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I haven’t written for a long time. I’ve been very tired, so I’ve been sleeping all day and all night. Honestly, I don’t feel that depressed anymore though. I get these random spikes of anxiety, a...

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My Sun |It’s like I’ve never felt the Sun before. -----|But Sun is where I’m from. -----|I’ve been away so long ----------|I forgot living was living ----------|and not ---------------|dying. ---...

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It has certainly been a long time since I’ve written anything, but I’m getting back on it. I’m going to try this new thing called “self-care”, and I heard that writing in a journal may be benefic...

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He calls her “exotic”. He enunciates each syllable with percussion. Te. Te. Te. Three taps on the congas. But, she’s not just different or foreign. She’s exotic. Her skin– a burnt orange. Her hai...

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I haven’t slept for a long time. I think it may have only been two days, but I feel like I’m going crazy, so it’s no surprise I can’t remember. At 6am on Monday I went for a walk in the park beca...

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How are people happy in college? I think I’ve found the source of my discomfort, and that is that I don’t have a life when I’m in college. I live in a shitty apartment/room without friends, fam...

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Sardonic symphony rendered like a slimy peach– Fresh and sweet; I like mine refined, neat. Twist twice, remove. I abhor the news. Mark those who call them booze. For I shall pelt them with “boo“‘...

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Arab sword stuck deep in my gut. Rusted shut with puss, wound ready to gush. Gushing from its cocoon– Bursting big salient balloon. Burning bright, the star ascends– a sign of respite, my only bo...

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If you ask my mom, she’d, in all likelihood, say that I spend all of my time in the library. But, she would be wrong. I spend all of my time in my room– as if I were a prisoner. Honestly, if you ...

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Sooooo, it’s been a while. 19 days. Really pushin’ the limit there, friend. Things haven’t gotten significantly better. London has not grown on me. However, I feel less aimless nowadays. I keep c...

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Wooooeeeee… It’s been a while. Over the winter break, my mom and brother came to visit me in Europe. They came to stay with me in London for 3 days. Then, we went to Nice, France and stayed for a...

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Mama wants you/ to follow your dream. My dream is to lead/ a mighty regime. To be a leader,/ you can’t be so soft-spoken. I’ll be a doctor/ and fix things that are broken. That’ll be hard,/ and a...

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It’s snowing in London. It’s my first year living here, but I’ve been told it hasn’t snowed in London in years, which then makes my experience here a bit more exciting. And, as I sit at my desk, ...

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Honestly, I haven’t written recently because I’ve been too busy procrastinating the essays I need to write this week for my finals. Anyways, I’ve been trying to motivate myself recently– not jus...

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With my cousin visiting, London has become a more foreign place– a place so different from my home and a place I have left woefully unexplored for the past 2 months. However, I feel that if I set...

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The days I spend apart from this wretched media grow longer. It is only with the twiddle of my restless thumbs that I resort to its amateur solace. But, for what reason should a student twiddle h...

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This weekend was fun. I went to Hounslow to play a couple of baseball games. I really love playing baseball. Maybe it’s nostalgia since I’ve played it since I was 4, but it’s such a fun game. Or,...

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I am 20 years old. I am a college student. Already, my mom hounds me constantly about when I am going to give her grandchildren. If you’ve read any of my previous journal entries or scribbles, yo...

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Yesterday, I had to read a few scientific papers and write an essay, so I didn’t have time for a journal entry. I actually kinda liked it. Maybe it’s not neuroscience or medicine that I’ve always...

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I had a first draft of my “Infection” course report due at 5pm today. I kept procrastinating and procrastinating until I had only 3 hours left to create an essay outline, find scientific resource...

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It’s been a boring day, so no need to describe it in detail. I woke up at noon, watched Netflix, scrolled through Pinterest, and took notes on an “Infection” lecture. I would, however, like to vo...

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As I said yesterday, I feel like I’m coming out of the funk. Unfortunately, I’ve woken up to find that I lost interest in all of the things I have invested my life in. This depression is like a h...

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The solitary mind is a vulnerable thing. Rare delusions which doubtless infiltrate one’s grasp on logic and rationality are only compounded by the asexual reproduction of thought. Like metastatic...

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I think I may be coming out of it now, or at least I feel like I’m more able to live a healthy life despite its weight on my shoulders. I feel like I’ve found my way out a bit sooner than I usual...

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‘Tis easy to love what is loved and love for true. ‘Tis not to love what is not and love renewed. ‘Tis least to love completely and love the two.

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