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4 months. It’s been 4 months since I’ve written. Long story short I quit my job back in July. I haven’t found another yet. I’m back in school. Things have changed and life feels good…most days. ...

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And this time all I can think about is how I would love to be making a quiet book or other fun activities for little ones. Sensory bins, craft projects, learning activities. I want to be working ...

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I want to get out. I want to leave. I want to go anywhere but here....and it’s always like this. How can I stay in this tiny town in Virginia if there’s a whole world out there? I will always wa...

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I’m typing a few sentences here so that anyone who is not actually interested in what I have to say just reads the part they can see and then leaves it alone. I don’t wanna hear it tonight. I’ve ...

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I am so beyond pissed off about the fact that people think they can just treat an animal like shit because it “has no soul.” I’m tired of people giving up the animals they adopted for not goddamn...

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I’m sitting listening to the TV and my boyfriend snoring quietly beside me. It’s just after 2:00AM. The room is dimly lit from a small lamp in the corner and the glow of the TV and my laptop scre...

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I had a dream that I was in some sort of “arena” and there were people all around with me…we were all fighting off vicious dogs. Mine was a huge doberman, I’m talking 4 1/2 - 5 feet tall. I wasn’...

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I wrote out some daily, weekly, monthly, short-term, and long-term goals a few weeks ago. I’m going to modify those goals and then I’m going to make a plan to stick to them. I might write later a...

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I’m having a really bad day. My boyfriend isn’t texting me back, probably busy with something. The only other person I’ve talked to all week is sleeping and I don’t want to dump this on him anywa...

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It’s been over a week, the semester is officially over, and still no history grade. Assuming I passed, Awesome. I can go schedule classes. Assuming I failed, Fuck. I’ll be taking a semester (at l...

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The Walking Dead episode from today absolutely killed me. I don’t know how to explain it out loud, really.... ....but nothing fictional has ever hurt this bad. I feel like I lost a real friend. I...

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Some nights I really wish I could get past college and all this bullshit and just move out to the country and start a family of my own. I want to travel. I want to settle down. I want to have a ...

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Okay so. I have come tonight to write about something that really pissed me off at school today. You can feel free to ignore this entry if you so choose. I just am a flaming ball of anger. I was...

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So, Here’s the thing. Over the summer I had to appeal to get my financial aid back this semester. I was told that withdrawing is just as bad as failing. That’s bullshit. I don’t even understand h...

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You might as well only read this entry if you care, It’s going to consist of all the pointless bullshit on my mind tonight, anyway. Nothing important. I feel off tonight. I’m trying as hard as I...

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Hello… It’s been just about forever. I want to write but I really don’t know what to say. That seems to be a reoccurring theme here. I’ll be back sometime later with a real entry. I just wanted t...

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3:44AM, September 7, 2014. I feel like my life is spiraling out of control…again. I can’t tell if it’s just the stress or if it’s something deeper… I’m angry and sad and just..moody? All the time...

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School started again… Woopty do. Actually, I really am excited.. I just don’t know if I’m mentally prepared to go through classes for 4 days a week for 16 weeks again....But that’s just 16 class...

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I have never wanted someone to turn around and come back so bad in my entire life.... I feel so weepy.

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Hey.... If anyone's still paying any attention to the fact that I've been gone, I deeply apologize. I haven't been home much in the last few weeks. I'll be home in a few days and I'll try and upd...

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FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK. YOU. FUCK YOU. Okay, Now that that's out of my system. Cloud becomes fully mine tomorrow because apparently I've been "using" my friend (who I co-own him with) in ord...

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I think I'm either going to write a few letters to a few people or do another one of those anonymous "Dear You" things because I just have a lot to say and I don't really know how to get it out w...

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Okay, so. There's this guy. His name is Alex. I went to high school with him, we had either two or three classes together senior year. He's in my graduating class. He's the jock type. We facebo...

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So, I told two of my friends yesterday that I would write...and I didn't. I'll be going home tonight, though, and I'll have a few hours to write. I'll be back, I mean it this time.

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I've been typing for a little while about something that makes me really happy. I've been putting my unedited thoughts down. I'm so very happy....and yet, the more I type the harder it is for me ...

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