HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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January 01, 2020

Unhappy in Journal 2020

I feel really unhappy recently but I’m scared to say anything to anyone…or say why…

December 31, 2019

..... in ❅journal 2019❅

I didn’t get to talk to daddy at all yesterday and it’s all my fault. I think I scared him away. I had this stupid idea… really stupid idea. I talked to Celtic about it and she told me be careful...

December 30, 2019

The Plan in ❅journal 2019❅

Okay, so I’ve realized I must plan out my matchmaking adventure. I need the three of them in a healthy mindset, good economic place and ofcourse still interested in one another. I’ve decided I n...

December 29, 2019

Emi pt 2 in ❅journal 2019❅

I told Celtic about Emi and she was horrified. She told me that I’m not his toy, that I shouldn’t offer my body to him when he’s upset. It made me feel so bad telling her because I said I wouldn’...

I feel as though there’s going to be a rough entry soon, not about me but let’s buckle up. I’m the emotional support.

December 27, 2019

Mucky in ❅journal 2019❅

I don’t have a happy place anymore. It’s all gross and mucky and wrong now. But that’s okay. These things happen. I been blacking out a lot. And barely controlling myself from falling asleep. But...

December 27, 2019

Again. Pt 3 in ❅journal 2019❅

Well, that didn’t go as planned. Today I decided to let all my vents out to a friend and what do they do? Ask for a virtual hug. And ignore it. After a while. I gave up my boyfriend ended up read...

December 27, 2019

Madi in ❅journal 2019❅

I’m going to explain what happened on Christmas. So, in my past entry I talked about how this “friend” I had lied about DID. A serious disorder and was basically given a slap on the wrist. She wa...

December 27, 2019

There's a limit in ❅journal 2019❅

So, I used another diary site before this before goodnight journal. I ended up deleting it because a whole bunch of creeps where commenting once my entire got more detailed and graphic. I regret ...

I kinda realized I do have a good amount of people reading this, so I need to set something up so people know who I’m talking about. Xela = Kai = Ali (ex girlfriend) Babi = Chlo IRL BFF = Cousin...

AHHHH I GOT MY OLD JOURNAL BACK https://app.goodnightjournal.com/journal/5444848

December 25, 2019

Happy Dream in ❅journal 2019❅

So I had two dreams last night that made me feel super happy and other things. First one, was just me and Emi. He was hugging me close to the point I could hide my face in his chest. I was in a n...

December 25, 2019

Manipilation in ❅journal 2019❅

A quick wiki search should me how obvious some of my “friends” where manipulating me. It’s sad on my part, I can read people rather easily but not them. Anyway, I remember months ago I said the p...

December 24, 2019

Model in ❅journal 2019❅

When I was younger and kind of sheltered project runaway and America’s next top model where a dream come true in my eyes. I wanted to be a model so bad I even tried out for American girl doll. I...

December 23, 2019

Morning in ❅journal 2019❅

I still feel bad about last night, I’m hoping I can cheer myself up by eating some food. Though the thought of doing so makes me feel sick to my stomach and mouth taste funny. I don’t know, I’ve ...

December 22, 2019

Ruined in ❅journal 2019❅

I ruined our special night… So Isaac had some free time and I messed up. So bad. I touched myself without his permission. I came without permission… I feel so…so dissapointed in myself. I wanted ...

December 22, 2019

I am angry in ❅journal 2019❅

I need someone to punch me or fuck me or something. I’m upset and that seems like the only thing that will help. I want to do something to give myself pain. I am going to try and finish writing s...

December 20, 2019

Starving in ❅journal 2019❅

Guess who forgot her granola bars~ So I have to wait till when I get home to eat, yes I’m extremely upset about it still. And I forgot my fucking PHONE charger so this phone better not die on me....

December 19, 2019

Ahhhhh in ❅journal 2019❅

ISSAC IS BACK. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. Okay so like he’s back and I’m so so happy. I almost started crying I was smiling so fucking hard I couldn’t contain myself. He’s back and I feel like a piece...

December 19, 2019

Emi in ❅journal 2019❅

Yesterday Isaac came back and talked to me for a hour or two, it was nice. He gave me permission to I guess explore while he’s gone sexually which kinda shocked me. I saw it as cheating, but he s...

Good evening Isaac! How have you been cutie? I’ve been good, I know it’s a shocker. School was good though I was super sick Sunday night. Puked all over the place and stayed home the next day. I…...

December 16, 2019

. in ❅journal 2019❅

everything is messy. I can’t think straight. I feel like I’m dying. Everything hurts so bad I want to be loved but Isaac’s gone. He’s never coming back. No one ever comes back…I just want him to ...

December 14th, Saturday, 2019 Hey Isaac today was a crazy day. Mom and I went shopping with my brother. I had coffee chocolate by lindor, really yummy in the end. Oh! I washed my hair finally and...

December 12, 2019

Discussion in ❅journal 2019❅

I have to forget about it. Never mention.it again, I’m skipping threw the cracks and people see you as weak that way.

December 11, 2019

Please help in ❅journal 2019❅

I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m lying, a part of me is hoping I’m lying. I don’t want to be a victim of online sexual assault. I don’t want it. I want to cry and roll up into a ball. My...

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