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SO OKAY. This is about me and MJ again. Sorry, not sorry. We had an emotional chat today. I made her cry in a good way this time!! Anyway, I finally fucking got what I wanted! She asked me out on...

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Another one. Another AK 15 used and another 10 people dead (9 kids, 1 adult) plus another 13 injured. If I remember the count correctly. One of those kids, Sabika Sheikh, was from Pakistan. She w...

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Okay, so, MJ didn’t get back with her ex. She did, however, give him false hope by feeding his whole appreciation post deal. I mean, that was mean on her part but in her defense, she is .. well,...

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I just want to get out of here. I need to keep working and moving forward. I don’t know how I’m gonna keep fighting the PTSD and the chronic pain. The older I get, the harder it all is. Its so ha...

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So, mental health has been in the toilet recently. Trying to get my mind on other things.. its hard but so far, so good. If only I could draw or do music that wasn’t related to her all the damn t...

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After that confrontation with MJ, nothing. She hasn’t said a damn word. Hasn’t even tried to say anything in her defense. I know I should be patient and give her more time but in the same breath...

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Snaps were sent. No more contact. Turns out she was with her sister this weekend and is actually sick. Her mental illness I think is making her sick. I know I shouldn’t be checking up on her. I’m...

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I caved and sent her a snap. I didn’t have the heart to let it die. I convinced myself it was the right thing. Honestly, I thought she would get the message. “I don’t want our friendship to die ...

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Everything hurts and I feel numb. I get a snap from her this morning complaining shes sick. Not sending one back. I have my eye on someone else but they most likely do not like me that way. 😫 I’m...

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MJ has broken my heart for the last time. The borderline abusive shithead bf she supposedly dumped is back in the picture. The asshole guy that I kept getting second place to. The guy whom she s...

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I don’t know how to deal usually with being sick. I touched down on this. But the other thing that happens to me is stomach issues. The pain is terrible and severe. It hurts like hell. Finally a...

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Things are going weird with MJ. Weird. She says that she doesn’t like people and won’t let anyone in. I told her I am not just anyone. She agreed but still can’t. I spoke about what I did. I un...

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TW/CN: Sexual Assault mention, abuse conversation How am I going to get over this? Let’s say, me and MJ do get to a good place again. The type of place we were. Right? Video calling again and bei...

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Okay where to start… Today has been great and bad and then great and then bad again. I spoke to MJ a bit today and then a post just sent me going and you know what? WRONG. I was WRONG again. I go...

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I have a chronic pain disorder and a spinal disorder. They both cause me to have, you guessed it, wide spreed pain all over my body. I don’t get a break from this mind you. It is constant. The pa...

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MJ reached out to me today. She said sorry for the things she has done. She feels so fragile and so hurt. I don’t know what to do or how to help her. All I know is I love her and I wanna be there...

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TW/CN (trigger warning/content note): I’m a male sexual assault survivor and will mention it. Please continue with caution! Hi, I am DJ! I’m a 32 year old trans Latino man living currently in Mi...

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I’m going to write this out and leave out names. Anyone who stumbles upon this who knows me, well, you will know a bit more of the details I guess. To make this long story short, I fell in love w...

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