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I started to feel really hopeless. So I asked the universe to send me a sign of some kind. I will play around with my tarot tomorrow to ask for guidance. Something. I don’t know if I will stop ha...

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I don’t like the military all that much. I find the whole ROTC and the way the military pushes itself onto highschoolers very brainwashy. Recently a book adaption came out and as I love books I w...

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I don’t want to be attracted to any gender anymore. I just want to be sage. I talked to my friend and he said I couldn’t think that way. I understand but I just can’t do it again. I have extreme ...

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I’m really sleepy, I just wanna lay down all week. Everything feels uninteresting, unmotivating and blurry. I feel like the days go by in a wink. I talked to a friend yesterday,he’s nice. Really...

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Hi everyone, I have to make this quick. It’s very late and I feel a migraine coming on. I get those constantly now as mentioned before. It feels awful now. I got my hair done and my friend cancel...

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In a month I have university. It feels endless, like I’m in a endless cycle and honestly I’m really scared to start school. I’m scared I’ll fail again and not be able to graduate, I hate it. I t...

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The baby shower for my cousin is going to be soon. I need to hurry and order another gift for her, maybe some baby books as I planned. Overall, I’m kinda excited for her but also worried due to h...

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I don’t like talking to people for a reason. I felt hurt seeing others on a chat I’ve never been in insult me without even knowing who I am. I just, I don’t know. There’s that tiny version in me ...

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I felt lonely, so I decided to write today. I miss having someone to talk to at night. I don’t really do much besides study for school (I got my aid back yay), write, watch TV or comment on tv. ...

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Today I went to a store for a interview and I just, didn’t go. I could tell from everything there I would hate working there and it was so empty I kept walking in circles trying to find anyone to...

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I waited 2 days for anything. Anything at all. I told myself to not be rash with making decisions. I’m gonna just dissappear for awhile, maybe a few months if everything goes as planned. I just ...

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I don’t want to make any rushed choices so I told myself I’ll wait a few more days. I might get a new therapist whose also black and younger, my moms super excited and kind of pushy for me to do...

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Im trying to not do what he said but i can’t because now I just feel bad about myself. I woke up feeling bad and I cried alot and I’m still crying. I just don’t wanna leave the house today. I ju...

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I don’t feel good so I’ve been up this entire time listening to music and reality tv and just feeling not great. I keep thinking about it, my personality and me not caring. I’ll maybe idk tell m...

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It’s my personality. I try to hard, I’m too insecure and he thinks I didn’t actually care. When I heard the not caring about our relationship part, I admit, I choked up a bit and wrote five dif...

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Joseph is being so kind now, it confuses me. He talks to me more often and compliments me and acts so gentle it hurts. It hurts because I really wanna be independent, I wanna make myself feel how...

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I need to write a big entry this morning so I’m sorry if alot is going on. I got attacked by a bee and it flew in my breasts 🙃. But besides that little five second panic of me screaming and tear...

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I started writing and planning out my next novella. Nearly 2k words so far. I also finished First Kill, netflix’s lesbian ya tv show, very cheesy but I want another season atleast. I went out wi...

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I don’t know what to say here, I haven’t been feeling good these past few days. Not like myself. I have been showering and eating but I don’t care about anything. I just want to sleep. I will ad...

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That’s it that’s the title. I was talking to Joseph and I just felt something come over me. This feeling of emptiness, this feeling of pure nothing. I haven’t been having a good few days and I ...

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I wanted to write sometime nice or atleat detailed but it’s just not good right now. I finally got to cry over all of it and it’s not just Joseph. It’s other things irl I don’t feel brave enough ...

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Mom made me angry this morning but whatever. She did my hair and it looks great. Joseph and I are speaking, it’s nice but also painful. My body feels broken. My ankles hurt, I’m tired, I’m beate...

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I thought about it but yeah, he did. We had a conversation and he shared how he felt bad reading how much I was hurt. He shared his thoughts and I shared mine. I feel good that we spoke, God, wh...

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Bad news :( I am even sicker than before. At this point, I will need to talk to the store as I used all the headache medicine and I’ve almost used all the cold pills mom bought. She gave me some...

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I slept for awhile today. Joseph and I talked but it just made me feel worse. It’s pride month, it’s the summer I should be having a great time. But I’m not, I’m just not. I have to upload the e...

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