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If you’re a Christian, you’re probably not going to like this one. Fair warning. Also I was raised in the church (Southern Baptist, amen.), So I’m not just talking out of my ass. It really irks m...

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So it’s Saturday, and I woke up at 8:30, which is weird, because usually if I go to bed early on Saturday, I still sleep till at least 10:00. Not going to complain, though. So I have the list in ...

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Finally. So I’ve been in a shit mood since Friday last. A friend of mine in California referred a friend of hers to me, so I was patiently waiting for her email. It had been a couple weeks, and I...

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Well, people from my history anyway. Way back when, I was what you’d call a friend of convenience to 2 cheerleader sisters and a couple of their very popular girlfriends. I say that because I’ve ...

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So things have hit the wall again, and since I’ve no one irl locally to talk to and my non local friends have their own lives (and I feel guilty bothering them with my bs problems) I’m here. So I...

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I do that more than I’d like. I’d planned to put my truck’s 4-wheel drive to use this summer and take the trail up to the mountains. That didn’t happen. Now it’s the rainy season. I frequently ma...

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This week has ended with a good little correspondence between J and I. We used to chat on Whatsapp daily, but with her current schedule and an 8 hour time difference, it makes talking a little di...

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Title will be the reason if this suddenly goes horribly unintelligible. It’s been an average weekend. Dog and I both half asleep on the couch, sometimes the cat joins us. But he’s been being an a...

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To those of you who I comment with and read, I’m sorry if I’ve failed to keep up with you. It’s not that reading your posts bores me, I’m just having a really crap time getting over the internal ...

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I had the most spectacular dream last night. It sort of went back a little ways and like my life took a completely different path. I don’t know what I was doing for work, but I was obviously doin...

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Today has been absolutely horrible internally. I can’t get M out of my head. I haven’t heard from her since October. She did me very wrong in a way that she knew I wouldn’t be able to take. She k...

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I’ve been debating since I woke up if I was going to post this to find again, or leave it be and forget about it. Either way, after the weekend is over, it’s gonna be awkward at work. I have a r...

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I’m not sure why, but lately certain music is really getting my emotions all fucked up. I watched Braveheart the other night, and some of the bagpipe music got me misty, some kinda sappy songs th...

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The week is finally over. I made a mail run and got in a few minutes ago. Always nice to get my truck out for a while, put on Sirius/XM, set the cruise control, and just enjoy the drive. Most of ...

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I made an entry in “Dreams” a few days ago after another BL dream. I made some comment about how she’d be stuck in my head, and I was unfortunately right. I can’t escape her since. It’s not the a...

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Last night I had another dream about BL. (First GF.) I seem to do really good for a while, where she isn’t on my mind, I don’t dream about her, nothing makes me think of her, then boom, there she...

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I have an Instagram now. Apparently, I had one a long time ago, but I uploaded one pic of myself and then seemed to stop using it for a while. J more or less forced me into getting one again, so ...

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I fake smiles too easily. I don’t like that. I get no benefit of it. It’s not conveying the true nature of how I feel. I feel like the girl I thought was my one ripped my heart out, stomped on it...

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Today I’ve felt a heartache like someone died. Like I’m dying. It’s the first day working since January that my phone’s not gone off with a message from M. I don’t know why I want to hear from h...

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I opted for that title for two reasons. One, we’ve hit that part of the year where it’s quickly shifting to longer nights. The other is I’ve hit something I wasn’t expecting, and my depression is...

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Today is a nice relaxing day. I had to put my car into the mechanic, thankfully nothing major. I knew the clutch needed to be replaced, but that happens when you buy a car with almost 200,000 mil...

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I know it’s been a while, just bear with me. I’ve heard that Peter Capaldi is stepping down from Dr. Who this year. After his role in “The Thick of It” and “In the Loop”, I’ve kept waiting to he...

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Today has been one of those days where my mind just won’t shut the fuck up. I come home, and it only gets worse. It doesn’t help that “Fault In Our Stars” is on at the part where they’re in the a...

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Last night I had the strangest dream. There was no boat to China, Where I went I did not find ya, Still I have yet to get my laundry clean. I still want to hold ya, Dafuq does it mean!?!? If you ...

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So I’ve been kinda mulling over a couple of notes left by the owner’s dad when he put gas in my work truck, and I’m a bit annoyed. He’s worried about about my truck being dirty and blaming me for...

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