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December 10th, Tuesday, 2019 It’s rainy outside today Isaac, a real wet feel in the air. I woke up today not ready for school and not ready to start another day of unless aching. I made sure to e...

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i don’t know when I started to mix healthy love with hurting. It’s something that’s just happened. Sometimes I find myself wanting to beg my boyfriend to punish me, to make me cry amd suffer beca...

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i started starving myself because I just wanted someone to finally be proud of me and love me.

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I decided to ignore all my messages notifs basically, I need time to think about stuff. I’ve been thinking about telling my mom about my disorder, but I felt sick. My mother didn’t react to twel...

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I don’t know what to do. I want to stop losing weight because I do t want to die. But my thoughts keep going back to everything, to all the work I’ve put in. I told people I’d stop but immediatel...

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I’ve been trying all day to identify what caused my obsession to start but I just can’t. Rejection is plausible but also my home life is. But everything seems to make me feel fat and bloated and ...

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I guess it is that. I’ve started to feel my hip bones before falling asleep, the curve and simple groove of them all. It’s nice to feel them, to poke and prod. But they feel fuller and it makes ...

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I’m upset. My diary is gone. Its all gone.

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So i dont think I ever fully explained the weight thing with me. I’d say in second grade i would skip breakfast during the summer like a week long, because id just eat brunch. In eigth grade that...

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Dear diary, I’ve been alone all day.

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I read all of your comments and ill take the advice you guys gave me for the long run (hopefully). Does anyone else watch hiding in my room? I don’t watch it for trolling or memes but im genuine...

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Note: i know i do this a lot but this relationship will not fail, I’m literally 100% obsessed with this guy, we’re both possessive, etc it works. If this relationship where to ever fail…I’d lose ...

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hi diary today is a day. im tired and idk…upset. im gonna go try to hallucinate or something.

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I feel so horrible for not texting her. The night before she overdosed we where supoosed to text and call, she really wanted to talk and i just didn’t. And now that she’s back from the hospital ...

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I think I’m jealous. I don’t know, there are sometimes I feel so angry that someone else is talking to the person I want to, i want to go to over to them and smash their head into a wall. I’m li...

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So my friend’s back from the hospital. I honestly felt zero emotion when she texted me, i think my body was just exhuasted. My mind to. I remember constantly checking to see if she’d text me back...

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So I make subliminal videos ^°^ This is something I’ve been doing since late-mid august and just never stopped. It’s fun to make them, though other people who do are like jerks and annoying. They...

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“Wow.” This is what my boyfriend said after reading this diary. I decided to allow someone in my personal life read and find out everything. I was extremely nervous, like I shaking when i sent th...

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I feel so lonely I wanna cry my eyes out.

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Its been a fight with Will. He’s told me ive ripped out his heart and shredded it. He’s dying but he won’t let me help. He seems to hate me…

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The week’s been okay so far, i guess. Compared to the past month it’s been great. I have another boyfriend, I know I know “wow surprise” I know. The relationship is good, despite me being crazy....

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sorry I had to laugh. I kinda started hardcore hallucinating but it’s fine. Its fine so fucking fine.

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Im freezing becuase no panties and my coats shit. Rip

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We’ve been friends for so long, and you went threw so much pain. I feel so horrible for all the things I now know and the way i treated you. I feel like my anger towards you had been so childish....

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This new sub we got is a annoying. She’s one of those old woman who get angered easily and kinda snappy with you. It doesn’t help the freshman in my class are assholes and disobey her every chanc...

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