HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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About lili in Journal 2020
I wrote this to Kayden about Lili, I still dont think I’ll ever get my pain across until I break free from it all. Okay I’m tired of feeling bad so imma say this: was me banning lili petty? Maybe...
April fifth in Journal 2020
Written April fifth 2019 I feel like I’m burdening so many people. Yesterday, my friend Dray finally messaged me. I was really happy as we have none each other for a while, for 5 years almost. I...
Bday in Journal 2020
Its my bday and itz gone well…just I fobt know.... I feel like I’m a burden idk why Everyone’s so and want to care for me…I feel like dirt…going to my happy place more I cant wait to just be gon...
Coronavirus update in Journal 2020
So my school closed for a few weeks a week ago and some change due to the virus. I’ve been home, lounging around leaving to only go to the store and such. I’ve been bored as heck honestly. Watch...
Mαrcн 18тн, 2020 in Journal 2020
Calin is such strange boy. A strange boy, I have. I cant help but wonder what had happened if instead of the others, i found Calin instead. What would have happened if i had been asked out by him...
Cutting off dead skin in Journal 2020
I feel hurt. I love kayden but I’m a burden to him. My mind is making it clear. I’ve had nightmares regarding our friendship and how much I’ve tainted it. I need to be a good person and leave him...
Entry in Journal 2020
Can’t think of any title. SATs tommorow. Nervous as always. Menstrual cycle started. Didn’t puke this time. Just had to pee. I’m in bed, thinking of Linka. He’s an amazing boyfriend. Amazing per...
Catch up in Journal 2020
What’s been happening 1) another creep using me and attempting to manipulate me in a weak state. 2) incoming SATs this wendsday. 3) set up my senior classes, taking four classes and only three ma...
Pt2 in Journal 2020
Adding on to the previous entry, I think Kayden’s annoyed with me. So is Wolfie. And Fairy. Everyone is annoyed with me…even Linka :(
Scared in Journal 2020
I think I’m pushing Kayden away
Nn. in Journal 2020
Crying
Jealousy in Journal 2020
Fairyfriend is so perfect, Linky must have told her so much about his life. Lily is perfect to, Kayden tell me all the time. Joy’s just as perfect as the both of them… I feel so jealous....why ca...
Coughing in Journal 2020
I feel sicker than when I had the flu… probably from crying so much… God…I just want to lay down and hife
Another bad day in Journal 2020
Another bad day and it’s barely even started…barely slept…spent a lot of the time coughing or crying my eyes out.....
... in Journal 2020
boyfriend doesn’t get it about my mom I won’t mention it anymore
Cold in Journal 2020
I feel like I’m all alone in the cold
Bad day in Journal 2020
I need to write, I feel like I might pass out. I’m very tired mentally and physically, I feel emotionally drained. I just want to do my boyfriend right....but I’m not and I feel like I’m losing h...
Rocking in Journal 2020
I think I need to sleep more, my hallucinations are coming back in the tenfold. I just had one about my keyboard on my phone and I restarted it in a panic. I’m paraniod about my bf, I’m scared he...
Confessions in Journal 2020
I’m writing this because I feel like it’s time. This diary I want my daughter to read when I’m old enough to have one and maybe she’ll understand why her mother is understandable. I had a thirty ...
Trust in Journal 2020
I don’t know if I trust my mom anymore or if I ever did. Sure, I get along with her but I don’t really trust her now. She acts as if I’m always mad or this bad, rude person. I’m not. This is why ...
Lost friends in Journal 2020
Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, ...
Angry in Journal 2020
I’m so angry I don’t know know why I’m just so so angry. I’m crying I’m so angry. I want to just scribble on paper until I can’t stop. I feel my insides boiling and I just want to kick and scream...
I was never meant in Journal 2020
Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...
I was never meant in Journal 2020
I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...
Demons in Journal 2020
There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...
