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I’m avoiding most social media for the rest of the day because I don’t want to see the Valentine stuff. LOL All the couples who pretend to be happy and stuff and so they post it on the web. I”m ...

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I guess the deterrent for me being on social media is to know he’s paying attention. I don’t follow him on social media because I don’t want to see his life. He sees mine. I have nothing to hide,...

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…he’s back on Twitter. Now I have to regulate my mental floss… I mean I eventually tell him what I’m feeling, but I don’t want it to seem like I’m side mouthing conversation about him while he’s ...

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So today I feel a bit better about my situation. I really do believe it was the hormones from my period. I was in church and I cried it out and left it all on the “alter”. I even got set off a c...

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How do anti-vaccination people come up with their reasons for not vaccinating their kids? I just read a Twitter thread where this woman was giving Motrin and Tylenol, along with peppermint oil an...

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Well, the tire was repairable. Somewhere along the way home I drove over a nail. I don’t subscribe to OnStar though they run diagnostics on my car from time to time. They sent an email instead of...

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Wow. Last night, there was a guy named Ladarius. I’ve never know anyone in real life (personally) named Ladarius. Apparently, we use to see each other and I dumped him and had been living a drama...

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So last night, I didn’t dream of Him. I did dream of someone else that I made a huge mistake with for a season in my life. My kids were in this dream. I NEVER have dreams with my daughter in the...

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I’ve been in chill mode today. Well, I cleaned up my house, save my bedroom. I usually go see my mom on Saturdays especially since tomorrow is first Sunday and I’m going to be in church all day. ...

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I had another dream. Him video called me and when the video started he was having some rough, porn-like sex with his wife. He had her one way, then threw her legs around and she got on her hands ...

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I dreamt about Him, well he was in my dream. I dreamt about something else. In my dream, my cousin and her friend came to our old house where we grew up. He came to see me, dropping by, I don’t r...

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How many pairs of converse shoes do you own? 1 and I admit they’ve seen better days Any other names your parents planned to give you? I don’t know. I’m not even sure if my name was a mutual decis...

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After class last night, my dad asked me to come to his house. My little brother was there, and asked me to drop him off where ever he was going. Wherever he was going, as usual, turned out to be ...

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I hadn’t heard from Him since last Monday. I surmised that, “Well we gotta keep this thing low anyway. Constant connection isn’t necessarily good for keeping it on the low.” I think the more I wa...

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Not really therapy, just realization. And I ramble. Forgive me. I need real therapy. I was thinking about how much I want to love someone and be in love. Sex and love are different, but they are ...

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So… It’s the quiet season at work. This means that if I have anything I’m interested in I had better deal with it now while I got “down time” at the office. I forgot to bring my bible in from lun...

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1) I wrote Him a detailed email and heart spilled on him. 2) I’ve been talking to RJ today. I apologized to her, but we’ve seemingly only scratched the surface. 3) “Friend” M. I wrote her a brief...

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On my way to church Christmas morning, I had a real moment with myself that started with my first love/lover at 14, Harry. Our relationship was mostly over the phone. We saw each other in person ...

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So…I am here, at 1:31 in the afternoon still in the bed. I had plans to be up early, cleaning house, washing clothes, but instead, I have on a tshirt, but nekkid underneath, listening to what sou...

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I’m in the midst of a Kirk Franklin fest on Spotify right now. I think I needed to become very acquainted with him today for some reason. He’s alright. 20 years ago, I would have been saying some...

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Yesterday was the 3rd anniversary of my sister passing away. It’s weird. For some reason it seems so much longer than 3 years. I was talking to my niece yesterday and told her that I feel like c...

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1) Him called me not long ago and said he wanted to hear my voice and wanted me to be sarcastic to him like only I do. I wasn’t in the mood to entertain him in that way. So, I did the next best t...

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I had a feeling that my check was going to be screwed up some kind of way. My check is short. My daughter is, once again, back at my house. All I ask is that she and the kids keep a low profile. ...

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It never fails. Once things get back on unsteady rails, the behavior resets and it’s back to square one. Still not done with being blind to patterns that undo you every time You just won’t learn,...

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All I have on it is prayer. I have to take it to God. I’m a limited being. My daughter and Bubby Jr. showed up at my door last night. She sat on my stairs and cried and cried. So I told her to ta...

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