All About Hikaru/Yuki

by LachrymoseBeauty

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June 25, 2024

Mentally Tired

There’s this persistent feeling of ill ccontent.Im not sure how to describe it. I’m always tired no matter how much I feel. My brain feels warm and swollen and floaty. I can’t concentrate. Can’t ...

March 07, 2020

The Need to Cry

I thought I’d cry last night. In the middle of that crowded show. I thought I’d really just bring down. Instead I got high. And made incredibly innapropriate remarks all night. Now I have trouble...

February 22, 2020

Wow, really??

So a certain user on prosebox, MyDronedLife, has taken it upon herself to think she is the fucking voice of God and told me that losing my baby was God’s way of punishing me for choosing to have ...

February 21, 2020


Turns out it’s not Trisomy 13.... its triploidy. Instead of an extra 13th chromosome, my baby has a whole extra set. My sweet Yuki. They said she’s actually a boy because she has a ‘y’ chromosome...

February 20, 2020

She's dieing

Today my little Yuki barely had a heartbeat. She’s dieing. They don’t think she will survive another week. How will I tell my son his baby sister died? How will I keep going like nothing’s wrong?...

February 19, 2020


Tick tock, tick tock. Time moves so slow. Anxiously awaiting results from the amnio. Almost a whole week to go still. And I cant get comfortable unless I’m laying in bed or a bathtub. Its infuria...

February 03, 2020


I’ve been more and more stressed out. Especially about little things. This fucking house never being clean and organized no matter how hard I try is at the top of the list. Always forgetting wher...

I’ve been in the nesting mood. Lord knows this house needs it. Unfortunatly I’m entirely too tired to accomplish much most of the time. I usually crash real hard after I pick up my son from schoo...

Book Description

This book is about my current crisis with my pregnancy and the possibilities of devastating birth defects.