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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."

Rose Kennedy

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March 10, 2021

March 10, 2021 in In My World

I wanted to take the mirror down.

January 12, 2021

January 9, 2021 in In My World

Staying caught up on my entries clearly didn’t happen. UGH. At least they’re all written. Regardless of how long they took to put up. I woke up around 10 today. Protector and I were playing Mane...

January 09, 2021

January 8, 2021 in In My World

I woke up at 4:45 after not falling asleep until, like, 1:30 something. The ride to work wasn’t all that bad. I hung out a little while and then started finishing the entry from the 5th that I ha...

January 09, 2021

January 7, 2021 in In My World

I couldn’t find my pill bottle last night and it spiked my anxiety so bad. I take the same empty pill bottle and put my morning pills in it every night and take it downstairs with me so I always...

January 08, 2021

January 6, 2021 in In My World

I barely slept, again. I honestly think the stress is getting to me. I really hope I can fix my sleep schedule before it becomes a major issue. I was in I1 again today. It wasn’t bad at all, real...

January 08, 2021

January 5, 2021 in In My World

I ended up falling asleep around 11 something last night. I woke up at like 6:25, gave all the animals dry food, took my nighttime pill, and drank an entire yoohoo in like 10 seconds. I curled ba...

January 05, 2021

January 4, 2021 in In My World

Before I went to sleep, Protector rolled over and put his arms around me which helped me fall asleep pretty quick. I slept like absolute shit last night. I woke up at like 3:20 after not falling ...

January 04, 2021

January 3, 2021 in In My World

To absolutely no ones surprise, I slept until noon again today. I tried to wake myself up before then but I honestly just needed the sleep. I woke up to a text from my boss saying that I had to ...

I’m going to write tonight’s entry in the morning because I’ll have 2 hours to kill and because I have to get up at 4:45…its 1:25.

January 03, 2021

January 2, 2021 in In My World

It took me for-fucking-ever to fall asleep last night. I think I was awake when Protector left for work. I woke up at 7:30 and could have stayed up but I let myself go back to sleep. I woke up a...

January 02, 2021

January 1, 2021 in In My World

I woke Protector up last night to watch the ball drop with my mom and brother. We were all playing Animal Crossing. There wasn’t much celebration. Just quiet conversation, as it should have been....

December 31, 2020

"Low-key Fuck 2020" in In My World

In 2017 I posted: “Fuck you 2017. You tried to kill me but I only made it through stronger. There were some of the best times and some of the worst times of my life and I am so ready for you to b...

November 19, 2020

Carry on my Wayward Son in In My World

There’ll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more. This show saved my life more than once and I’m having a really hard time with it ending. I wasn’t expectin...

I’m fucking heartbroken and I have no Idea how else to feel right now. A friend of mine from high-school died and I found out yesterday morning. I haven’t figured out the right words to write abo...

-Met my friends brother to get a thing from said friend -Went to the dollar store and got drinks -Raged about the lack of internet -Repotted 12 pots worth of plants -Gave both big dogs a bath ...

July 20, 2020

Don't read this. in In My World

If you asked me right now, I’d tell you no. I’d list all the reasons why and hurt my own feelings in the process. I need reassurance and instead all I can seem to get is more upset.

AKA late night thoughts that I probably shouldn’t write down. I know how to solve all the damned insecurity and so fucking many of the problems I’m having with it but it isn’t up to me. Maybe it...

When is the last time you experienced nostalgia? -A few days ago. A converstion about stuffed animals triggered it What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? -I knew I was dreaming but I was ...

July 10, 2020

Changes and Updates in In My World

Well. Kind of. I bought myself a laptop which makes writing entries at least 30x easier. I’ve always found that journaling is easiest for me when I can just brain-dump, stream-of-consciousness wh...

May 05, 2020

Dumb brain. in In My World

Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Do...

April 20, 2020

Dream baby in In My World

I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose t...

April 08, 2020

Quarantine in In My World

Change is inevitable and necessary but one, huge, collective, global change…? That is a bit much to handle. But honestly? I’m loving the free time. For the first time in my 25 years, I have time...

Can’t keep you off my mind. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow and it is making me so restless that music doesnt sound right. I cant even explain why because I’m not low or anything. I feel goo...

February 09, 2020

Dreams in In My World

I had a dream we were riding in a car or a bike maybe and we had to stop because a small airplane was going to park on the roadway. You were immediately terrified and so was everyone around us. Y...

January 15, 2020

I should sleep. in In My World

I wasn’t low today. I wasn’t low all day but now… I’m burnt out. I should be sleeping because I have to be up in less than 5 hours but I needed to write. Most of the time I’m doing well. I got us...

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