HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 22 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Moving on in Journal 2023
I felt immense guilt reading that. Honestly, I just felt myself lock my inner self in a box for the last time. Sharing emotions just hurts people. I’m not a good person and even the kindest of pe...
Cold Rainfall in Journal 2023
I’m skipping school tomorrow. I read his comments about me. How I treated him like a animal, how I didn’t value him as a human being. I had no energy to cry, I have no doubts he’s correct. I kind...
Spring semester in Journal 2023
I’ve started my spring sophomore semester. It feels surreal because if everything had gone as planned I’d be graduating. But honestly I don’t mind it, I just need one more semester. I’ve liked t...
Jan 31. 2023 in Journal 2023
Haven’t had much to write about. I’m still writing and my stories are doing well. But I feel, very uneasy. Just, been very stressful this month and I feel like there’s no point in talking about i...
Writing and Manwha in Journal 2023
Hi, I apologize for disappearing so long. I’ve taken the reading manwha and manhua since Christmas eve and it really consumed me. Last night I meant to write but my mother screamed in my face for...
Lung issues & writing in Journal 2022
I apologize for disappearing, I’ve been very sick for the past few weeks. The doctors are sending me a inhaler which is nice, my mom swears I have a lung infection. Idk. Finals are next week, I’m...
I'm his drug apparently in Journal 2022
When he said this I found it nice. Today was okay, I guess I shouldn’t refer to him as a animal anymore. Uh I guess I’ll call him JK since I’ve used J before for Joseph. JK is nice I guess. I f...
Sleeping Pills in Journal 2022
Today was something. My brother humiliated me in public again. I don’t have any energy as I write this tonight. I feel so alone, so done with the world over school and family and struggles to get...
Update before Thanksgiving in Journal 2022
I haven’t been updating or writing much due to school. I have been trying to keep my grades stable, I need to contact my professor about my family printer having no ink. My break starts soon and ...
Almost taken to the ER in Journal 2022
I passed out a few times and slammed my head into the ground the last time. My younger brother who I don’t mention alot due to his privacy and the fact when this diary started he was like 12/13, ...
Happier in heaven in Journal 2022
I just feel overwhelmed and I have no one else to talk to. I tried to make friends on campus, I tried to go to the movies and I’m flaked on again, I’m done trying. I just wish deep inside I just ...
College and Numbness in Journal 2022
I’ve been gone for awhile. I honestly just didn’t have much to say. Classes are busy, I feel overwhelmed honestly and tired. So tired. I just hope maybe, I can have some time to make some friends...
These me do not care at the end of the day in Journal 2022
I got my period so my week was eh. Two of th guys I guess I talk to seem to have a thing for kidnapping. It’s very ironic to me with my brother’s parental kidnapping (I mention this in my 2018 e...
Where the fuck I've been and what I've been doing in Journal 2022
Hey, I’ve been gone for nearly a month. I guess I should explain myself. I guess I’ve started sexting. I told myself that I needed to let go of Joseph and my pain. I needed to self destruct, I h...
College and Spirituality in Journal 2022
I started to feel really hopeless. So I asked the universe to send me a sign of some kind. I will play around with my tarot tomorrow to ask for guidance. Something. I don’t know if I will stop ha...
Purple Hearts and Why I Hate Military Propaganda in Journal 2022
I don’t like the military all that much. I find the whole ROTC and the way the military pushes itself onto highschoolers very brainwashy. Recently a book adaption came out and as I love books I w...
Privacy in Journal 2022
I don’t want to be attracted to any gender anymore. I just want to be sage. I talked to my friend and he said I couldn’t think that way. I understand but I just can’t do it again. I have extreme ...
Relatives and so tired in Journal 2022
I’m really sleepy, I just wanna lay down all week. Everything feels uninteresting, unmotivating and blurry. I feel like the days go by in a wink. I talked to a friend yesterday,he’s nice. Really...
Bad dreams about breakup in Journal 2022
Hi everyone, I have to make this quick. It’s very late and I feel a migraine coming on. I get those constantly now as mentioned before. It feels awful now. I got my hair done and my friend cancel...
Another school year in Journal 2022
In a month I have university. It feels endless, like I’m in a endless cycle and honestly I’m really scared to start school. I’m scared I’ll fail again and not be able to graduate, I hate it. I t...
Changes in Journal 2022
The baby shower for my cousin is going to be soon. I need to hurry and order another gift for her, maybe some baby books as I planned. Overall, I’m kinda excited for her but also worried due to h...
Insulted behind my back in Journal 2022
I don’t like talking to people for a reason. I felt hurt seeing others on a chat I’ve never been in insult me without even knowing who I am. I just, I don’t know. There’s that tiny version in me ...
Alone in the night in Journal 2022
I felt lonely, so I decided to write today. I miss having someone to talk to at night. I don’t really do much besides study for school (I got my aid back yay), write, watch TV or comment on tv. ...
Very Sick in Journal 2022
Today I went to a store for a interview and I just, didn’t go. I could tell from everything there I would hate working there and it was so empty I kept walking in circles trying to find anyone to...
I waited 2 days. in Journal 2022
I waited 2 days for anything. Anything at all. I told myself to not be rash with making decisions. I’m gonna just dissappear for awhile, maybe a few months if everything goes as planned. I just ...
