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It's time to let it go [nothing drastic]
It’s time to close this chapter of my life, honestly - it is long overdue. I’ve been hung up for so long on an ex, friend and whom I thought was a soulmate. We’ve not spoken in years, and all t...
Am I Still Here - Why?
Load this, before all the whatever please: (Song replaced from ‘Maybe Tomorrow’) Why, why do you even want me here? Is it now I wake up? Is it now it now I decide to be ‘who I was?’ Is it n...
It's okay if I die now, right?
I spoke to my ex yesterday, funnily enough she doesn’t hate me - it was a relief. She told me that her grandmother had been sentenced to 7 years in prison and a lifetime of being on the sex off...
Poem: Mummy...
I’m on my knees, holding my ears. Those domestic screams are going to haunt me for years. Funny how it always depended on the amount of beers. Raise a glass and WAHEY! - It was never just ‘cheers...
Random Thoughts.
So the last couple have days I’ve been feeling like my head is going into a darker place again, even though things aren’t all bad at all. I’m being way more proactive with myself than I’ve ever b...
Thoughts on Recent Events.
It seems everywhere I look, someone is going through something, something is happening and usually beyond their control. It’s a sad situation when I sit and dwell on it, why can’t things just ev...
Success, Got The Job.
Hi all, So a quick update on the job front is that I did pass the final stage and will be starting my new role on 9th May 2016. This post is so short as I have a new entry to write with slightly ...
Final Stage of Job Interview
Hi all, I went for the final stage of the job interview on 06/04/2016. I don’t think I actually interviewed on the phone interview side of things which was the next step but that was more of an ...
Job Update.
Hey all, So at the moment I am currently playing the waiting game on the job front. I passed the online assessments and had to do a video interview via webcam with some pre-recorded questions, w...
Fingers Crossed and Fed Up
Hi all, I decided to apply for a new job. I’d honestly forgotten how anxiety stricken I became during tests. I hate being put under such pressure in that regard. Honestly, give me a life or death...
Job Frustrations 2
Hi all, So since my last entry I’ve just been kind of plodding along in my job, well until today that is. Today I decided that enough was enough and I won’t be going into work tomorrow. I’ll be...
Ugh what a week and it's only Wednesday...
Hey all, So on Friday I’ve got some friends coming round to my place, 5 in fact so it will be a little crowded in my flat. Me who very rarely hosts things has decided to have a Game of Thrones b...
Job Frustrations
Hey all, I’m sure quite a few of us have felt fed up and devalued at work. I know I have and sadly that seems to now be a theme in my current job. I have reached a stage where I can’t go any fur...
It Has Been A While...I'm Sorry For That.
It has been some time hasn’t it? After the abortion I kept myself to myself for some time, I believe it was the right choice to make even though at the time I hated it and still do. On 24th July ...
9 months hmm
It has been close to nine months since I last wrote in here, it has been a bit of a journey again since my last entry. I did however write on facebook in the interim and have posted those posts p...
Facebook Syria Entry Part 2
Hello, friend. I am a ‘terrorist sympathiser’ and proud. We’ve all seen those people who have been ill for so long that they just feel relieved to know what it is that is actually wrong with them...
Facebook Syria Entry Part 1
Hey all, It is rare that I’ll post something that most of you would call ‘real’ however over the last couple of days, I’ve reached a point where I think I need to say something that I hope will a...
Dad -.-
My mum passed on 27/07/2013, so this inevitably makes me dwell on both of them. I tend to do most of my thinking in the dark, when it’s quiet with whatever music means something to me at the time...
It Is Done :-(
I was dwelling on things and sleeping a bit. For two weeks I haven’t been able to do anything except rack my brain with things other than the worst possible outcomes of every eventual out come to...
Following on from yesterday's events.
So further to yesterday’s entry, we will be going to the hospital on Thursday 12th March 2015 As the pregnancy is under nine weeks it means that she will go for an appointment tomorrow to take o...
Dropped the ball big time.
A sensitive subject has arisen and I’ve been skating around it and avoiding it all week. I began seeing a girl in November of last year, this was a very casual thing and nothing serious at all, t...
365 Days
In a little less than 7 hours, it is officially 365 days since my mother's passing. People told me that the year of firsts was always going to be the hardest. I was hit with her birthday and Chr...
Holiday - eek
Hi all, So my birthday has come and gone, on July 14th I flew out to Majorca for a week with a best friend of mine Ben, it was all to relax. We did relax except on the first night where my dr...
Closing Chapters.
It's in those moments when you're alone, listening to the rain fall, you close your eyes and all you can think of is everything that happened, it's like a movie it's so surreal and you don't thin...
10 Months Later Update.
Hi all, It has been a long time since I've written anything I know, times have changed a lot in the last ten months, I needed to lose myself to find myself after everything that had happened. ...
