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My soul is at war. The sadist inside screams for malice. But the person I’m becoming will not allow it. The desire to help others fights for control, As apathy tries to stengthen it’s hold. Your ...

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I’ve created us a place. A place in a book! What a familiar concept to me. I do not know you. You cannot see my face. Yet I wonder who you may be! Share your writing here, I’ll treasure it foreve...

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I’m feeling a bit… Fuzzled. Perhaps you know what I mean. I cannot quite articulate the feeling. I’m not even sure what is happening in my brain. Things start to slip. Thoughts are not always inc...

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At church the other day I met a boy named Michael. We were both wearing band ahirts so he strikes up a convo. Later we end up at the same mystery dinner. Turns out he also loves animals, reading,...

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I’ve said it a hundred times and I’ll say it a hundred more. It is good to be home. Pieces are falling into place for me. God is bringing me all the things I need. All the things I asked for. I s...

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My friend is struggling with heroin again. How many times have I helped him sober up? Talked him out of his withdrawl? Talked him out of suicide? Let him stay here? Fed him? Encouraged him? And y...

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On my mind tonight are queations of morality. With faith in a belief structure to back them. What of energy work? Most chriatians would declare it a hoax all together. They have not seen what I h...

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Hard to pin down how I’m feeling. A member of our local music community died yesterday. Not sure how. I didn’t know him very well so I’m not posting my sad farewells on facebook like everyone els...

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I’ve decided that I want to be a psychologist that specialises in personality disorders and autism. I want to work with those that others are afraid of. Imagine the awesome conversations I will h...

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Heather is a plant with beautiful flowers in many different colors. It is said that the plant has excellent ovaries. Sometimes it bears two flowers at once on a branch. It grows easily in the rig...

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Every day, Thoughts of you, I push them away. No matter how hard I push, These thoughts intercede. I know I have a long wait ahead of me. I just wish sometimes, That I really knew, What I am wait...

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Psychopaths sometimes have difficulty interpreting metaphors. They may need a translator. But can they play chess? I thibk they can play chess quite well. Do you know about Pawns? Or are you only...

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So I finished Exodus recently. Two things that really stuck in my mind the most: God’s people were really quick to turn away from him in the absence of a leader… Over and over and over… Sure we s...

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Surrounded by people. But still feeling alone. Lots of friends, But nobody that really understands. Maybe nobody can. People push their way into my life, Insistant on talking. But they cant under...

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I’m doing just fine. No real problems. Should have a new job soon. Thats good. And yet… It would feel so good to have someone holding me right now. Feeling lonely. Feeling tired. No motivation to...

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God likes new things. He says this. So why would he seek firmly to repeat the past? Especially one which is riddled with human error. Jacob was not supposed to have two wives. He could not be sat...

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I came to a very troublesome realisation today. People are reacting very badly to any sign of God at all. It is not just the rosary around my neck. I pull out a Bible or mention God or praying at...

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I saw you today. You didn’t talk to me. Didn’t look me in the eye. You seemed upset by my being around. I kept my distance. Your girlfriend seemed upset by my too. I saw you and her cuddling and ...

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A wave of unexpected emotions. I feel a sense of panic and urgency but I’m not sure why. Am I just nervous about going to a show tomorrow? It’s not a big one. I’m not even performing of course. T...

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It’s 5am. I’ve been awakw all night thinking of all the things I’ve done or said to hurt you. Thinking of how I will ever make them up to you. Wishing I had understood you then. I thought you wer...

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I had a pretty good day yesterday. I was productive and got alot done. Today I skipped church and took my son to the park. He is being so defiant lately that I don’t know what to do! I want my li...

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I am so lonely. :( I’m sad. I need a backrub amd lots of cuddles. But who knows how long it will be until I can have those things. It doesn’t help that I can’t stop thinking about you. It’s getti...

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It’s funny. I got so used to her standing behind you all the time and her dropping in to talk to me that I miss her now that she’s gone. I figure, that year, I got to know her almost as well as y...

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I’m trying so hard to make something of my writing career. I’m failing so hard too. I meed to pick a project and stick to it so I can move forward instead of bouncing around like a mental pinball...

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I wanted you to follow God with me, and maybe someday you will; right now it seems that you are busy following your own self interests. I still wonder if you were lieing about what God said to yo...

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