously triggered.

Compare this experience to the last 3 days. For whatever reason, our Power Company has some glitches, lol. This same account error happened again, and workers have come out to our house the last 3 days in a row. I met each one at the property line and was polite, just asking if I could help them. I wasn’t tense or short or make any kind of weird comments. lol. The last one said to me “You need to call in because they’ll just keep sending me out here until you opt out. And I don’t want to put this meter on if you don’t want it.” I was like, “Okay! Thank you, I will.” like, genuine cheerful.
I did call this morning, right away. I was aware, obviously, of the last regrettable encounter with this Company and so I wrote down everything I wanted to say in a numbered order. I waited on hold for awhile and when the operator got back, he told me, “Oh, your opt-out is right here. I already have it!” I was so pleasantly surprised, I had to do nothing at all! So I asked, “well, the reason I’m calling is that there were workers out the last 3 days to replace them” and he just explained that they won’t be out here again.

It was already done, even before I had to try to do anything. As I reflect on the attitude of a few years ago, and now, I realize that there are a few fundamental changes. One of the most obvious is that I had an attitude of “I’ve got to do this, and it’s because of me that this will get done.” Whereas presently, my attitude is one of receptivity and grateful acceptance of what is presented.
Not that work is not involved. It has been a work of preparation to receive. To make room. To be without expectation (or at least attempt it) and be able to see and live in an unexpected gift. My nervous system has changed. What my brain perceives and doesn’t understand, would have once paralyzed me with terror. Now, I feel open curiosity, as well as skepticism.