Entries 114

Page 4 of 5

It’s been a draining couple of weeks. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. All around. I’ve had a great convo with J the last couple of days, which has been a definite help. M has also been some he...

---

No, not to me, or to this blog. Unfortunately for you. I’ve been kinda on the fence about S a lot lately, and been primarily avoiding her. Friday she started getting insisty that I come out with ...

---

I cannot get out of this slump. The usual ensues, I’m fine at work, around customers, around the office, etc, but once I get home, that’s all over and done, and it’s all down hill. I’ve been havi...

---

I guess I never really realise how badly broken I am until something causes me to fall apart. I was watching Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, and it got to the part when Dumbledore is kill...

---

Of the week, that is. It’s Thursday night, so I’m one day from a weekend. It seems like by Thursday, I get the feeling my week flew by. By Monday morning, I want it to be Friday. Bought new ear p...

---

I finally said on Facebook that I’m not okay. With Facebook’s ordering algorhythm and the people I have on my friends list, I figure 3 people will acknowledge it (J, S, and Nana) and probably com...

---

I’m home for a little bit, seeing as I had time between jobs. I’m okay when I’m working, hell, I’m even okay when I’m alone driving the truck without the radio on. But If I stop for anything, my ...

---

I dunno if that’s accurate, but that’s sure how it feels. I finally have the truck I’ve always wanted. I haven’t driven it in over a month. I like my car. I barely drive it. I want to get the gar...

---

So M and I have been talking for over a week now, relatively consistently. It’s been on me to start the conversation. I don’t like that. The other side of it is emotionally, I want her to come ba...

---

The pets and I have been very inactive this weekend. The dog is curled in a ball passed out, and the cat is on his back with this sort of smirk as he sleeps. I’m barely keeping my eyes open. I’v...

---

GOD DAMN IT FUCKING SHIT! I should never have replied to M! I sent the message first yesterday, conversation ran till we both went to bed. I didn’t message today, and nothing. So what was the fuc...

---

M (aka “The Vanishing Act”) up and messaged me out of nowhere last night. No one would be more shocked than I am. I’ve not exactly cut her any slack. I’ve been blunt almost to the point of being ...

---

I’ve managed to do the grocery shopping. I have yet to do the laundry. I’m trying not to think at all, or at least as little as possible. It’s 7:45 in the evening. I already don’t want to go to...

---

Sorry. It’s been an odd week, and I’ve had a very difficult time getting out of my head. I’ll be so fucking glad when I get back on my medication. This depression is driving me up the damn wall. ...

---

I didn’t, but I almost did. I was coming back from running errands in the truck, and while I was on the street, a girl walked past my drive while I was still on the street waiting on the gate to ...

---

Dad’s been on my mind today. Not sure exactly what set it off, but yeah. I’m wishing I’d written down some of his stories, or better yet, recorded him telling some of them. Not like I didn’t have...

---

Well, I didn’t kill anyone, the work truck is still parked under my carport, and I didn’t smoke. I also didn’t sleep well last night. I dunno what happened. I didn’t really dream that I can reca...

---

Am I the only one who waits till the last minute to do chores? I’ve had a three day weekend, thanks to it being New Year’s and all. I spent 2-1/2 days with my ass plastered to the couch surrounde...

---

Got a rather rude phone call from boss’s dad as I didn’t have the work truck available Saturday for him to gas up. (Not like I have an issue dealing with refueling it myself.) Basically, after I ...

---

Sometimes I seriously hate being emotionally enabled. Today has been absolutely crap. Everything is setting my emotions off. Happy scenario or thought, sad scenario or thought, and I can feel my ...

---

For the longest time (over 2 years) I was haunted by this girl I just referred to as “The Ginger”. I know a lot about her, but that’s for another story. Now, I have a new one. Jessica. She’s a sc...

---

A friend of mine moved back to the area from Idaho, and got in touch with me today. She came by the store, and I walked over when she got out of her car. Her first order of business was to give m...

---

It's frigid here. Below freezing. So cold in fact that my fountain/pond thing is frozen over, and I had a rude surprise when I went to knock what I thought was water off the tarp over the dog ken...

---

I'd have gotten to this sooner, but while I was at the Russian place enjoying some piroshki and Scottish breakfast tea, S sent a text and said she wanted to meet up, so I gave her directions and ...

---

To preface this, I do believe that dreams tell us things. Sometimes, though, I'll admit I have no clue what my dreams are trying to tell me, and other times I do. Last night, I dreamed that a g...

---