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34-year-old rainbow hot mess of emotions and feelings

"It's so hard to explain with your heart in a cage. Only whisper but you wanna shout. Cause the second you wake, too much pressure to take. Every part of you wants to cry out"

Zoe Wees

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It’s been SO long since I’ve written, I quite frankly don’t have the energy to back track to get you all where I am from there…so I’ll just start from where I am. Today, I stepped COMPLETELY out ...


We survived our first week of school! So many of the kids remembered me which was awesome. I’m mainly working with 3rd-5th grades. Our Special Education caseload for this small neighborhood magne...


My boyfriend that is… TODAY was the first day of school for my school district (unless you’re my son and in Pre-K then you start lord knows when which is DUMB anyway because I’m a parent and a te...


A week from yesterday is the first day of school! At least for ME it is. My son starts another day and my daughter starts on the 17th I believe. So anyway, being back in the building hasn’t been ...


I know that you guys have just been DYING to hear about my first 3 days back to work (not really). Remember how I was worried about where I would sit on inservice day since last year I pretty muc...


Back to work tomorrow! Goodbye sweet Summertime! I have truly and thoroughly enjoyed my Summer. How blessed I am to get to stay home with my kids all Summer (especially while they’re this age). I...


All of this back to school crap! So I keep stumbling upon an entry I wrote this time last year (ish) about how I purchased school supplies through this website for my daughters school. I paid li...


Just when I thought that I had all of my sons daycare/school woes sorted out, I found out that I don’t! I finally found a daycare with an opening for a non-fully potty trained 3 year old that has...


But really, it’s only July 13th, and I’ve been seeing stores prep for B2S for a few weeks. I actually almost considered buying my daughter a lunchbox/water bottle combo! NO WAY JOSE! It’s too ea...


First I am going to tell you a poop story. So my son is potty training right? He has been now for 2 years straight. He’ll be 4 in October, and for the most part he knows when he needs to use the ...


Have you ever used a sex toy in bed? Umm yes! If you haven’t, you’re missing out! There’s nothing wrong with a little extra razzle dazzle lol When is the last time you’ve masturbated? A couple mo...


I was just sitting here telling my boyfriend that I HAVE to write because I just feel so overwhelmed with information I’m holding onto. That was the WHOLE reason behind me ever starting out on Op...


This is why I ENJOY writing. I feel like I think clearly when I write. I’ve always been an avid diary writer since I got my very first diary with a lock and key from the school bookfair in 3rd gr...


2022 has fucking SUCKED FOR ME! I know that I disappeared, but I will tell you guys that I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH IT! Whether it’s my child with ADHD driving me mad, my non-potty trained 3 year ...


What a CRAZY few weeks it has been! We have finally reached SPRING BREAK here. My plan is to drive myself and my kids to my moms house tomorrow and I’ll for sure leave them there the entire time....


I realized today as I tried to wake up early and do some yoga specifically for easing migraines that I’m never in a place where it is SILENT. I also came to the realization that everyone else’s n...


What an anxiety ridden week! I’ve been having these headaches that feel like a brain freeze. However, they occur while not eating something cold. After like maybe the 2nd or 3rd day, my anxiety s...


So about a month ago my daughter was to have her appointment with the ADHD doctor. A check up/check in to see how everything is going. Because we’ve only lived here a little over a year and I am ...


So yesterday was my first therapy appointment. I haven’t been to a therapist since I was pregnant with my daughter (she’s 6 now). I’ve been dealing with my anxiety disorder for 10 years now, but ...


My boyfriend lost his dog today. She may not have been “mine” but she’s been a part of my life for over a year and a half and she was part of our family. I hope that no one has to experience what...


So…after 17 days, I finally took my mom back home! It was bittersweet! I really enjoyed having her here. It was unfortunate that her last week here was in quarantine with Covid, but even then she...


I’m going to be so sad when my mom goes home. I have NO control over my household. This morning, getting my daughter ready for school was an absolute NIGHTMARE. I HATE being a parent sometimes. A...


I’m not going to wait until you’re done Pretending you don’t need anyone I’m standing here naked (Song Lyrics from James Arthur-Naked) So I’ve been trying EVERYTHING to feel more connected to my...


So last Friday I got an email from my daughters school saying that she was a close contact to someone that tested positive for Covid. A few hours later, I get an email from my sons daycare (he go...


Imagine the woman you love taking 100% care of you, being by your side pre and post amputation, taking time off of work, tending to your medications, appointments, and making sure that you’re com...


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