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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."

Rose Kennedy

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3 days ago

Train Wreck in In My World

I was talking to one of my work kid’s parent this afternoon and it reminded me of a conversation from a couple years ago. I was reminded of the same conversation a few days ago in completely diff...

TW: Trauma, talk of inner child healing, mention of suicide, I had a really heavy ptsd-fueled realization today. You know those moments in movies when the character can see and hear everything ha...

September 19, 2021

Impressive? Hardly. in In My World

People keep telling me that working my two jobs (MWF and TTH) and taking 5 classes is impressive but to be completely honest…it doesn’t feel impressive to me. It’s just what I’m doing with my tim...

Sixteen seconds. Sixteen motherfucking seconds. Just 16.

May 13, 2021

Burnout in In My World

The way you feel right now is valiid and it is okay to feel. I know you’re overwhelmed and burnt out but you have to just push through. I know you want to cry and hope and scream and quit. I kno...

March 10, 2021

March 10, 2021 in In My World

I wanted to take the mirror down.

January 12, 2021

January 9, 2021 in In My World

Staying caught up on my entries clearly didn’t happen. UGH. At least they’re all written. Regardless of how long they took to put up. I woke up around 10 today. Protector and I were playing Mane...

January 09, 2021

January 8, 2021 in In My World

I woke up at 4:45 after not falling asleep until, like, 1:30 something. The ride to work wasn’t all that bad. I hung out a little while and then started finishing the entry from the 5th that I ha...

January 09, 2021

January 7, 2021 in In My World

I couldn’t find my pill bottle last night and it spiked my anxiety so bad. I take the same empty pill bottle and put my morning pills in it every night and take it downstairs with me so I always...

January 08, 2021

January 6, 2021 in In My World

I barely slept, again. I honestly think the stress is getting to me. I really hope I can fix my sleep schedule before it becomes a major issue. I was in I1 again today. It wasn’t bad at all, real...

January 08, 2021

January 5, 2021 in In My World

I ended up falling asleep around 11 something last night. I woke up at like 6:25, gave all the animals dry food, took my nighttime pill, and drank an entire yoohoo in like 10 seconds. I curled ba...

January 05, 2021

January 4, 2021 in In My World

Before I went to sleep, Protector rolled over and put his arms around me which helped me fall asleep pretty quick. I slept like absolute shit last night. I woke up at like 3:20 after not falling ...

January 04, 2021

January 3, 2021 in In My World

To absolutely no ones surprise, I slept until noon again today. I tried to wake myself up before then but I honestly just needed the sleep. I woke up to a text from my boss saying that I had to ...

I’m going to write tonight’s entry in the morning because I’ll have 2 hours to kill and because I have to get up at 4:45…its 1:25.

January 03, 2021

January 2, 2021 in In My World

It took me for-fucking-ever to fall asleep last night. I think I was awake when Protector left for work. I woke up at 7:30 and could have stayed up but I let myself go back to sleep. I woke up a...

January 02, 2021

January 1, 2021 in In My World

I woke Protector up last night to watch the ball drop with my mom and brother. We were all playing Animal Crossing. There wasn’t much celebration. Just quiet conversation, as it should have been....

December 31, 2020

"Low-key Fuck 2020" in In My World

In 2017 I posted: “Fuck you 2017. You tried to kill me but I only made it through stronger. There were some of the best times and some of the worst times of my life and I am so ready for you to b...

November 19, 2020

Carry on my Wayward Son in In My World

There’ll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more. This show saved my life more than once and I’m having a really hard time with it ending. I wasn’t expectin...

I’m fucking heartbroken and I have no Idea how else to feel right now. A friend of mine from high-school died and I found out yesterday morning. I haven’t figured out the right words to write abo...

-Met my friends brother to get a thing from said friend -Went to the dollar store and got drinks -Raged about the lack of internet -Repotted 12 pots worth of plants -Gave both big dogs a bath ...

July 20, 2020

Don't read this. in In My World

If you asked me right now, I’d tell you no. I’d list all the reasons why and hurt my own feelings in the process. I need reassurance and instead all I can seem to get is more upset.

AKA late night thoughts that I probably shouldn’t write down. I know how to solve all the damned insecurity and so fucking many of the problems I’m having with it but it isn’t up to me. Maybe it...

When is the last time you experienced nostalgia? -A few days ago. A converstion about stuffed animals triggered it What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had? -I knew I was dreaming but I was ...

July 09, 2020

Changes and Updates in In My World

Well. Kind of. I bought myself a laptop which makes writing entries at least 30x easier. I’ve always found that journaling is easiest for me when I can just brain-dump, stream-of-consciousness wh...

May 05, 2020

Dumb brain. in In My World

Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral.Don’t spiral. Don’t spiral. Do...

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