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Brisbane, Queensland, Australia. Ex country kid, on the outskirts of Outback. 6'3, gay, introvert, spontaneous Sagittarius (Orpheus actually). I need an outlet for my life, and this is it :) If you'd like to be added to Friends Only, a) don't be a prude, and b) please let me know :) Insta : pfefz Snap: luvncraze Facebook: Matt Pfeffer

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November 08, 2021

Tent? What tent? in Stuff

I’m feeling pretty good today. Went and ran a few errands. Got some steel caps and new work pants for work (since I literally felt and HEARD mine split at work on Sunday LOL). The steel caps a...

November 07, 2021

Quiet in Stuff

I’m doing alright now that I’ve gotten through another work-week. It’s just been a case of over-worked. One of my workmates said to the store manager that he just needs a week of doing his cont...

November 01, 2021

Thanks in Vulnerability

I should probably write again. That last entry was fucking tough but I’m glad I wrote it down. This diary really has been like my form of therapy since 2004 when I started writing on OpenDiary,...

October 26, 2021

Off myself in Vulnerability

(this entry is a bit dark FYI) Today the mental health was beyond shocking. Easily the hardest day of 2021 for me so far. For some reason, my brain decided to want to tell me I was worthless, ...

October 20, 2021

Fixed up in Vulnerability

I’m back from the dentist. Yesterday wasn’t even fucking mentioned. Probably a good thing, as I had my receipts and the appointment card ready to throw at them and yell, “WHAT WAS THE POINT OF ...

October 19, 2021

Ghost booking in Vulnerability

I spent all day being anxious about my dentist appointment (as I always do) and went to gym early so I could try and calm myself down a little, and went to my appointment. There was a girl alrea...

October 12, 2021

Keep em in Stuff

I’m just going to start writing and see where this goes. My mental health isn’t the greatest at the moment. The anxiety is more through the proof than the depression is though, so I suppose it...

October 07, 2021

Scum in Holy Shit!

Today was one of those horrid days at work. There was a dodgy group outside the store as I arrived and when we opened. Sure enough they tried to steal $100 of stock. Not long later, a customer w...

October 04, 2021

Moe's b'day in Adventures in paradise

Another work-week over with and again it was busy as fuck, this time due to the Grand Final being played a few suburbs over. It got moved here due to the Covid outbreaks down south. I saw my si...

I’m double-vaxxed. Finally. Man, that was an effort. I ended up walking in for my second one. Fuck awaiting another email from QLDHealth. Now that my state finally has enough Pfizer supply, ...

September 22, 2021

Beachy in Adventures in paradise

I went to the Gold Coast yesterday to catch up with Brent for lunch. It was initially going to be Tuesday night but he asked to change it, which suited me better anyway as it meant Brandè could ...

September 08, 2021

Look forward to in Stuff

It’s been a strange few days, mentally. Mostly pretty good with a few moments of down-ness. It’s annoying not being able to pinpoint what it is, because it feels like nothing. I found myself f...

August 30, 2021

One down in Stuff

I suppose I should write, as I finally had my first Covid vaccine last Thursday evening. The nurse could tell I was nervous, but assured me that 75% of people she has seen have felt the same way...

August 21, 2021

Fuck QLD Health in Political shit

I haven’t been good mentally. Scarily serious depression yesterday. It’s ironic being in an east-coast state not in lockdown, but it’s been brought on by being disheartened at not being able to...

August 17, 2021

New normal? in Stuff

So sad seeing what’s happening in Afghanistan. Why would you hang to the outside of a plane!? Man, that’s sheer desperation. Incredibly sad. Australia is trying to get three planes in but are...

August 09, 2021

Only hope in Stuff

Mother-dearest has cancelled dad’s 70th birthday celebration. Lockdown is over here again (for now) but we still have restrictions for two weeks. Masks I am used to now, but an added restrictio...

August 04, 2021

Dodging bullets in Stuff

I haven’t written in a little while. I’ve been kind of busy, kind of not. I guess the latest is that we’re in lockdown again, so that’s fun. Although I joke that being in lockdown really isn’t...

July 20, 2021

Rut in Stuff

As everyone knows by now, these are such weird times we are living in. I keep thinking forward to in 10-20 years time when this is a memo in the history books. I’ll be old and ancient by then (...

June 29, 2021

Lockdown #3 in Stuff

As predicted, we’re in lockdown again. Yay.... Probs good that I didn’t go anywhere and cancelled everything. So we can only leave the house for 4 reasons, which are usually the only reasons I...

May 20, 2021

Weird dreams in Stuff

Ive already done extra hours this week. They needed someone to take all the icecream out as a technician is de-icing it tonight, as it’s from like the 80’s and so shit. Anyway, that’s boring. I...

May 01, 2021

Bye Ma in Adventures in paradise

My last surviving grandparent, Melba (affectionately known as Ma) passed away last night at 8:10pm. Dad’s mother. She was 91yo. I’ll miss her. I was at work when I got the relayed message that...

April 28, 2021

Lot on in Adventures in paradise

Ma (my grandma) had a massive bleed last night and we didn’t think she was going to make it through the night. However, she surprised us and I smiled seeing a message from mum saying ‘Ma is stil...

I finally had my beach-day I’ve been wanting for about two months! It was a gorgeous day yesterday so I decided to jump on the train and head to the Sunshine Coast. Takes about 2.5hrs to get th...

I’ve been having a few depressive-days, which hasn’t been fun. Thankfully I’ve learned over the years that a sleep generally keeps it at bay and I feel better in the morning, like now. Yesterda...

April 07, 2021

Averted in Stuff

I’ve sort of been a bit of a seamstress lately. Rather than throwing out torn old clothes and broken buttons etc, I’ve been watching YouTube videos and repairing them by hand. I’ve repaired a f...

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