Wrathnar
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Where to begin in Fresh Start
So, I’m not even sure where to start. I’m trying to think of my latest post and where I left things. I’ve remarried and my wife is absolutely amazing. I believe it truly was the right decisio...
Reflections in First entry
Here I am. Two years removed from when it all started. A lot has happened since I last wrote. I suppose this may or may not be a long post. Let’s see where it leads. Two years ago today, m...
Failure in Fresh Start
We have started the visitation process. I hate it. There’s no fucking reason because she decided to be a terrible human, I should lose time with my kids. It’s frustrating. I’m doing the work...
Permanent in First entry
I’m at a loss for words. It’s over. It’s finally over. Everything I have been dealing with....finally it is finished. I have struggled in ways that I never knew were possible. I’ve faced f...
Random in Fresh Start
So, the kids have met L’s kids a few times. They generally just get along. They have fun. They play and they chat. The age differences aren’t too great between the girls and boys. L and I ar...
Fingers in Fresh Start
So I knew it would get worse before it got better. Our weak stance and hasty withdrawal from Afghanistan....it was a huge mistake. It was foolish for Donald Trump to negotiate with the Taliban....
First Date in Fresh Start
If you have followed me, you know my story. I have what I affectionately have called as my freedom papers. I’m officially divorced. It’s been a long road. Damn, I am proud of where I came fro...
GWOT in First entry
I haven’t been in the news and I’m actually thankful for that. On my FB feed a lot of my friends I have served with are posting updates and talking about how they feel about what’s happening. ...
Hours in First entry
This may be the last entry in this book. Tomorrow I turn the page and close this chapter of my life. I am down to hours of being legally married. Almost 17 years of my life. I’ve learned a lo...
Closer in First entry
I am getting closer to the 16th. I feel like I have my feet under me. The kids are starting to get used to cleaning up behind themselves. Work is going well. We are a little slow at work, but ...
Finally in First entry
August 16th. August 16th! The divorce will be final! I can’t wait. I don’t have to show up, I don’t have tonpay an attorney, it will just be finished. That I am excited for. It’s time to be...
Renewed in First entry
It’s funny. The last few weeks I’ve noticed that I can breathe easier. Life is good. Work is flowing. They even have me training the newest hire. They have me slated for my biggest project t...
Dismissed in First entry
Yesterday I have court for the false charge she filed against me. As I was getting some work done from My car prior to having to be in court, insee the cute couple walking their baby to the cour...
Dumped in First entry
It figures. I have a crazy connection it just doesn’t work out. The woman that I was super interested in said that right now she isn’t able to give me the attention I deserve. I knew it was co...
Days in First entry
The last few days have actually been a few good ones. I’ll kind of work through it on here. Yesterday after dinner my daughter and I started chatting. She started asking questions about her bir...
Mom in First entry
I saw my mom for the first time since Christmas yesterday. She walked up and said “glad you see you’re still alive, I haven’t heard anything from you. ” Needless to say this didn’t sit well wi...
Infatuation in First entry
So here I am. I’m crazy over this woman. Part of me is so excited that I really can’t believe it’s possible. Every since Sunday, after we talked, I’ve seen her really starting to come out of ...
Vulnerable in First entry
Yesterday was a good day. That is for sure. After we talked, communication seems to be greatly improved. Its not like we are constantly messaging and talking, in fact I’m good with just a few...
Met in First entry
Hmm. I started off my morning checking my phone to nothing. I decided I would send her the time and place that I would be and if she showed up, we could take it there. I told her I wasn’t sure...
Deja Vu in First entry
It’s funny how quickly things turn…so this woman I had started talking. It was amazing. Everything clicked. We had the same vision. The last 2 days I’ve received 2 messages. Yesterday, about...
Yours in First entry
I never thought I would be here. I never thought that I could find someone that I could start talking about a subject and they would be able to finish it right where I left off. Or as we talked...
Fresh in First entry
Have you ever had a moment where it felt like you turned a corner and things finally seem to be coming back together? This past weekend was one of the best that I’ve had in a long time. Like, a...
Light in First entry
Today was good. I felt incredibly normal. I had a job walk with my boss, who was surprised at the progress we have made. He was pleased to say the least. He wants me to take on a 5 million do...
Darkness in First entry
July 1st .... I would guess I have an entry from a year ago. I’ll probably check after I write this. I was in hell. I was in pure darkness wishing for death. Like literally contemplating, fi...
Forward in First entry
It’s been peaceful. No drama, just handling work and the kids. Trying to get life back to being more normal again. Sometime I just think to myself take the step. You can do it. You are a man...
