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5 hours ago

Steps in First entry

Today I was at work and I received notification our joint account’s address was changed. That made me realize I need to get my own checking, savings and credit card. I told her I had to take t...


23 hours ago

Busted in First entry

So, everything is coming to light. I realize now how this has happened. There are sptill many many questions I want answered, but now I have proof of a lot of what I suspected. I want to star...


4 days ago

Dishes in First entry

Yesterday morning she came home. It was the first time I had seen her since she had gotten back. She was callous and only wanted to focus on dividing our furniture. It was fairly civil. I cou...


5 days ago

Gone in First entry

6Of you respond with I told you so, go fuck yourself. It’s been a crazy few days. My wife wanted me to come home on Sunday. Her dad went into the ICU with COVID 19. She said she was leavin...


7 days ago

Wishing in First entry

So. So much has happened and I’ve been just trying to deal with it. Yesterday my wife called and asked me to come home. Km sure you could have imagined what I said, of course! Then came the ca...


July 04, 2020

Resolve in First entry

Over the last couple days I have come a long ways. I have regained my hope and processed things more. Right now I’m stuck alone in my hotel room. I feel so lonely. Nothing here but my pain an...


July 03, 2020

Semi-Peace in First entry

Today was a better day. I’m finally past wanting to die. I am thankful that I have people to reach out to to when I feel hopeless. I have started to accept that I am not in control in my situ...


July 03, 2020

Answers in First entry

This will be my first post in which I am actually seeking input from the community. If you haven’t read my post, it may help provide some insight into my situation. Be prepared, a lot of it i...


July 01, 2020

Answers in First entry

This will be my first post in which I am actually seeking input from the community. If you haven’t read my post, it may help provide some insight into my situation. Be prepared, a lot of it i...


July 01, 2020

Distance in First entry

So, I am here at my shutdown trying to give her space trying to work things out in my head. Playing every detail over in my head. I’m starting to be able to calm down slightly. I’m surrenderin...


June 29, 2020

Space in First entry

I’ve started back at the beginning. Realizing I failed the test miserably. I have to pull back. I have to just love you through this and remove the pressure. I wish you would just stop with...


June 29, 2020

Sadness in First entry

I’ve reached a point where I feel overcome by pure sadness. I’ve spent the morning trying to find something positive to focus on. I’m in a downward spiral. I’m here driving to the project I...


June 29, 2020

Why! in First entry

I’ve gotten 2 hours of sleep the last.two nights. I dont understand. What the fuck have I done so wrong? How can you not see you are about to ruin everyone’s life. 15 years invested, just go...


June 28, 2020

Anger in First entry

She came home today. Today was hell.i had to wait forever for her to get home. She kept me at a distance. She was acting weird. I had the house cleaner than it has been in a long time. I wa...


June 25, 2020

Fear in First entry

Tonight is night 2 of my struggle. After so much progress and things were going so well, we have a test. She’s out of town for work and my.mind wont freaking stop. What about Covid, the other ...


June 21, 2020

Father's Day in First entry

I sit here today thankful I’m able to spend the day with my children. One of the great mysteries of life is how to be a great dad. My dad was effectively absent since I was about 2.5 years old...


June 19, 2020

Drinking alone in First entry

Just FYI the title is a Carrie Underwood song that is pretty good. But anyhoo it a bourbon night. You will come to learn that means I’ve had a couple drinks and my inhibitions are lowered an...


June 18, 2020

Healing in First entry

Things have been going well. We are spending time together and I feel we are growing closer. There are still things that bother me, but I am trying to work through it. I’m hopeful that time wi...


June 16, 2020

Lessons in First entry

So, things have turned around dramatically. Last night she said she had no desire to leave at all. We have found a good stride together. Yesterday, as we were driving, I was looking at the wo...


June 13, 2020

Fireworks in First entry

My internet went down.....it’s been a frustrating few days trying to get it sorted out. Well, at least I’m finally able to reach my outlet. Yesterday, I was at work when she text me. She said ...


June 11, 2020

Processing in First entry

I’ve been thinking a lot today. Trying to understand why I’m craving intimacy so deeply. Maybe I’m just craving that deeper connection? Maybe I still insecure and I feel that would fill my he...


June 11, 2020

Just Thoughts in First entry

Last night we had more real talk. She was a bit angry at times, sad at others. The last couple of days has been nice. We are spending time together. She seems to actually want to be around m...


June 10, 2020

Breakthrough in First entry

Progress, sweet progress! Yesterday when I got home, she was sitting on our front porch. I knew that was a really good sign or really bad. It turns out it was really good. I had stopped by he...


June 08, 2020

Better in First entry

Today I’m stressed, but thankfully it’s only from the pile of work I have to complete. I feel like I am seeing the light of a bright future. This morning came early and we got up and did our...


June 08, 2020

Monday in First entry

I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned how much I hate Monday’s. Today wasnt necessarily a bad day. It’s just we are so crazy at work. I’m super green and honestly way over my head. Combine that with...


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