Journal 2020

by HoniBunnyCakey

Entries 59

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5 days ago


I tried to purge yesterday

7 days ago


I watched this short documentary on the “dark side” of harajuku and I really liked it. I was suprised I avoided watching it for so long it was really good. Anyways I had someone flag or something...

June 08, 2020

Over a year

I’ve had this account for over a year and it still amazes me. I’m proud of myself for writing even if it wasnt day to day.

June 06, 2020


Sometimes I just sit and cry.

June 02, 2020

Jun 1st

Hey. Abandonment life. Kayden abandoned me. Ben…yeah. Single life to. I’ll explain in a later entry the breakup but today we have to focus on my health. I ate a lot.todsy. couldn’t finish dinner....

May 24, 2020


I feel really really bad :( Everyday, I feel weaker now. My chest hurts really bad, my legs ache to the point they feel useless and I can barely stay awake. I’m trying to eat more than snacking ...

May 11, 2020


I just ate a bowl of half cooked, pre cooked chicken nuggets. I am supposed to be watching a movie with Calin and others but it wouldnt load for me. I dont wanna ruin the movie so I’m being quiet...

April 22, 2020

Work ethic

So, my YouTube channel is getting a lot buzz. I’m honestly shocked that people wre noticing it and I’m feeling self conscious. I wonder if I take a break but then requests are coming in soooo fas...

April 22, 2020


I washed and combed my hair today. My mom said I did good. Today was good, still had its ups and downs. I dont want to talk about the downs.

April 21, 2020


Sorry for not writing more I just have t had the time. Same old heartbreak from friends and relationships happening. I’ve been fighting a mean cold to. I just dont want to lose Calin. We’re on a ...

April 20, 2020


I feel dead inside. Just have to keep the smile up.

April 08, 2020

About lili

I wrote this to Kayden about Lili, I still dont think I’ll ever get my pain across until I break free from it all. Okay I’m tired of feeling bad so imma say this: was me banning lili petty? Maybe...

April 05, 2020

April fifth

Written April fifth 2019 I feel like I’m burdening so many people. Yesterday, my friend Dray finally messaged me. I was really happy as we have none each other for a while, for 5 years almost. I...

April 03, 2020


Its my bday and itz gone well…just I fobt know.... I feel like I’m a burden idk why Everyone’s so and want to care for me…I feel like dirt…going to my happy place more I cant wait to just be gon...

March 22, 2020

Coronavirus update

So my school closed for a few weeks a week ago and some change due to the virus. I’ve been home, lounging around leaving to only go to the store and such. I’ve been bored as heck honestly. Watch...

March 18, 2020

Mαrcн 18тн, 2020

Calin is such strange boy. A strange boy, I have. I cant help but wonder what had happened if instead of the others, i found Calin instead. What would have happened if i had been asked out by him...

March 14, 2020

Cutting off dead skin

I feel hurt. I love kayden but I’m a burden to him. My mind is making it clear. I’ve had nightmares regarding our friendship and how much I’ve tainted it. I need to be a good person and leave him...

March 03, 2020


Can’t think of any title. SATs tommorow. Nervous as always. Menstrual cycle started. Didn’t puke this time. Just had to pee. I’m in bed, thinking of Linka. He’s an amazing boyfriend. Amazing per...

March 01, 2020

Catch up

What’s been happening 1) another creep using me and attempting to manipulate me in a weak state. 2) incoming SATs this wendsday. 3) set up my senior classes, taking four classes and only three ma...

February 28, 2020


Adding on to the previous entry, I think Kayden’s annoyed with me. So is Wolfie. And Fairy. Everyone is annoyed with me…even Linka :(

February 28, 2020


I think I’m pushing Kayden away

February 27, 2020



February 24, 2020


Fairyfriend is so perfect, Linky must have told her so much about his life. Lily is perfect to, Kayden tell me all the time. Joy’s just as perfect as the both of them… I feel so jealous....why ca...

February 23, 2020


I feel sicker than when I had the flu… probably from crying so much… God…I just want to lay down and hife

February 23, 2020

Another bad day

Another bad day and it’s barely even started…barely slept…spent a lot of the time coughing or crying my eyes out.....

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My diary from 2020 to 2021