Down the rabbit hole... ⋅ 43 ⋅
I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.
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Brewery... in Fresh Start...
Last Tuesday, K, her hubby, and my ex hubby tried out a local brewery. They have yummy pizza and lots of different beers. F and I were messaging a fair bit this week and I was being really flirt...
Forgotten... in Fresh Start...
Ok.... I have a new story but realized it needed to be preceded by another story that I apparently didn’t tell… A couple of weekends ago, the 21st to be exact, I went to Ren Fair. Me and K dresse...
Drunk... in Book of M...
I am a wee bit drunk and hiccupy. I am stupidly head over heels in love with M. He has a useless gf. He hasn’t left her and who know if he will. And even if he does, he’s not going to be interes...
More Wasted Time... in Fresh Start...
I feel like I’ve wasted the whole weekend. I’ve accomplished like nothing. I’ve done like nothing. Hoping to make up for it a little bit today, but I’m not sure. Like I’m already discouraged and ...
Long Survey in Fresh Start...
Are the shows you watch embarrassing? I don’t think so.... I’m a big fan of SUV, Criminal Minds, Nashville, Gotham, Supernatural, Bones, etc… Would you ever get plastic surgery? I think a boob li...
I'm feeling... in Book of M...
I’m really not sure… Like I’m wasting time… Like I’m never going to find anyone I actually see a future with… Like hopeless and miserable and just worthless… I took today off because I needed a 4...
Brownie... in Fresh Start...
I found a new baby goat yesterday. It’s a girl and I’m naming her Brownie. Her mom is Chocolate. Chocolate’s first kid is named Cocoa, and her twin kids are named Oreo and Diva (as in Godiva), so...
Not As Painful... in Fresh Start...
Been a little bit since I wrote. First off…I bought a new vehicle on Monday. It was not a need, but a want. I currently have a really old pickup that I use for hauling trash and straw, as well as...
Maybe later... in Fresh Start...
I really just want to say “fuck” a lot right now and leave it at that. No particular reason. Just sick of everything. And most everyone. Like I’m sick of being lonely but I also kinda just want t...
Green Eyed Monster... in Book of M...
I’m just jealous. M and I have been off for a while. He hasn’t been complaining about his gf and he’s been more social with F at work than me. So I kinda feel the need to not socialize with F an...
Motivation... in Fresh Start...
I really suck at it. Like I’ve accomplished very little today. I woke up with a headache this morning but like 4 Excedrin fixed that. Last night was fun, but I feel like I spent more time at the ...
Welts... in Fresh Start...
I had started this entry and then somehow dozed off and hit the back button and fucked it up… let’s see if I can remember where I was. JM is just an issue. Despite me clearly saying that this was...
The Girl Who Loves To Love... in Fresh Start...
That’s what another writer calls me. She’s pretty right. Only problem… I really suck at it. I read an article earlier about 10 things that alpha women need in a relationship. In the preface they ...
Massage... in Fresh Start...
I have a massage scheduled for today. K bought me a groupon for Christmas. I need the relaxation. I’m currently just tired and sore. My period is in full force and I need to do pt exercises for ...
Boys are dumb... in Fresh Start...
So dumb… So today F comes up to me and kinda mumbles that he was confused and would be kewl with hanging out… So I guess he thought I was propositioning him for sex? Or can’t read? Not sure which...
I feel dumb... in Fresh Start...
Like extremely dumb… I was messaging with F on fb earlier. Just chatting. This is basically how the conversation went: Me: I was going to say earlier that we could hang out sometime but figured t...
Realizing... in Book of M...
I think I’m finally beginning to realize that M was just this pipe dream that was never going to happen. For a long time after I kicked out my ex bf I was constantly asking myself why I wasn’t e...
Fucked up... in Fresh Start...
Work has been fucked up lately. Meeting on Friday almost seemed like it was going to end in a fight. My boss’s boss is too big for his britches and tries to micromanage everything. I think he’s f...
Exclusion... in Book of M...
This may sound stupid. But I can’t help how I feel. My profession is mainly male dominated. The only other woman at my plant is an administrative assistant chick. There aren’t very many women in ...
Animals > People... in Fresh Start...
Most definitely. Today wholeheartedly reaffirmed that belief. When I want to talk to someone or need to, there’s no one there, but if I’m busy, you better believe everyone is texting me. I have...
Better... in Fresh Start...
Monday was just a really bad day. Tuesday K and my ex hubby came over as usual. C was texting me but when I told him he was welcome to come over, he was too busy cleaning or something. I haven’t...
Lonely... in Fresh Start...
I’m not sure what my problem is. I feel extremely lonely. I hate being home alone. I’m entirely unmotivated. I want to talk to someone, but at the same time, I feel like a complete bother. I thi...
Fantasy Life... in Book of M...
My daydreams have gotten a little out of control… It’s late. You text me. Almost illegibly. Drowning your feelings in fireball. Wanting to talk to someone. But not a guy because then you couldn’t...
Gah... in Book of M...
Ok… so I’m so just done and bored with C. When I describe the sex as boring and mediocre at best… and oh so vanilla. Not that I’m a total freak in bed, but just gah… I’ve been super busy at work...
Sick of Everything... in Fresh Start...
I’m incredibly stressed out. A lot of it is work related, but the more I stress, the less I seem to accomplish. My dating life is also a source of stress. I need to give up. On everything. Curre...
