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I met this dude last night. He’s actually a DJ at a local gay bar on the weekends, I met him on tinder and the first thing he said to me was that when he matched with me he was so excited he told...

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I applied for four jobs this past week. We will see how that goes for me. I just can’t do this anymore yall. I wish I could just overcome my stress level but It’s becoming too much for me to deal...

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I’m losing faith in Alex and me. I just don’t think it’s going to be a thing. It honestly does make me really sad, but I can’t be waiting by my phone or wondering what he’s up to. If he wanted me...

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I’m so stressed. I’m at this point, beyond a healthy level of stress anyone my age should feel that is not in college..or has kids. I’m tired of working 7 days yall. It’s literally killing me. ...

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Ughhh I can feel my depression about to hit me super hard. Do you ever feel it like looming on you?? Like I feel like I’m about to break down but I don’t know when. I feel like I wanna call Matt ...

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Almost had to terminate 2 people today, started my day early with inventory/truck/other general things. I’m so tired. I’m so sore. I have a dick appointment in like 45 minutes though, so I’m hop...

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So last night I check my phone and Alex texted me asking me about my day :) Also Ryne messaged me too. So I guess he still wants to bang (fuckin awesome, hes hunggg and super hot) But I mostly ca...

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Wellll. I went to go see Alex on Saturday night. My initial plan was to do fuckin nothing until Nate’s birthday/housewarming party that night but basically as soon as Alex told me he had free tim...

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Got bill collectors callin me up. I’m only realistically a week and a half late on some of this shit, like chill. If they looked at my history they would know I’m NEVER late and I always pay more...

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Yesterday was a really bad day for my depression. I got home from work, went to the gym, went through the motions, went to my parents to visit them for a bit and talk about everything that sucks...

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I’m finally going to Alex’s place tonight instead of him coming here, and if you remember that was one of my things about him that I was unsure of. I didn’t understand why he preferred to drive o...

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This week has been a shit. show. I try to distract myself with boys. I hit up this dude PJ, he says he has a girlfriend now. So now basically the only dudes I talk to/ fuck with are the ones l...

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depression so bad you literally go between feeling numb and crying and that is literally hours of your evening. sometimes your whole day. i would def welcome death right now. not gonna kill my...

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I’m a needy ass bitch today. I’ll be the first to say it. I have no money so I’ve been putting my life on credit because fuck it, whatever, we all die eventually. I’m grouchy as shit too. Plus ...

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Okay so I met this dude last night. His name’s Ryne. And holy. fuckin. hell. Honestly..might have been the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. This dude is seriously so effing gorgeous. Like.... ...

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And he responded with “I miss your face too” It sounds so much better when he says it <3 So I’m glad I said something. Albeit silly and casual. and then today I was pleasantly surprised when ...

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I’ve typed out the message “I miss you” to him so many times. But I won’t send it. I don’t wanna come off as clingy. I haven’t seen him in… 5 days. That’s it?!?!?!? It feels like it’s been weeks...

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I buy concert tickets I cant afford and take time off whenever the fuckkk I want lol except not really. but im tryna party this year. but not like I used to. Damnnn Alex is all up in my head ag...

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I’m a boss you a worker bitchhhhh My NYE weekend was dope. I spent it with Alex and it was lovely. I miss him already. Decadence was absolutely incredible. Alex and I danced allll weekend. but I...

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This is gonna be my last entry of historical 2017. Holy. Crap. It blew right by. This year.. was amazing. I saw my favorite bands, Paramore and Panic at the disco (twice, for both) I irrespon...

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Idk what my deal is right now but I just got hit with immense sadness. Like super heavy crying. I don’t cry. But I gotta say I do feel better now. But fuckkkk. That’s some rough shit right there...

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This weather sucks ass it is so motherfuckin cold why WHY WHY do I live here. As a grown adult, WHY. It’s not even that its affordable to live here because honestly, it’s not lol. I mean, could ...

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I got a few questions about what Decadence is in my last entry, Decadence is a NYE festival featuring electronic music. <3 I’m so excited. But I’m currently listening to <3 Bless. I’m...

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I had the most disappointing tub of ice cream. It was potentially good but it only had one big chunk of toffee. Fuck that. Now I gotta go buy toffee from the store. #firstworldproblems IM SO HAP...

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My self destruction is showing hard. Yay seasonal depression. Yesterday I woke up next to Austin. Which was dope. He’s super duper sexy and a great cuddler and kisser. Last night after work and...

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