He Who Must Not Be Named ⋅
I like my job. I look in the mirror and say "this is not my life" frequently. I'm a day dreamer. I'm on the autistic spectrum. I'm mental. I laugh at people's opinions of me. I'm not easily offended. I can be pretty entertaining. Stop by and say hi. :-)
If it makes sense to you, don't count on anyone else to do it.
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(Witty Title) in Random Thoughts
My energy level hasn’t been great lately. I’ve come in from work, changed into my sweats, and laid down on the couch till it’s time to feed the cat. I’ve gotten nothing done on organizing, except...
Timing issues and memories in Deeper Bits (Emotional and such)
Was supposed to do two jobs today, but the first one was a complete cluster bleep. Had to make lots of modifications. I was actually relieved when I called the second customer and she made the su...
Mind numbing day... in Random Thoughts
I had to work in the garage of a hoarder today. He opted to leave the door to the house open, which didn’t help, considering everything wreaked of stale ramen packages. I was replacing the spring...
West Philadelphia born and raised... in Dreams
No, not me. Dreamt I was in Philly for some reason. I saw a lot of buildings I don’t recognize, but in my dream I knew where they were. I was doing some work in my dream (I’m thinking that might ...
Nonsensical... in Dreams
Shockingly didn’t include the usual haunting faces. I don’t remember much of it, but I was in a cathedral, it was some foreign-to-me orthodox religion, the priest was wearing white robes with a g...
Coffee Crashing and Mental Anguish in Deeper Bits (Emotional and such)
Today is day 3 of me coming home and ending up crashing on the couch, completely out of energy after work. I started thinking about it today, and I think it’s the coffee. I normally order a mediu...
F!king dumbass... in Everyday Rants...
I cannot believe I’ve done this. It’s 01:08 here, and I’m still awake. I shouldn’t be. I was putting my pills in the pill box, and I put my AM pills in the PM slot, and the PM pills in the AM slo...
Quick Rant in Random Thoughts
If you’re a Christian, you’re probably not going to like this one. Fair warning. Also I was raised in the church (Southern Baptist, amen.), So I’m not just talking out of my ass. It really irks m...
Can I get it done? in Everyday Rants...
So it’s Saturday, and I woke up at 8:30, which is weird, because usually if I go to bed early on Saturday, I still sleep till at least 10:00. Not going to complain, though. So I have the list in ...
Another week over... in Everyday Rants...
Finally. So I’ve been in a shit mood since Friday last. A friend of mine in California referred a friend of hers to me, so I was patiently waiting for her email. It had been a couple weeks, and I...
Historic Persons... in Everyday Rants...
Well, people from my history anyway. Way back when, I was what you’d call a friend of convenience to 2 cheerleader sisters and a couple of their very popular girlfriends. I say that because I’ve ...
and again... in Everyday Rants...
So things have hit the wall again, and since I’ve no one irl locally to talk to and my non local friends have their own lives (and I feel guilty bothering them with my bs problems) I’m here. So I...
Hiding behind my fence... in Random Thoughts
I do that more than I’d like. I’d planned to put my truck’s 4-wheel drive to use this summer and take the trail up to the mountains. That didn’t happen. Now it’s the rainy season. I frequently ma...
Another Week Down. in Everyday Rants...
This week has ended with a good little correspondence between J and I. We used to chat on Whatsapp daily, but with her current schedule and an 8 hour time difference, it makes talking a little di...
Ending the weekend from the tub. in Random Thoughts
Title will be the reason if this suddenly goes horribly unintelligible. It’s been an average weekend. Dog and I both half asleep on the couch, sometimes the cat joins us. But he’s been being an a...
A Sidenote... in Random Thoughts
To those of you who I comment with and read, I’m sorry if I’ve failed to keep up with you. It’s not that reading your posts bores me, I’m just having a really crap time getting over the internal ...
A dream and a bit. in Dreams
I had the most spectacular dream last night. It sort of went back a little ways and like my life took a completely different path. I don’t know what I was doing for work, but I was obviously doin...
M and lonliness... in Deeper Bits (Emotional and such)
Today has been absolutely horrible internally. I can’t get M out of my head. I haven’t heard from her since October. She did me very wrong in a way that she knew I wouldn’t be able to take. She k...
Questionable Decisions of my Subconscious... in Dreams
I’ve been debating since I woke up if I was going to post this to find again, or leave it be and forget about it. Either way, after the weekend is over, it’s gonna be awkward at work. I have a r...
The Music Gets To Be Too Much... in Random Thoughts
I’m not sure why, but lately certain music is really getting my emotions all fucked up. I watched Braveheart the other night, and some of the bagpipe music got me misty, some kinda sappy songs th...
The Weekend... finally in Everyday Rants...
The week is finally over. I made a mail run and got in a few minutes ago. Always nice to get my truck out for a while, put on Sirius/XM, set the cruise control, and just enjoy the drive. Most of ...
I was right...(And reply to a comment) in Everyday Rants...
I made an entry in “Dreams” a few days ago after another BL dream. I made some comment about how she’d be stuck in my head, and I was unfortunately right. I can’t escape her since. It’s not the a...
She came again... in Dreams
Last night I had another dream about BL. (First GF.) I seem to do really good for a while, where she isn’t on my mind, I don’t dream about her, nothing makes me think of her, then boom, there she...
Broken... in Deeper Bits (Emotional and such)
I have an Instagram now. Apparently, I had one a long time ago, but I uploaded one pic of myself and then seemed to stop using it for a while. J more or less forced me into getting one again, so ...
faking smiles... in Deeper Bits (Emotional and such)
I fake smiles too easily. I don’t like that. I get no benefit of it. It’s not conveying the true nature of how I feel. I feel like the girl I thought was my one ripped my heart out, stomped on it...