HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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February 21, 2020

Cold in Journal 2020

I feel like I’m all alone in the cold

February 20, 2020

Bad day in Journal 2020

I need to write, I feel like I might pass out. I’m very tired mentally and physically, I feel emotionally drained. I just want to do my boyfriend right....but I’m not and I feel like I’m losing h...

February 20, 2020

Rocking in Journal 2020

I think I need to sleep more, my hallucinations are coming back in the tenfold. I just had one about my keyboard on my phone and I restarted it in a panic. I’m paraniod about my bf, I’m scared he...

February 18, 2020

Confessions in Journal 2020

I’m writing this because I feel like it’s time. This diary I want my daughter to read when I’m old enough to have one and maybe she’ll understand why her mother is understandable. I had a thirty ...

February 17, 2020

Trust in Journal 2020

I don’t know if I trust my mom anymore or if I ever did. Sure, I get along with her but I don’t really trust her now. She acts as if I’m always mad or this bad, rude person. I’m not. This is why ...

February 14, 2020

Lost friends in Journal 2020

Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, ...

February 12, 2020

Angry in Journal 2020

I’m so angry I don’t know know why I’m just so so angry. I’m crying I’m so angry. I want to just scribble on paper until I can’t stop. I feel my insides boiling and I just want to kick and scream...

February 11, 2020

I was never meant in Journal 2020

Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...

February 11, 2020

I was never meant in Journal 2020

I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...

February 11, 2020

Demons in Journal 2020

There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...

February 11, 2020

Little Mermaid in Journal 2020

Wolfie was nice today, he sent me some nice messages. I regret my crush I had on him so much, I only told him to help not make our friendship uncomfortable. He’s twenty three and I’d never date a...

February 09, 2020

February ninth in Journal 2020

So. Yeah life’s been sicky. I’ve been trying to talk to John, Lili or Kayden about stuff. But I pretty much gave up. I just. Gave up for a good reason, just trust me on this. Something happened y...

February 08, 2020

Flue in Journal 2020

Guess who has the flu! Anyway, today I ate lots of food. Because I’m excited because I learned my weight at the doctor’s Thursday. They where checking my measurements and turns out I’m actually ...

February 04, 2020

Embarrassing... in Journal 2020

A friend deleted a comment i made in public on their account, saying I’d cause them trouble at school… This is why I prefer stuffed animals. They’re never ashamed of you. Or yell at you. Or get d...

February 03, 2020

February 02 - 03 in Journal 2020

Today… I’ve wondered if writing journals is really worth it in the end. I’ve been doing this for nearly a year now and it’s sad to see how much has gone wrong. However, many things have gone righ...

February 01, 2020

February First in Journal 2020

So, I’ve been talking to John again. And yes I mean talking as in normal conversations. I sometimes notice how I mistaked him for a serious, no bullshit person like I did nearly five years ago. W...

January 30, 2020

Loudest of groans in Journal 2020

All of you guys are right, I gotta move on. Isaac of ur reading this i hope whoever you cheated on me with online gets bumps on their fucking vagina and you wake up with horrific acne and all yo...

January 28, 2020

Failure in Journal 2020

I tried everything guys. I didn’t do anything to drive him away. I tried so bad. And he…he…lied. I saw in a server with my own eyes last week he talked about how he wasn’t over his ex, how the en...

January 24, 2020

January, 24th in Journal 2020

I don’t know if I want to write the mess that happened mid afternoon. I’ll write it tommorow or later tonight. Quite a mess indeed. Anyway, my boyfriend has been such a cutie recently. A adorable...

January 20, 2020

Good day :) in Journal 2020

So far my day has been good, besides a horrific nightmare/sleep paralysis experience this morning. It shook me to the core as I couldn’t move stalk for a few minutes, I barely slept for like two...

January 18, 2020

Making up in Journal 2020

So Emi and I made up. He seems healthier, he got himself a partner seventeen days ago(?) and he just seems more happy! I’m really happy for him. <3 Anyway, life’s been hectic I’m unsure. If I ...

January 14, 2020

To Will in Journal 2020

I know you can see this. And I don’t regret saying i wished i never met you. Because I don’t, you treated me… like…like I was your property.

January 12, 2020

So, last night in Journal 2020

Last night my friend did want to fuck me. But it was a girl this time. Anyway, I found myself not being scared by what she was texting because a) she was a girl b) she isn’t like that despite fac...

January 12, 2020

Talking in Journal 2020

I’m well aware of the fact i give to many chsnces. I know. I try to be very open and kind. But it does backfire. And it does open yourself to uncomfortable situations…

January 12, 2020

Loneliness in Journal 2020

For nearly a month it’s worsened and worsened. I feel empty, I’m trying my best

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