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The Big Show
I had a bunch of wild and crazy dreams last week, or maybe the week before, or maybe this entire month but haven’t been writing them down or retelling them or keeping track at all. They’re there ...
will i won't i
Pat is officially moved out as of a couple weeks ago. Officially officially last Friday when he got the last of his basement storage junk. I’m still adjusting. I’ve mostly been just a mess, tired...
dark wave on winter solstice
I had a dream last night that I had fresh open sores on my lips, and little worms were crawling in. I shouted no and it forced them out for me to pluck out with my fingers. I’ve been thinking lat...
I did actually do an update entry on time, but I privated it. I’m so tired of complaining out loud. I am also becoming embarrassed by it, it is like I’m so consumed and volatile at the drop of an...
time
The feeling is out of time, like deja vu, a little disorienting. It makes you second guess, even though you never even posited your first guess, which was, “this will always be the same”. Lately...
Clean up
Every week seems like forever ago! I have taken on more cleaning shifts and my body is basically broken. I visited the farm again for the first time in a while. I’ve been out of it… not sure if I...
mercury retrograde ends in like two days
A little update for me being sick: I am sick! I’ve been sick for a week and then Saturday really fucked up a recovery by going out and getting very drunk and smoking the cigarettes. What Shit. I ...
as long as I can dream it's hard to slow this swinger down
I’ve a new physical symptom to my mental health! Stress puking. I’ve stress puked twice now, and I’m hoping they are flukes but I guess we’ll have to wait and see. I’m shocked that I’m finding th...
physically weak
I slept until the last minute today. Even still I managed to change pants 3 times before falling out the door. I slept late because I stayed up late, in some murky zone that was restless and angr...
follow the moon
My past few weeks have been so sloppy. Not even all my fault. I had to take my car in twice and dropped about $700 all told. This was after I ended up doing a few donations to radio and a food pa...
angel of the morning
Last week was an explosion of heart and emotions. When John Henry and I were up in Maine for Alex and Sean’s wedding we stayed with our friend Evan, who mentioned a couple times in passing about ...
utah
I’ll say I’m slow for starting the day, but I’ve already sent out two different documents for review. I’ve also finally looked up the site where I’m supposed to buy some framing pieces and stretc...
tough noogies sad stuff tw
A couple days ago I slept in and felt so cruddy that I ended up staying home from work. There was intermittent crying and a couple of chores were done. I texted around a bit in an attempt to “not...
the future
I’ve been stood up for a meeting that I had lugged about 100 lbs of tile and concrete and a box full of resin samples around for, and in being stood up had to put it back without the proper label...
retro
I’m trying to figure out on what basis I’ve had to figure that I’d be successful in whatever career I chose. My parents both said it all the time, but they were my parents. Hamza told me so once,...
The week hell opened
Wow last week was like some rift in the universe opened and fucked up. I don’t know I feel like I was right in it’s path, the, the path of the aura coming from the rift in the universe. Or the ri...
struggling
The past couple of nights I’ve been pretty drinky. Keep wanting hard liquor and last night I got lucky on having some friends go to a smoking bar with me. I don’t hate my job so much as I think ...
checking in from far away
I do this thing where I imagine being far far away from myself looking at myself and figuring if I’m charming or sweet or if my life is full and beautiful. I think this distancing is ok. For a lo...
poe tate
Not an extreme amount to report on here. I did make my advising appointment and now I need reminders to email Spanish teachers. I really should just be doing this on my own time lololol thanks th...
pb
I’m not an audiophile the way some people are, and I’m not part of the music scene, I don’t really dance at clubs much but if I ever get my own place I am going to invest in some worthwhile speak...
dignifif
Something recent, of recent occurrence has been that I’ve for the first time I can remember have been admitting to a lot of shit from the past. Shit things that I think have had an impact on a lo...
physical challenge
There’s this guy here who is a good friend of my friend. Apparently he is trying to flirt with me, around him, for the first time in my life it feels, I have been experiencing extreme boredom and...
aggro
TRUST THAT THE TRUTH WILL HURT the meanest people are the most honest, often so are the nicest after you remember that nothing matters existential zoot
kelly
Sometimes if I don’t get enough sleep or I stress out my stomach acts up. Right now I’m half asleep and my body temperature is rising because it needs to or else I’ll die. I’m excited to wake ...
gash
I had my first day on the job yesterday then I went to a noise show where I didn't know ANYONE and missed the fucking performance of this girl who screamed and broke glass because I was waiting i...
Book Description
for ears that have been cut off maybe some other pieces of skin too
