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9 May 2018
I haven’t written for a long time. I’ve been very tired, so I’ve been sleeping all day and all night. Honestly, I don’t feel that depressed anymore though. I get these random spikes of anxiety, a...
April 5, 2018
It has certainly been a long time since I’ve written anything, but I’m getting back on it. I’m going to try this new thing called “self-care”, and I heard that writing in a journal may be benefic...
February 20, 2018
I haven’t slept for a long time. I think it may have only been two days, but I feel like I’m going crazy, so it’s no surprise I can’t remember. At 6am on Monday I went for a walk in the park beca...
February 19, 2018
How are people happy in college? I think I’ve found the source of my discomfort, and that is that I don’t have a life when I’m in college. I live in a shitty apartment/room without friends, fam...
January 29, 2018
If you ask my mom, she’d, in all likelihood, say that I spend all of my time in the library. But, she would be wrong. I spend all of my time in my room– as if I were a prisoner. Honestly, if you ...
January 27, 2018
Sooooo, it’s been a while. 19 days. Really pushin’ the limit there, friend. Things haven’t gotten significantly better. London has not grown on me. However, I feel less aimless nowadays. I keep c...
January 8, 2018
Wooooeeeee… It’s been a while. Over the winter break, my mom and brother came to visit me in Europe. They came to stay with me in London for 3 days. Then, we went to Nice, France and stayed for a...
December 10, 2017 (A Reflection on Snow Turned Painfully Existential)
It’s snowing in London. It’s my first year living here, but I’ve been told it hasn’t snowed in London in years, which then makes my experience here a bit more exciting. And, as I sit at my desk, ...
December 7, 2017
Honestly, I haven’t written recently because I’ve been too busy procrastinating the essays I need to write this week for my finals. Anyways, I’ve been trying to motivate myself recently– not jus...
December 2, 2017
With my cousin visiting, London has become a more foreign place– a place so different from my home and a place I have left woefully unexplored for the past 2 months. However, I feel that if I set...
November 30, 2017
The days I spend apart from this wretched media grow longer. It is only with the twiddle of my restless thumbs that I resort to its amateur solace. But, for what reason should a student twiddle h...
November 26, 2017
This weekend was fun. I went to Hounslow to play a couple of baseball games. I really love playing baseball. Maybe it’s nostalgia since I’ve played it since I was 4, but it’s such a fun game. Or,...
November 23, 2017
I am 20 years old. I am a college student. Already, my mom hounds me constantly about when I am going to give her grandchildren. If you’ve read any of my previous journal entries or scribbles, yo...
November 22, 2017
Yesterday, I had to read a few scientific papers and write an essay, so I didn’t have time for a journal entry. I actually kinda liked it. Maybe it’s not neuroscience or medicine that I’ve always...
November 20, 2017
I had a first draft of my “Infection” course report due at 5pm today. I kept procrastinating and procrastinating until I had only 3 hours left to create an essay outline, find scientific resource...
November 18, 2017
It’s been a boring day, so no need to describe it in detail. I woke up at noon, watched Netflix, scrolled through Pinterest, and took notes on an “Infection” lecture. I would, however, like to vo...
November 17, 2017
As I said yesterday, I feel like I’m coming out of the funk. Unfortunately, I’ve woken up to find that I lost interest in all of the things I have invested my life in. This depression is like a h...
November 16, 2017
I think I may be coming out of it now, or at least I feel like I’m more able to live a healthy life despite its weight on my shoulders. I feel like I’ve found my way out a bit sooner than I usual...
November 15, 2017
There is no way I will be able to keep this up. Everyday, writing about my pitiful yet incredibly privileged life. Ugh, I see myself now– in the future, seeing these entries and choking down the ...
November 14, 2017
I had lectures from 9 am-11 am today. I woke up at 7:50 am, dehydrated, with a dry nose, a scratchy throat, and a “good morning” headache. What is up with this dry-ass London weather anyways? I w...
Book Description
When I need a creative or emotional outlet, I’ll write here. I need to stop being ashamed of my perfectly human thoughts and emotions (and shitty writing); so, with this journal, I would like prove to myself that I can do that– prove to myself that I can stop being such a miserable, self-loathing [loser] person*.
