HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 22 ⋅

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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January 18, 2022

Age Gap relationship? in Journal 2022

So. Joseph is into me. He knew I had a crush and I don’t know what our relationship is anymore. I felt sick but thrilled? And mistreated to the idea and then felt sicker and that I was going to p...


January 15, 2022

A world folding inward in Journal 2022

I feel like I’m dying. I keep seeing things, feeling things. I’m growing worried but I have to stay strong. In a dying world one must be reborn. Is this what rebirth is meant to feel like? Who kn...


January 14, 2022

damn DO i have BPD? in Journal 2022

This is something I’ve debated for awhile. I truly wish I had started started my diary earlier at age 15 so we could see if my theory is correct. I have pondered for awhile if I have BPD or some...


so…a lot has happened. wanted to write sooner but I’m rushing this computer will die soon! my college sent an email dismissing me, but I appealed. it was more so a threat but my advisor said I’m ...


At 21, the decision if I live or if I die will be made. this kinda hit me like a train at 16, 17 saying this felt like I had a century to choose. a century before college ended and I was basical...


December 28, 2021

Dec 28 2021 in Journal 2021

I’m gonna turn on Spotify pretty soon and listen to some of woo!ah!’s album but I was restless today, I needed to get an entry out. That fire to write has returned and honestly, I kind of have a ...


I found more from December of 2019 and others. It hurts and burns but I feel like it’s good to see this right now. I made progress since then but I’m still clearly I’m a broken person. Dear Rua Y...


December 27, 2021

Dear Me, From Past Me in Journal 2021

I wrote this December, 18th, 2019 and I felt so sad seeing all these old letters and notes I wrote to myself in pain, suffering, crying, dying inside due to abuse. Dear Will Your words showed me ...


December 25, 2021

kep1er in Journal 2021

Oh my goodness Kep1er my babies are about to dominate the kpop scene! Anyway, Merry Christmas or happy holidays to everyone. Guests are over so I can’t really leave my room so I’m bored typing aw...


December 25, 2021

exhuasted in Journal 2021

Almost time to start a new journal for 2022. It’s crazy how fast time has gone by and how much my life has changed. The collab on youtube for the secret Santa event was so much fun, it felt nice ...


December 23, 2021

Making mom a huge gift in Journal 2021

So I went to the store and bought more things for my moms huge gift. A small mini eyeshadow palette, a huge box of turdles, etc for mom. The biggest gift I’ve ever made and I got my brother some ...


December 23, 2021

Spiderman and Cheddars in Journal 2021

My friends and I went to see Spiderman no way home Monday. My best friend slept in so we went a few hours late and I was pissed because she’s been late alot recently, even to a our graduation pra...


Bruh water and Jamaican detangler spray with a detangler brush really is a lifesaver. My thick ponytail holders finally came along with my large blowdryer brush and my container to hold it all. I...


December 17, 2021

Struggling With MH in Journal 2021

Today was okay i guess. My mom screamed in my face but besides that it was okay. My old house (great grandparents) is a hoarders den. Bugs, mice, etc probably reside. It made me so uncomfortable…...


December 14, 2021

Oh my goodness in Journal 2021

I thought I wrote in November! Anyway, I’ve been meaning to update but school and just forgetfulness got me. Plus all I have to talk about is really just college, job hunting, therapy and writin...


October 17, 2021

Wonder in Journal 2021

It’s been a odd few weeks. College is like a blur. I feel tranfixed, overwhelmed and happy all at once. Exhauston is normal.


October 08, 2021

Freeze in Journal 2021

So, I’m erping with that friend I talked about and I’m enjoying it and I just froze. Idk how to respond to him and I feel embarrassed to say anything 😕


September 21, 2021

The September Update in Journal 2021

I have to apologize for not writing much this year, I’ve taken a step back from being so open. So school has been good, it’s a technical community college that’s about a hour walk from my house. ...


August 30, 2021

School in Journal 2021

Start college soon. Nervous


I had a bunch of meltdowns over this but I think I’m finally ready. This weekend with my brother we will be riding the bus for the first time. We will go to my campus and then back home. I have t...


August 12, 2021

Wanting friends in Journal 2021

I’m kinda sad, I miss my old friends but I cut myself off for a reason. I really really miss my friend Sebastain. I see him as a little brother but I need to work on myself before we talk. Some f...


July 30, 2021

7 months in review in Journal 2021

The year has been wild so far. I’m a adult now. I have a job. I’m enrolled in college. So much has happened and I don’t even know where to start. Yesterday I went with my mom to pawn her ex fianc...


It’s been a lot of voices. A lot of hallucinating. A lot of hating work…he makes me feel better. I’m worried. I hate hate everything. I hate work. I hate being awake. I hate him not understanding...


July 15, 2021

Baby Steps in Journal 2021

I had those thoughts again. The jealousy. As soon as it happened I felt awful. I guess I’m not really better yet. It was just a retweet of some girl with my friend and I got so angry and jealous...


July 09, 2021

Desolation in Journal 2021

I’m alone but it’s alright. I have to get better alone. I have to.


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