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My energy level hasn’t been great lately. I’ve come in from work, changed into my sweats, and laid down on the couch till it’s time to feed the cat. I’ve gotten nothing done on organizing, except...

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Was supposed to do two jobs today, but the first one was a complete cluster bleep. Had to make lots of modifications. I was actually relieved when I called the second customer and she made the su...

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I had to work in the garage of a hoarder today. He opted to leave the door to the house open, which didn’t help, considering everything wreaked of stale ramen packages. I was replacing the spring...

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No, not me. Dreamt I was in Philly for some reason. I saw a lot of buildings I don’t recognize, but in my dream I knew where they were. I was doing some work in my dream (I’m thinking that might ...

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Shockingly didn’t include the usual haunting faces. I don’t remember much of it, but I was in a cathedral, it was some foreign-to-me orthodox religion, the priest was wearing white robes with a g...

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Today is day 3 of me coming home and ending up crashing on the couch, completely out of energy after work. I started thinking about it today, and I think it’s the coffee. I normally order a mediu...

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I cannot believe I’ve done this. It’s 01:08 here, and I’m still awake. I shouldn’t be. I was putting my pills in the pill box, and I put my AM pills in the PM slot, and the PM pills in the AM slo...

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If you’re a Christian, you’re probably not going to like this one. Fair warning. Also I was raised in the church (Southern Baptist, amen.), So I’m not just talking out of my ass. It really irks m...

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So it’s Saturday, and I woke up at 8:30, which is weird, because usually if I go to bed early on Saturday, I still sleep till at least 10:00. Not going to complain, though. So I have the list in ...

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Finally. So I’ve been in a shit mood since Friday last. A friend of mine in California referred a friend of hers to me, so I was patiently waiting for her email. It had been a couple weeks, and I...

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Well, people from my history anyway. Way back when, I was what you’d call a friend of convenience to 2 cheerleader sisters and a couple of their very popular girlfriends. I say that because I’ve ...

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So things have hit the wall again, and since I’ve no one irl locally to talk to and my non local friends have their own lives (and I feel guilty bothering them with my bs problems) I’m here. So I...

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I do that more than I’d like. I’d planned to put my truck’s 4-wheel drive to use this summer and take the trail up to the mountains. That didn’t happen. Now it’s the rainy season. I frequently ma...

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This week has ended with a good little correspondence between J and I. We used to chat on Whatsapp daily, but with her current schedule and an 8 hour time difference, it makes talking a little di...

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Title will be the reason if this suddenly goes horribly unintelligible. It’s been an average weekend. Dog and I both half asleep on the couch, sometimes the cat joins us. But he’s been being an a...

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To those of you who I comment with and read, I’m sorry if I’ve failed to keep up with you. It’s not that reading your posts bores me, I’m just having a really crap time getting over the internal ...

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I had the most spectacular dream last night. It sort of went back a little ways and like my life took a completely different path. I don’t know what I was doing for work, but I was obviously doin...

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Today has been absolutely horrible internally. I can’t get M out of my head. I haven’t heard from her since October. She did me very wrong in a way that she knew I wouldn’t be able to take. She k...

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I’ve been debating since I woke up if I was going to post this to find again, or leave it be and forget about it. Either way, after the weekend is over, it’s gonna be awkward at work. I have a r...

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I’m not sure why, but lately certain music is really getting my emotions all fucked up. I watched Braveheart the other night, and some of the bagpipe music got me misty, some kinda sappy songs th...

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The week is finally over. I made a mail run and got in a few minutes ago. Always nice to get my truck out for a while, put on Sirius/XM, set the cruise control, and just enjoy the drive. Most of ...

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I made an entry in “Dreams” a few days ago after another BL dream. I made some comment about how she’d be stuck in my head, and I was unfortunately right. I can’t escape her since. It’s not the a...

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Last night I had another dream about BL. (First GF.) I seem to do really good for a while, where she isn’t on my mind, I don’t dream about her, nothing makes me think of her, then boom, there she...

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I have an Instagram now. Apparently, I had one a long time ago, but I uploaded one pic of myself and then seemed to stop using it for a while. J more or less forced me into getting one again, so ...

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I fake smiles too easily. I don’t like that. I get no benefit of it. It’s not conveying the true nature of how I feel. I feel like the girl I thought was my one ripped my heart out, stomped on it...

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