Lord Cookie
Hello! I like writing long-ass entries because I am very forgetful. I want to record my memories in detail. Although now, I'm using writing to help me manage depression. Too many things swimming in your head, gotta let it out somehow.
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Something nice to write about for a change in Adventure Log [01]
I’m in video chat with Joseph right now. The man I fucking love. We went through some hard times but jesus, this man. I love you lots. He knows that. I just feel like writing it here.
Family falling apart in The Rant Dump
Dad’s fucked up in the head. I can’t blame him. It’s sad. He kept blaming my mom for things he has no evidence for. Things that he himself did. Things that are honestly understandable for her to ...
Confusion and relapse in The Rant Dump
We got back together. But it’s like a roller coaster. I suck at communication, but I damn well try. I fucked something up and from that point on, he said he will ‘put less pressure on me’, said h...
Stuck in my head in The Rant Dump
It’s 1pm. I’ve been ruminating since I woke up at 6am today. Been a long time since I wrote an entry here. I am doing it now to sort myself out. Got diagnosed with Depression last, let’s see… Mar...
Too Attached in The Rant Dump
Didn’t think I’d be this clingy. From the start, I was wary. Have always been. People are, generally, difficult to deal with. He said, let your guard down, I will do the same. Let’s be genuine in...
Untitled in The Rant Dump
I lost the key to the apartment yesterday. It taught me that I am bad with coping with stress. …or, actually, I’m not sure if I am. I was really exhausted from yesterday’s errands, and that took ...
Sugar crash and video games in Adventure Log [01]
It’s my day off today. It is very important to me since I work for 12 hours for 4 consecutive days. That means I don’t really have time to relax and indulge in my hobbies. Without them, I would n...
I'm easily falling in love in Adventure Log [01]
Never thought I’d be a victim to Erikson’s psychosocial theory for early adulthood. Intimacy vs Isolation. I’ve always prided myself for never needing anyone else to make me happy. But that’s kin...
Summary update in The Rant Dump
Almost a year since I last wrote. Migrated here in America last October, didn’t write ever since. Last entry was dated September 2015. Of course it was about Dota 2. (I honestly think I wrote ano...
Echo Slammin' in Adventure Log [01]
Yesterday, Tyson, Stan, Jace, and I queued for a bot match, since our connection wasn’t good enough for a normal match. But I was already tired at some point while queuing, so I closed my eyes fo...
Micro in Adventure Log [01]
Luther told me today that this is probably the final week that we will get to play Dota together. This is supposed to feel ominous. This is his last week on his job, and so he wouldn’t have any r...
GGWP Huskar in Adventure Log [01]
Today, I played All Random normal match with two of my friends, Stan and Tyson. The team got Batrider, Venomancer, Templar Assassin, Sniper, and Huskar. I was happy because each one of us had our...
Dota > poolside barbecue party in Adventure Log [01]
Earlier today, I was supposed to attend my cousin’s poolside party at some resort. Last night, I had trouble deciding whether I should go or not. Ended up sleeping at 5 AM, so I didn’t go. I tho...
She's in love with me in Adventure Log [01]
Tonight, she confessed again. She asked me whether I remember the last time she did. I knew it was earlier this year. She said it was five months ago. I came back to her life sometime around Febr...
Dota all night in Adventure Log [01]
Friday is going to be a holiday, so we decided to do something fun from Thursday night ‘til dawn. What better idea is there than Dota? I need a life, hahaha. The last time Luther and I pulled an ...
Noob life in Dota in Adventure Log [01]
So I’ve been playing Dota for 5 months now. I remember that entry I published back when I was a complete beginner. I didn’t know the majority of the items nor heroes, but now, they’re common term...
Feelings in The Rant Dump
It’s been a while since I’ve fallen in love with anyone on a romantic sense. I’m not sure what I am feeling now. For years, I’ve fallen hard for Benedict and have done nothing about it. I decided...
Sorry, bad Dota Lion reference right there. But ah, yes. I had an adventure filled with misfortune earlier today, and I want to write about it anyway. It may have been terrible all throughout, bu...
Could've died today. in Adventure Log [01]
Right now in front of me is the half-full 60-mL bottle of a cheap energy shot drink I bought today out of curiosity (and need). I’ve been feeling down for some time and couldn’t get the motivatio...
I, er, what. in The Rant Dump
I’m not upset. …I think I am, but I don’t want to be. I just did some deep breathing thing I learned some time ago on the internet. I felt physically calm, but my brain keeps arguing about the po...
Ah, quiet. in The Rant Dump
Today I’ve decided to take a little vacation. I stopped thinking about the things that I have to do. I’m in my room the whole day, barely spoke at all. I allowed myself to do whatever I felt like...
30-ish hours in DotA and still sucking, LOL in Adventure Log [01]
It’s almost midnight, and I’m still reading up on a lot of DotA-related stuff. I’ve only started playing last January 2, and I really want to get good at it. This game is…difficult. Being an enth...
New Year 'vacation' in Adventure Log [01]
We always have our family reunion on January 1st. I don’t usually go. But this time I did– because the place was halfway to where I really intended to be. With my second family, whom I cherish mo...
Rant #1221398 in The Rant Dump
I wish that when I’d come to this site, I’d write something funny or amazing for once. -sigh- Okay, that’s it. I’m not trusting anyone anymore. No more. Enough. I am not a play thing. I am not st...
Hallow-whine in The Rant Dump
Ah, dear. It’s been ages since I last visited this site. I would write on paper on an ordinary day. It’s still an ordinary day today. Well, that’s the problem. I’m sick of ordinary days. Because ...