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Okay, so I have been sorta a jerk. Mental illness comes with a lot of hurdles and shit. So, I am trying to understand her a bit better. Which isn’t easy but each day it gets a little easier. I sa...

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I had 200 dollars this weekend cut from us. This fucking SUCKS ass. I needed that money. I fucking needed to save that money. Damn it all to hell. I’m trying to enjoy this free high I got and thi...

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I came to the realization that MJ does really love me. I think I hurt her when I didn’t pay attention to her and if I’m being honest with myself, I only didn’t because she said we weren’t a coupl...

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Today, we had a fight again this morning. She pushed me again. She keeps calling me Liam because I said that she can be mean some times. Its not that she can’t help it but it does hurt me a lot. ...

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I am so fucking confused by her behavior that it is literally driving me insane. I don’t know why I keep going with this. I guess it’s because I’m a fucking masochist. I don’t know. Part of me wa...

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So i get home, I’m in an awesome mood and I chat with her and her friends. Let me explain how we talk. Lately its a new app called HouseParty. Its like Skype sorta. It allows users to make rooms...

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Emptiness behind those eyes When you stare into mine Black as night Seeing through me The darkness in you Makes me bleed Crashing into you Is all I want But instead you turn away Making me won...

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So, me and MJ are talking more. Even did facetime alone together for the first time in a while but she was a little weird. She was cold at times but then warm with me. As if that makes sense. I ...

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I fucked up. Not gonna talk about what I did. I know why she won’t be with me but I can’t do anything. Its not for the reason she gave although it doesn’t help. I just wanna be with her. I just....

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Not friends Not lovers Floating somewhere in between Drifting between you and me Feelings rip at me Claw like monsters in the dark Knowing you Knowing me This could be great It could be wonderfu...

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Her eyelids are heavy With the weight of her sorrows Etched in her blue eyes Inside her dwells the oldest soul Crying out in the darkness Waiting, wishing, wanting Nothing more than to rest Eter...

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I was wrong You were wrong There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you The sparkle in your eyes Sings a song that only I can hear You make sailors crash across the rocks Dying the sweetest death I...

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You’re pushing and pulling Reaching in the dark for me I pull in You pull away I pull away You pull me in I can never get away from your eyes The way your smile lights up a room The rise and fa...

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I know she likes her homophobic friend. Great. Cool. No one that thinks like him is a nice guy. Doesn’t correct his friends when they say f*ggot or other slurs. Yes, Prince fucking Charming. I am...

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Yesterday I was in the ER. I had kidney stones and it was hella painful. My dad surprisingly stayed with me and while we fought a few times, he still did what I asked. I had a guy mishandle me. T...

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THAT WOMAN IS GONNA END MY LIFE. Sooooo I panicked. Assumed.. again. And um lost my shit. BUT I am proud of myself for one thing, I didn’t go too overboard. So I deleted the entry but I made one...

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Sometimes I wonder If you feel what I feel After we’re done talking Yeah Do you feel this tickle in your throat And the feeling like you’re about to choke? Whoa My heart is thudding in my chest ...

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You can’t make her love you You can’t make her feel the way you want her to You can’t make her love you The way you want her to Because she’s free To do what she pleases But I’m here waiting, wai...

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I got these got songs that tear me apart x2 I got them in my head I can’t get them out I got a feeling that I feel Like I wanna rip my heart right out Oh whoa Everything is calling at me Tearing...

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Pastel princess watches over me I’m her knight to be Skin to skin Breathe you in You are the light Eliminating my night Her love like wind Feeling but never seeing There was something in her eyes...

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Things in my life are going as they are. Steady for now I guess. At least I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in the fridge I guess. I dunno how long that will last for, but h...

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MJ and I went through a huge thing this weekend over her friends and we not only survived but I think we are even closer now. I haven’t felt this awesome. We had this huge conversation that neede...

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I cannot believe what an utter FOOL I was. I was so blind to the fact that MJ not only loved me but was improving herself for me, as well as herself. I made so many mistakes. So did she. Best adv...

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Wakfu, it’s on Netflix, RUINING MY LIFE THANKS A LOT. Its so emotional but so well done. To think its about a French MMO I used to play! Darling in the Franxxx, MJ introduced me to this. Also, em...

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Been seeing a lot of this shit around about older people being not right and that there should be an age limit on dating. Lemme tell you a story: All of the people whom I dated my age or 3 years ...

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