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I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.
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Over... in Book of M...
I think this book is over. The last few weeks have been tense and very back and forth. We talk, I flirt, he either ignores it or recently just texted back “stop.” I find it really difficult to s...
Crying While Driving... in Book of M...
I’ve done too much of this lately. It’s like I feel the need to get the tears out before I get home, not that there’s anyone there to see me. I just don’t even know how to explain it or if I eve...
Sleepy... in Fresh Start...
I’m currently sleepy. I should have one to bed earlier last night. My house needs cleaning along with a laundry list of other stuff. Had a meeting at work today. People really enjoy hearing them...
Figured It Out... in Book of M...
I think I figured it out. Why I like M so much. I think it’s because he’s a rare combination. He’s rugged and handsome and a manly man type, yet he has similar interests that don’t quite fit the...
Friend Zone... in Book of M...
Lots to cover… I’ve still been hanging out with M a fair bit at work. We still flirt with one another. But there have been a few strained moments. On Wednesday I had a Dr appointment. Yearly obg...
Catch Up... in Fresh Start...
I’m a bit behind. I meant to catch up earlier. I met up with POF guy again… let’s call him JM. He came over on a Wednesday afternoon around 3:30. We talked and eventually moved to the bedroom. I...
Just Argh... in Fresh Start...
I was right about Monday. It was this continual giving me a hard time about my date. J didn’t believe that all we did was make out. In his world, I fucked some random guy in the park. B I think...
Who Knows... in Fresh Start...
Ok.... so I made a date with a guy from POF. Realistically it was just us meeting and having a couple drinks. The couple of days prior to the date were just not so great. Been on an emotional ro...
Ugly Cry... in Fresh Start...
Today was a long day. I was exhausted last night but couldn’t go to bed until I fed everyone. Of course by the time I got done I had hit my 2nd wind and knew I wouldn’t get to bed anytime soon. ...
Exhausted... in Book of M...
I really just want to go to bed right now, but unfortunately that’s not really an option. I at least have to get everyone fed. I have to go to this fashion show thing with K tomorrow night bc I ...
Stupid... in Book of M...
If you haven’t heard the song you should check it out… Kacey Musgraves. I think it’s interesting. I’m tired today and a little sore. My shoulder from the touch up. Just a small spot so no big de...
Always trying... in Book of M...
This weekend wasn’t terrible but I also didn’t get nearly enough accomplished. Friday was fun bc M was working a double that day so normally I don’t get to see him on Fridays but instead I got h...
Better I Guess... in Book of M...
Friday was better than the last several. I stayed at work a little later, but then I stopped at chickfila to get dinner. Not the best thing to eat, but I only ate like half the fries so that’s be...
Movies... in Fresh Start...
Sometimes I wish my love life could be like in a movie, but it never is. Where’s my Noah? Where’s my happy ending? I don’t think I have one. I’ve made efforts. HS guy just basically wants nothi...
Infinite Playlist... in Fresh Start...
I need to quit watching movies with love stories. It’s not good. This weekend it seems to be a Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist sort of weekend. Michael Cera is so awkward it’s ridiculously a...
Always Breaking Stuff... in Fresh Start...
Basically this past weekend I did nothing but sleep because I was depressed and miserable. I’ve decided that a lot of it is because I’m an extrovert and I recharge my batteries by being around p...
I Need to Stop... in Book of M...
I’m laying here tonight in bed alone as usual. I’m kinda over people in general. Just like everyone. Except like K. She’s the only person I give a damn about currently. She’s the only one that ev...
M Saga Continues... in Book of M...
I’ve pretty much been at work late all week because of M. On Monday I brought in leftover roast with carrots and potatoes and then M and I went to the store for corn muffin mix. So I heated that ...
More M... in Book of M...
It seems to be the only thing on my mind lately which is kinda bad. The other day we were upstairs talking and it was just the 2 of us and I was tickling him randomly. He grabbed my hand and put ...
Still falling... in Book of M...
In general things have slowed down. I think it was 2 weekends ago now that I didn’t really hear from him much, which isn’t unusual, but when he didn’t message me on Sunday it seemed weird. So I s...
Falling... in Book of M...
Yup… I’m an idiot. I’m really starting to fall for M. I didn’t hear from him much this past weekend bc he was busy working on a tractor and other things. On Sunday I went out to a hookah bar wit...
I want... in Fresh Start...
I want my house to be clean for more than 5 minutes. I want somewhere to deliver pizza to my house. I want someone to want to spend time with me. I want someone that I have electric chemistry wit...
Assumptions... in Fresh Start...
I automatically assume when someone doesn’t text/message me in a timely manner that I have done something wrong and I’m just an annoyance and they didn’t want to talk to me anyway. I hate feeling...
Oh My Word... in Book of M...
This past weekend was a bit extreme. On Saturday I had my “undate” as my bestie was calling it. We saw Suicide Squad. I liked it. After the movie we came out and it was raining decently. So he wa...
Jesus... in Fresh Start...
Ok, so after thinking about it for a bit and then compounded with my weekend… I don’t really expect there to be a guy out there that is interested in me. My crazy far outweighs my hotness at this...
