My life....I can't make this shit up!
by JennyAmi
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2022
2021 was the worst year of my life. I cried when midnight hit. The worst year of my life is over. I pray 2022 brings us more positivity, love, and prosperity.
Its a sign
Every year Mom and I would bake Christmas cookies together. For the last few weeks I’ve been gathering the nerve to do it myself. Last night I made a batch of cookies and thought to myself “I ca...
I miss Mom so much today
Halloween has always been one of Mom’s favorite holidays. Today I’ve been trying hard to make it like any other Halloween. We all got dressed up, we’ve got tons of candy and I went crazy with th...
I thought I knew Grief
I thought I knew Grief. I thought I understood it and knew how to process it. After all, I help people process their feelings all the time. I’ve lived through a lot of grief. I lost my favorite ...
Hard day
We spread Moms ashes today. We did exactly what she wanted and put her on Mommom and Pops grave. My brother mixed her with planting soil and we planted Daffodil Bulbs around our grandparents head...
LONG DAY TRAVELS
Today has been such a long day. I’ll make this short bc I just want to document it quickly. We’re on our way to Jersey. We left at 0330 and got to Virginia Beach at 1800. Dad and I have been sh...
Productive Day
We’ve had a productive day today. First the four of us worked together and trimmed the hedges by the carport. It took about an hour and a half. We wanted to get other bushes/hedges in the yard, ...
One Month
I cant believe it’s been a whole month already. My heart hurts every day. I think of Mom constantly and the smallest thing will cause me to start crying. I don’t think the pain will ever go away...
I am not okay
…and that’s okay. I know it’s okay to not be okay. That doesn’t make it easier and it doesn’t help. Dad and I went and picked up Mom’s ashes this morning. Being handed this small white box wit...
So Painful
This is probably the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. Yesterday it didn’t get to me as much because I was so busy. Phone calls and arrangements had to be made and I needed to get the ho...
07/18/2021 11PM
Mom passed away.
I can't believe this is happening
It’s been months since I posted. Life has been a non-stop Rollercoaster. A short version - mom continued to be in and out of the hospital for months. This last time she’s been home things have b...
Feeling Better!
I am feeling so much better today. Yesterday that shot kicked my ass!! I ended up clocking out of work around 1. My fever went up to 101.2 and I was miserable. I laid down in bed for about an h...
Court and COVID shot
Yesterday was a hearing for my divorce. Of course my ex did not show up or call in. The judge said that the whole purpose of the court was to see “why he didn’t show up to mediation.” The judge ...
I hope this continues
Mom has been progressing the past few days. Last Thursday she managed to call me at 7:30 in the morning and after about 10 minutes I was able to figure out what she was saying. The doctor had com...
Stagnation
It seems we’ve hit a stagnation in my mother’s recovery. There’s minimal recovery going on now. She is still in the ICU and Aetna continues to deny the LTACH. She is still on the CPAP 24/7 and h...
Two steps forward, three steps back...
That’s how we all feel right now. Mom had made progress for a short period of time. She had been walking around the unit and sitting up more. The day before yesterday, for a while, was a gloriou...
Tracheostomy complete
Mom had the tracheostomy surgery today. After talking with Dad and her on the phone I think it is affecting me more than her. Dad said she is doing better, looks better, and was making faces. Sh...
Great day turned bad
This morning started a great day. Dad sent me a message that mom was doing great and using one of those blowey things for her lungs. Brian and I decided to take Cameron to a Classic Car show an...
Two Days in a Row!
What!? I actually got dressed two days in a row!? I only did because I got a text that I had to attend a zoom meeting at 2 today, then I get a text that it doesn’t involve me and I don’t need to...
Some days are better than others.
I wish I had more to update on my mother. She’s still about the same, honestly. I’d say recovery is going slow, but it’s barely going. They were able to remove the chest tubes yesterday, so I gue...
Very, Very Slow Recovery and I got a court date
Mom’s recovery has not really progressed as it should. She still can’t get out of the bed, she struggles to sit up, she has not walked around since before going into the hospital, she continues t...
One step forward, two steps back
They finally got the breathing tube out yesterday morning. Dad called me to tell me, and I was so happy because I heard her try to stay “I’m okay.” I cried for like an hour. It was an absolute s...
Still not awake
My mother still is not awake or off the breathing tube. They’ve tried five times throughout the night and her lungs aren’t getting enough oxygen without it. Im a mess. My nerves are shot. Im sic...
Longest Day Of My Life
Today has been the longest day of my life. Mom called me at 7:30 and told me they were doing her triple bypass today. Brian came home and Dad ran to the hospital right away. We weren’t allowed...
Book Description
Hey all! Since DE is going down, let’s pick up where we left off. This is my life. Nothing necessarily extraordinary, but always exciting!