HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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February 11, 2020

I was never meant in Journal 2020

Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...

February 11, 2020

I was never meant in Journal 2020

I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...

February 11, 2020

Demons in Journal 2020

There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...

February 11, 2020

Little Mermaid in Journal 2020

Wolfie was nice today, he sent me some nice messages. I regret my crush I had on him so much, I only told him to help not make our friendship uncomfortable. He’s twenty three and I’d never date a...

February 09, 2020

February ninth in Journal 2020

So. Yeah life’s been sicky. I’ve been trying to talk to John, Lili or Kayden about stuff. But I pretty much gave up. I just. Gave up for a good reason, just trust me on this. Something happened y...

February 08, 2020

Flue in Journal 2020

Guess who has the flu! Anyway, today I ate lots of food. Because I’m excited because I learned my weight at the doctor’s Thursday. They where checking my measurements and turns out I’m actually ...

February 04, 2020

Embarrassing... in Journal 2020

A friend deleted a comment i made in public on their account, saying I’d cause them trouble at school… This is why I prefer stuffed animals. They’re never ashamed of you. Or yell at you. Or get d...

February 03, 2020

February 02 - 03 in Journal 2020

Today… I’ve wondered if writing journals is really worth it in the end. I’ve been doing this for nearly a year now and it’s sad to see how much has gone wrong. However, many things have gone righ...

February 01, 2020

February First in Journal 2020

So, I’ve been talking to John again. And yes I mean talking as in normal conversations. I sometimes notice how I mistaked him for a serious, no bullshit person like I did nearly five years ago. W...

January 30, 2020

Loudest of groans in Journal 2020

All of you guys are right, I gotta move on. Isaac of ur reading this i hope whoever you cheated on me with online gets bumps on their fucking vagina and you wake up with horrific acne and all yo...

January 28, 2020

Failure in Journal 2020

I tried everything guys. I didn’t do anything to drive him away. I tried so bad. And he…he…lied. I saw in a server with my own eyes last week he talked about how he wasn’t over his ex, how the en...

January 24, 2020

January, 24th in Journal 2020

I don’t know if I want to write the mess that happened mid afternoon. I’ll write it tommorow or later tonight. Quite a mess indeed. Anyway, my boyfriend has been such a cutie recently. A adorable...

January 20, 2020

Good day :) in Journal 2020

So far my day has been good, besides a horrific nightmare/sleep paralysis experience this morning. It shook me to the core as I couldn’t move stalk for a few minutes, I barely slept for like two...

January 18, 2020

Making up in Journal 2020

So Emi and I made up. He seems healthier, he got himself a partner seventeen days ago(?) and he just seems more happy! I’m really happy for him. <3 Anyway, life’s been hectic I’m unsure. If I ...

January 14, 2020

To Will in Journal 2020

I know you can see this. And I don’t regret saying i wished i never met you. Because I don’t, you treated me… like…like I was your property.

January 12, 2020

So, last night in Journal 2020

Last night my friend did want to fuck me. But it was a girl this time. Anyway, I found myself not being scared by what she was texting because a) she was a girl b) she isn’t like that despite fac...

January 12, 2020

Talking in Journal 2020

I’m well aware of the fact i give to many chsnces. I know. I try to be very open and kind. But it does backfire. And it does open yourself to uncomfortable situations…

January 12, 2020

Loneliness in Journal 2020

For nearly a month it’s worsened and worsened. I feel empty, I’m trying my best

January 11, 2020

Trash in Journal 2020

I’ve been trying so hard. And I keep trying to. But it never is enough. It never is.

January 09, 2020

Heartbreak in Journal 2020

I didn’t think Will, would do that. I honestly hope I’m wrong. But if I’m not…I can’t believe it. Did he think I’d leave Isaac for him? Hell no. In my anger at thinking Isaac cheated I said I’d ...

January 08, 2020

. in Journal 2020

I’m tired. Today was a exhausting day, I ate cheeseballs and pizza and potato wedges and drank orange juice and water. Good. I feel sick and hurt but it’s okay. Just gotta keep working on these r...

January 07, 2020

You and Me in Journal 2020

I don’t want him to die. He had begun starving himself in my absent. I hate myself, for thinking breaking off our friendship would serve him well. Life was better for him even though he was dying...

January 07, 2020

Circa July, 16 in Journal 2020

I’ve been busy. I finally decided to tell the owner of the support group what happened, after a friend convincing me now was the best time. I was shaky, not knowing what to say or do. I didn’t co...

January 03, 2020

Thoughts in Journal 2020

I know Celtic cares about me but I know if something where to happen with me and Madi she’d always take her side. Always. This kinda came to me at random but it made sense. Madi’s more important....

January 03, 2020

Rarely Talking in Journal 2020

I rarely talk to Isaac now, it’s kinda upsetting but he’s super busy and I just have to be patient. Some stuff has been going on at home that I’ll write about later.

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