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Short Thoughts

by LachrymoseBeauty

Entries 28

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October 13, 2021

I just keep thinking

This cant be goodbye. But I’m the one who left. Miss you so much today. Wesley cant make it go away.


September 29, 2021

About to Implode

I dont feel like I have an outlet for my emotions right oow or any moral support from anyone. This is all eating me alive.


September 28, 2021

-.-

Already feeling shitty about my last post. I shouldn’t care right? It’s my damn journal not a PR blog or some shit.


September 03, 2021

It Just Be That Way

I feel like I’m under performing, not meeting my own standards, feel like a lazy fuck who will never accomplish anything. I need forward motion. I need to fix my medicaid, find a therapist. It’s ...


Had an amazing dream about Jay last night. Now I dont want to be awake. I’d rather just dream of him forever. We could be close again, in my dreams.


August 23, 2019

Ssdd

I wish I wasnt alone tonight. I’m depressed. I also dont want to bother anyone. Most people couldnt be bothered anyway.


May 19, 2019

Its like that

Tell me what I can’t do And I’ll show you the difference between me and you.


May 03, 2019

Must be the meds.

My mind is on cloud nine but my body.... Just wont move from this chair.


March 15, 2019

Time

Seems like time is moving do fast, but my brain is just stuck. It doesn’t recognize the passing of time. I’ve accomplished alot in the last few years, but it always feels like I’m not accomplishi...


January 23, 2019

Why???

Cant seem to get motivated to do anything lately. This has got to stop. Someone send me motivation. I cannot fail myself again. So many thoughts spinning in my head. I need to find a way, a retre...


November 16, 2018

Adequate Compensation

People spend a lot of time at work. I always hear people complain about work and say they wish they didnt have to work. Here’s the truth: If all you get out of your job is money then they aren’t ...


October 29, 2018

How??

How do you get motivated to do things? Even when they are really boring. I cant keep my attention on this, but I need to get it done. It’s not hard work, just so freaking boring.


October 02, 2018

Free


September 30, 2018

:(

I know I did the right thing. I did what I had to do. But I already miss you. Goodnight.


July 23, 2018

Disappointment

I guess I wasn’t invited after all… I hope they are different. I hope they are real. I should know better. Sad.


I guess I lost my pin at the show the other night. The one with Austin on it. I shouldn’t have worn it out. :(


April 25, 2018

Fiending

You are like a drug that I always need more of.


April 23, 2018

Why!?

Did an abdominal work out. Feel like I’m doing. I might puke. I didn’t even finish the darn thing. This is much more difficult than anticipated. Owwww!


April 18, 2018

Must I Beg?

Talk to me. I miss your voice.


April 17, 2018

Tired Brain

The anxiety and stress is really eating at me today for some reason.


April 11, 2018

Trying Not to Give In

Ever watched yourself slowly go insane? https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=5Ez17h1EkK8&feature=share Please pray for me. It’s just starting to be too much. I can’t shake it off when people are...


April 09, 2018

Why!?

Am I okay? No. Nerves, anxiety Seeing double meanings behind everything. Ahhh brain… It’s sleeping time. Sleep, Please please sleep!


April 08, 2018

<3


So naturally as I’m doing my math quiz my brain decides it’s the right time to go over every interaction that could have gone terribly wrong without my having noticed. It ran out of J related int...


April 03, 2018

In Hindsight

It seems as if you were expecting something from me. I’m not sure what social obligation it was that I failed at. A compliment? A tear? A conversation? What was the desired outcome? Were you wait...


Book Description

For those little thoughts that are sometimes so big.