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Surrogacy. Death. Transformation.
It’s going to be ONE full year without my mom. I can’t even believe that I was able to survive this. Although her absence kills me, there are so many beautiful signs that have given me the breath...
Homecoming..
I feel like I’ve been living this life for a while now… I don’t think the pain of my mothers absence is going to subside and I just need to manage it better and come to the realization that it wi...
It hurts
Every day it hurts less and less and I know i am unbearable. My mom passed away and I’ve been a complete disaster. I don’t know how to cope with grief. Sometimes this pain feels like it’s too mu...
F*ck yourself into me
“just listen to my voice” Liam said as he put his hands on my hip bones . I followed him blindfolded down a pace in Dominican Republic. I could hear the jingling of Wembley’s collar and Winnie’s ...
Dear Liam
Dear Liam, You’re annoying. You leave your beard stubble in my sink. When you brush your teeth, you leave specks of toothpaste and spit all over the mirror. You don’t take your shoes off in the h...
Like a thief in the night
I’m bougie but I’m a bad fucking bitch… Liam did grow up in ‘caserios’ the equivalent to the projects in America… but I know that I soften him up, because when I met him he was a rough, rough nec...
Let’s be honest
Let’s be brutally honest… I know who I am and I know I am a super pretentious, spoiled, rich, incredibly selfish little entitled piece of shit. I know that Liam is an incredibly loving, understan...
A life for a life
The world is cruel and unforgiving. Well, actually scratch that, the world is not kind or cruel; the world is intrinsically selfish, fighting for its own self-preservation. These are the facets ...
Enraged
Life happens so strangely and sometimes it catches me off guard—which enrages me. Liam and I have discovered a strange new language… its very non-verbal. Quarantine has really made us completely ...
I, ME, proposed
Everyone knows this about me… The only thing I do outdoors, is brunch. Liam is such a hick, hillbilly Puerto Rican and during this whole pandemic, he’s been finding ways and forcing me to go hik...
Don't Tell Me Who I Am.
Let me explain something to everyone and anyone that would ever consider me a racist…(this is just me venting not that anyone here has called me a racist)… just because I wear Louboutins, Birkin ...
The ruminations of ruminating pt 1
I am such an over thinker. I always think about something and then I overthink about it. I dissect it and once I dissect it I dissect the dissections. Why is he so gentle and at the same time so...
Naked. Uncomfortably Stark Naked
I feel like this quarantine for me, personally, is a very super self-reflective period. Yeah, Liam is around and we have our mutual dog… and I exist with him in the confines of our home, but trul...
Normal is relative
“Babe, can you just stop nagging me, and just lay in my arms and cuddle?!” Liam said as he laid on the couch and opened the Lynx fur throw signaling me to just lay between his legs. I mean Covid-...
Sign on the Dotted Line
One of the main reasons Liam and I haven’t set a date in stone for our wedding and hoopla is that I have a iron clad prenuptial agreement that protects my assets if there is any instance of divor...
Sometimes he's right and I hate it
I guess he’s right. I don’t know sometimes I’m so self-absorbed and so full of myself that I don’t want to admit that he’s right… but he’s right. He came home from a long, long day of work… I wor...
Oh chloe
The lingering question about my fiancé’s best girl friend… we’ve been hanging out. We had lunch at some fancy place and we got drunk out of our minds by 1 pm… And I blurted our “Chloe tell me th...
Oh... Chloe, your GIRL best friend
One of the very, very few female friends that Liam has, Chloe, is one of the very few women that he’s introduced me to that literally intimidates the living fuck out of me… And for Liam to tell m...
Jealousy.
“I’m over this” I chugged my glass of wine. Liam scrunched his face “we’ve only been here like 30 minutes baby, chill” he said putting his arm over my shoulders. “I hate it here!” I said through ...
My Dearest Dead Grandma
Once upon a time there was a little Puerto Rican boy who met his beautiful grandmother… she was heavy chested and her hips were wide—after all she beared 23 children. Her hair was crimped and sil...
Liam
The mention of his name sends goosebumps down my spine and horniness in my loins. I can masturbate just to his name and reach orgasm in under 2 minutes. He’s everything that I have fought all of ...
A Billion Shades of Puerto Rico
He texted me “good morning papito; I don’t like when you leave without at least me giving you a grumpy goodbye! I hope you have a good day at work—always remember that I love you so much, I am so...
The Genesis of Family.
The jangling of your keys on our door. You burst open and your eyes light up as you sloppily close the door, stumbling toward me. Your lips taste like whiskey. Your fingers as they hold my face s...
Maybe it's wrong, maybe he was right
The thing about me is that I have a very, very sketchy and long history of drug abuse. Or rather, I have a very manic relationship with all things… I’ve abused drugs, all were amphetamines; I do...
Don't Cross Me. I make soup out of people like you.
I am definitely not the bitch you wanna cross. Once you fuck with me, I’m not trying to hurt you the way you hurt me, I’m not seeking revenge, I want to step on your throat and find out how to su...
