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I’m kinda sad, I miss my old friends but I cut myself off for a reason. I really really miss my friend Sebastain. I see him as a little brother but I need to work on myself before we talk. Some f...

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The year has been wild so far. I’m a adult now. I have a job. I’m enrolled in college. So much has happened and I don’t even know where to start. Yesterday I went with my mom to pawn her ex fianc...

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It’s been a lot of voices. A lot of hallucinating. A lot of hating work…he makes me feel better. I’m worried. I hate hate everything. I hate work. I hate being awake. I hate him not understanding...

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I had those thoughts again. The jealousy. As soon as it happened I felt awful. I guess I’m not really better yet. It was just a retweet of some girl with my friend and I got so angry and jealous...

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I’m alone but it’s alright. I have to get better alone. I have to.

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Didnt get to read comments yet sorry this is a quick entry as I’m exhuasted Usually when I cramp I take four to eight pain pills and rest. Recently I’ve started taking thera flu with everything. ...

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Still no bank account. Still no job. I feel like a failure. I might see a gynecologist for my periods but the thought of even letting a man there brings me to tears. My fear of men has worsen sad...

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Thank u for the graduation messages. I feel like I found my true friends. About maybe two. Everyone else only sees you as a object. Something you get something from. They aren’t friends. They’re ...

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I graduated highschool friday, it was a busy 2 weeks so yesterday I just ate so much and relaxed. Now onto finding a job as I am done with school until college. It all feels so strange, I used to...

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The comments have been really nice this time around and I re read them a lot to feel better when I’m done. Thank you so much.

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I wanna sleep forever, no more adult stuff. Just sleep

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I watched lovely bones today. I’ve watched the movie a lot as a kid and now it was just too much. I felt too uncomfortable and I lied saying I had to use the bathroom. Instead I just cried, I’m s...

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I just realized I didnt write about the suicide attempt on a live. Its embarrassing honestly. I don’t want to share it at all. I’m so exhausted. Sorry for being gone so long, I’ve just not been ...

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I was harassed again. At least I wasnt accused of pedophilia and fetishization. But it had suicide bating this time…thankfully it’s been handled but still hurt. It always hurt, it hurt the first ...

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John messaged me. I’m on guard. I don’t have time for games. I’m not my past self, I’m not Mari anymore. I have to admit that.

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I feel bad but sometimes I wonder if it had been better to let Calin die. Helping him just earned me another betrayal after betrayal. Helping everyone just ruined everything. I think about this a...

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I don’t think I was supposed to hear the conversation. My mother’s fiancee was talking about how he thinks I’ll basically drop out or give up and how I can’t take care of myself. And that my mom ...

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Two months since the breakup. I managed to class pre calculus for the year. I am working on passing my current classes the hardest I can, I have a big test this week so I want to make sure I get ...

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I feel empty and broken aside. I’m so tired of everyone. I’m so tired of everything. I’m so empty, I just want to run away. I want to get away forever. I feel sick and alone. I’m all alone. I’m...

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I pushed them out…

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I have only college to look forward to. Relationship to good to be true. I dont want bragging or yelling so no more comments. The days go by as a blur. Have to try again to get my license. Everyt...

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I spoke to Nelson last night. I’m a horrible friend. I woke up sick.and I just want to die. I want to die so bad.

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I’m ill. Not with covid. I feel sick from everything, just everything. I might vomit soon. But anyway, we gotta get serious. Life is short and the way I’m fucking my body up now it’ll be a lot f...

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I’m about to go to bed. I’ve been bored all day. Lonely, anxious, bored. Sleeps my only escape. My body my mainframe hurts when I eat. No one will date me or live me romantically. I’m so tired. H...

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I want him to notice me I’ve been busy but today it came back. The feelings, they hurt me. I wonder if there’s just something wrong with me. I wish we could have normal conversations. He didn’t e...

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