Melancholy and Sentimentality in Journal

Such a wave overtook me, today. It was poignant. Colors seemed to pop out; a surreal almost too real quality descended upon my perception as I drove through town to get my kids and a treat from the coffee place.
It was a treat for everyone piling into the car and dealing with the heat while I ran some errands.

The feeling of melancholy and sentimentality

It comes from my soul resonance. I have a real perception that my time glossing over what is behind is over with and done. It’s the same kind of feeling I had when I graduated high school and got my first real job. A phase of my life is done and over with. It was so enjoyable and fun! While it lasted. I feel relaxed and at peace. There is simply a great poignance and a recognition of the time as the phases change. I feel some sadness, but also joy and appreciation for the amazing time that I had. I was fully in it. I was fully there. Whatever I have, I don’t have regrets! I have wonderful experiences in my soul that are there, with me forever. It was grand.

It was brought about by my consideration of the treat we were on our way to get- not necessarily fast food, but close enough. I sense that fundamental change coming into my daily consciousness from my Soul and Higher Self- it is inevitable that these little things borne of ignorance and ignoring the cause will end. I will not be able to ignore it, once these perceptions come online in my daily life. I sense it coming. But, it’s not here, yet.
And so I have a moment to savor. A moment of decadence and mixed disapproval with amusement- like a parent watching a child pick scabs. You won’t want to once you know that it creates scars. But, enjoy it while you can.

There is an intensity to this in-between place; an intensity of the surreal materiality of the world, and also of the immensity and depth of the change that is to come.