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It’s been a few months and thankfully I can say that I’ve done a lot of healing. Things got worse before they got better but they DID get better. I think him showing me his TRUE colors helped me ...


My new anthem is “I will survive” by Gloria Gaynor. That song brings me so much strength. gotta love the power of music! As much strength as that song brings me I still feel like I’ve been broke...


Jackson admitted everything to me yesterday. He took my money for fronting a drug deal, cheated on me, lied to me about his employment, and many other things. He told me he would pay me back on ...


At this point, I have gone through all of the stages of grief about 5 times. I am no able to find humor in the absolute madness that has become my reality. Jackson is playing that he’s mad at me...


I have felt physically sick and haven’t been able to eat very much since I found out that Jackson is not who he says he is… I may or may not have broken down in the office at planned parenthood y...


Turns out Jackson has been cheating on me… or cheating with me. I looked through his phone after he fell asleep so that I could get his emergency contacts just in case something happened and I fo...


“I love you”, do you? “You’re like no one I’ve ever been with”, am I? “I’ve never felt like this before”, have you? “It’s different with us”, is it? Same song new rendition. Men say they want a ...


I’m a pleaser. I don’t know exactly why I’m such a people pleaser but I know that I am. Wanting to please the people in my life often gets in my way. I know I shouldn’t put so much energy into ot...


Jackson and I have been inseparable for the last 20 days (but who’s counting) and I am scared I might lose myself in US. I don’t want to lose who I am in our relationship. I guess me changing is ...


Jackson and I had our first bigger argument yesterday. Thank god we were able to work through it. We were at my parent’s house and he unexpectedly brought up that he has a son. We had agreed that...


March 01, 2021

Space in Just A Day In The Life

Do I want space or am I scared? I was feeling like I needed space yesterday but it might just be that I am scared. It’s not really HIM that I need space from but the energy in his home. I feel l...


Last night Jackson and I went out dancing. The numerous women that he has a history with were there of course but hey, I have my men with history there too, who am I to judge? He didn’t point the...


Today’s the day that Jackson and I go public in the dance community. I am excited to finally get to show off my relationship to all our dance friends. Last week we tried to hide it because we wer...


February 24, 2021

Clean Slate in Just A Day In The Life

Jackson and I were talking about how we feel brand new. Both of us have this clean slate to start with and we’re both very excited. I told him that I feel like I have been waiting for him to come...


I have fallen and I don’t wanna get up. I am fully obsessed with Jackson and I have no doubt that I am in love with him. We have seen each other almost every day for the past 7 days. You would th...


February 21, 2021

Thank God in Just A Day In The Life

I told my mom about Jackson and she took it shockingly well… like weirdly well… I think I have Kevin to thank for her supportiveness, ironically. My mom wasn’t the biggest Kevin fan mostly becaus...


February 18, 2021

F*CK in Just A Day In The Life

You guys, I’m screwed. I really fucking like this guy. I wasn’t ready to feel so strongly about anyone, especially this quickly. I decided to take a small leap of faith with Jackson. He has some...


February 17, 2021

Secret Love? in Just A Day In The Life

How are you supposed to respond to someone confessing their undying love for you out of the blue? Asking for a friend… Soooooooooooo. This weekend was interesting, to say the least. A couple of w...


I often feel that my mom downplays everything in my life. Do I slack-off sometimes? yeah, but so does everyone. I feel like I am not allowed to have horrible feelings. I don’t know if it qualifie...


It’s that time of the month! When I start feeling like an absolute crazy person! Hormones! Gotta love em! I hate being this emotionally fragile. I am having a rough morning… Definitely first worl...


I had one of those “5 years ago today” posts pop up on my Instagram yesterday of a picture of me with my best friend from college. It made me sad to see such a happy memory of a person I’m no lon...


If you’ve read my last few posts you will know that I recently started dating a woman. Let’s call her… “Ivy” for privacy sake (I change everyone’s name when I write). I really enjoy spending time...


February 05, 2021

Perception in Just A Day In The Life

“the ability to see, hear, or become aware of something through the senses.” Nothing gives me more mental stress than thinking about how you will never fully understand someone else’s perception ...


02-02-2021 : AAAHHHHH! I have been screaming internally since last night. It has been years since I have kissed a girl and I almost forgot how nice it was! Girls are terrifying and I’m a little n...


January 26, 2021

Weird Dream in Just A Day In The Life

I had a strange dream last night. It was a mix of my internal feelings and tv that I had been watching before bed. I always have had really intense dreams. This dream was a mothering dream. I fai...


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