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I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.

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That’s what another writer calls me. She’s pretty right. Only problem… I really suck at it. I read an article earlier about 10 things that alpha women need in a relationship. In the preface they ...


2 days ago

Massage... in Fresh Start...

I have a massage scheduled for today. K bought me a groupon for Christmas. I need the relaxation. I’m currently just tired and sore. My period is in full force and I need to do pt exercises for ...


So dumb… So today F comes up to me and kinda mumbles that he was confused and would be kewl with hanging out… So I guess he thought I was propositioning him for sex? Or can’t read? Not sure which...


Like extremely dumb… I was messaging with F on fb earlier. Just chatting. This is basically how the conversation went: Me: I was going to say earlier that we could hang out sometime but figured t...


April 14, 2017

Realizing... in Book of M...

I think I’m finally beginning to realize that M was just this pipe dream that was never going to happen. For a long time after I kicked out my ex bf I was constantly asking myself why I wasn’t e...


April 10, 2017

Fucked up... in Fresh Start...

Work has been fucked up lately. Meeting on Friday almost seemed like it was going to end in a fight. My boss’s boss is too big for his britches and tries to micromanage everything. I think he’s f...


April 05, 2017

Exclusion... in Book of M...

This may sound stupid. But I can’t help how I feel. My profession is mainly male dominated. The only other woman at my plant is an administrative assistant chick. There aren’t very many women in ...


Most definitely. Today wholeheartedly reaffirmed that belief. When I want to talk to someone or need to, there’s no one there, but if I’m busy, you better believe everyone is texting me. I have...


March 29, 2017

Better... in Fresh Start...

Monday was just a really bad day. Tuesday K and my ex hubby came over as usual. C was texting me but when I told him he was welcome to come over, he was too busy cleaning or something. I haven’t...


March 27, 2017

Lonely... in Fresh Start...

I’m not sure what my problem is. I feel extremely lonely. I hate being home alone. I’m entirely unmotivated. I want to talk to someone, but at the same time, I feel like a complete bother. I thi...


March 24, 2017

Fantasy Life... in Book of M...

My daydreams have gotten a little out of control… It’s late. You text me. Almost illegibly. Drowning your feelings in fireball. Wanting to talk to someone. But not a guy because then you couldn’t...


March 24, 2017

Gah... in Book of M...

Ok… so I’m so just done and bored with C. When I describe the sex as boring and mediocre at best… and oh so vanilla. Not that I’m a total freak in bed, but just gah… I’ve been super busy at work...


I’m incredibly stressed out. A lot of it is work related, but the more I stress, the less I seem to accomplish. My dating life is also a source of stress. I need to give up. On everything. Curre...


March 09, 2017

Catch Up... in Fresh Start...

It’s been just a bit since I’ve written. Lots of stuff has happened. First… I went on a date with C. I honestly expected it to be awkward and just not go all that well. I mean, at that point I’d...


February 28, 2017

Just embarrassing... in Fresh Start...

So yeah… I was feeling stressed most of the weekend. Between still being sick and mother nature and not wanting to deal with work and not being able to just have sex for stress relief it was pret...


February 26, 2017

Cough... cough... in Fresh Start...

I’m so sick of coughing. Asthmatic bronchitis can go to hell. I’m finally feeling better, except the whole not being able to breathe thing. Then of course mother nature decided to make an appeara...


February 22, 2017

Survey... in Fresh Start...

Be honest; name of the last person to text you? V… that’s all you’re getting. This time last year what was your relationship status? I was attached, for over 2 years actually. What is the 15th te...


February 21, 2017

Sick again... in Fresh Start...

I’ve been in bed sick since Friday afternoon. I felt off on Thursday, then woke up Friday with awful chest congestion but went to work anyways. By the time I got home on Friday I was done and I b...


February 09, 2017

Long Week... in Book of M...

It’s just been very long so far. Been busy at work catching up on a bunch of evaluations and stuff. No M to make the day go by faster. Haven’t heard from him at all actually. H texted me the othe...


February 06, 2017

Motivation... in Book of M...

I have none… I pretty much accomplished nothing at home today. I did get a spreadsheet thing at work finished at least. I almost feel like I need to get up and clean but sleep. It’s going to be ...


February 04, 2017

Just Argh... in Book of M...

Ok seriously… what is wrong with guys??? V came over last night. We pretty much did nothing. Like we messed around and he got his twice but me not so much. I went around and fed all my animals an...


February 02, 2017

Weekend Plans... in Book of M...

So far my only plans are V coming over tomorrow night. It’s been a little while since I’ve had anyone stay the night and he’s said he’s staying. I need to do things around the house. I need to s...


February 01, 2017

Also... in Book of M...

V asked me if I’ve ever been to a swingers club and said I might like it. I’m not sure how to take this, but I’ve never even gone to a club/bar and picked a guy up or gone home with a guy, so fuc...


February 01, 2017

I'm not sure... in Book of M...

Of anything really… I’ve been in a super funk recently. Last week I fostered a dog. I took him to the adoption event on Saturday and a nice couple took him home for a foster to adopt trial week. ...


January 29, 2017

Goals... in Fresh Start...

● Get my butt in gear and restart doing my physical therapy exercises. Also need to focus on eating a lot less carbs. I lost almost 25 lbs in the past 6 months. I would like to lose about 25 more...


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