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This cant be goodbye. But I’m the one who left. Miss you so much today. Wesley cant make it go away.
I dont feel like I have an outlet for my emotions right oow or any moral support from anyone. This is all eating me alive.
Already feeling shitty about my last post. I shouldn’t care right? It’s my damn journal not a PR blog or some shit.
I feel like I’m under performing, not meeting my own standards, feel like a lazy fuck who will never accomplish anything. I need forward motion. I need to fix my medicaid, find a therapist. It’s ...
Had an amazing dream about Jay last night. Now I dont want to be awake. I’d rather just dream of him forever. We could be close again, in my dreams.
I wish I wasnt alone tonight. I’m depressed. I also dont want to bother anyone. Most people couldnt be bothered anyway.
Tell me what I can’t do
And I’ll show you the difference between me and you.
My mind is on cloud nine but my body....
Just wont move from this chair.
Seems like time is moving do fast, but my brain is just stuck. It doesn’t recognize the passing of time. I’ve accomplished alot in the last few years, but it always feels like I’m not accomplishi...
Cant seem to get motivated to do anything lately. This has got to stop. Someone send me motivation. I cannot fail myself again. So many thoughts spinning in my head. I need to find a way, a retre...
People spend a lot of time at work. I always hear people complain about work and say they wish they didnt have to work. Here’s the truth:
If all you get out of your job is money then they aren’t ...
How do you get motivated to do things? Even when they are really boring. I cant keep my attention on this, but I need to get it done. It’s not hard work, just so freaking boring.
I know I did the right thing. I did what I had to do. But I already miss you. Goodnight.
I guess I wasn’t invited after all…
I hope they are different.
I hope they are real.
I should know better.
I guess I lost my pin at the show the other night. The one with Austin on it. I shouldn’t have worn it out. :(
You are like a drug that I always need more of.
Did an abdominal work out. Feel like I’m doing. I might puke. I didn’t even finish the darn thing. This is much more difficult than anticipated. Owwww!
Talk to me.
I miss your voice.
The anxiety and stress is really eating at me today for some reason.
Ever watched yourself slowly go insane?
Please pray for me. It’s just starting to be too much. I can’t shake it off when people are...
Am I okay?
Seeing double meanings behind everything. Ahhh brain… It’s sleeping time.
Please please sleep!
So naturally as I’m doing my math quiz my brain decides it’s the right time to go over every interaction that could have gone terribly wrong without my having noticed. It ran out of J related int...
It seems as if you were expecting something from me. I’m not sure what social obligation it was that I failed at. A compliment? A tear? A conversation? What was the desired outcome? Were you wait...