Evidentiary Observations in Meditations

I had been experiencing thoughts of doubts- first, a doubt about my decision to internalize and redeem Black Beauty.

This thought was subtle but persistent so that it came up and interrupted my reading and sometimes other unrelated activities. Finally, I set my book down and addressed it (the doubt). I asked what would you have me do (to the feeling of being interrupted)?

It was an instantaneous imaginative inspiration. I had learned the technique a couple of weeks ago, but my first attempts were very imperfect and awkward.
So I did it now- with what felt like divine guidance and confidence.
I meditated and found my ‘I’ in the heart, and moved it up, above my head to the first chakra above my body. I felt a palpable and living sensation as it activated strongly and resonated with my heart. I felt into this for a moment, but then drew a Vesica around my body all the way down to the first chakra beneath my feet. It glowed deep and densely gold and emitted light.
I repeated this for the second chakra above my head, which I felt had only a tenuous and unstable resonance with my throat, and connected it in a Vesica around my body and also around the first Vesica to the second chakra below my feet. It was also gold, but less dense and glowed less brightly.
I then repeated this a third time for the third chakra above my head, which had a much stronger resonance with my forehead eye and a feeling of deep reverence. I connected this with the third chakra below my feet, again containing the other two already present. This Vesica was the most delicate and faint- the least dense. But it felt like a power not contained or limited in any way and perhaps beyond what I could even perceive or describe.

After this I showered and- I perceived a multitude of small black beings pouring off of me. They flowed out of my skin and were washed away.
Often, when a homeopathic or vibrational remedy is corrective, it causes immediate purging or expulsion/excretion. This happened yesterday, and my period started yesterday. 5 days ahead. I’ve never had that happen in my life.

And I realized afternoon my doubts were gone. The thing about Black Beauty is that, because he is, or was, an Ahrimanic or mestopholesian demon of materialism, he has both the dark capacity of denial of spirit and the positive capacity of bringing grounded concrete thought into spiritual spaces. Perhaps my doubt could be characterized as, “what if my brain is simply creating fanciful and mystical images and merely believing they’re reality because now I have this demon of material on board?”
Thankfully, I do not suffer from the Cartesian sort of demonic doubts!

Today, I remembered that I had some doubts about “seeing” the etheric field of plants. It looks to me like a white-blue halo that extends some ways out from a plant like a perfect silhouette. And I thought, how do I know it is t just the material light/ illumination from a physical source?
The answer came immediately.
ig it was a purely physical phenomena, then the perception would follow physical laws. Ie, one side of the plant would be illuminated and the other in shadow. There is no physical law that the entire plant has an equidistant glowing form around it. Rather: that is in contradiction to physical laws.

So; what I see or perceive cannot be a physical light.

Things seem much more form and grounded for one who would be considered insane by materialists.