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Things are starting to make a little more sense. I think the best thing for me to do is to cut ties with my past and with Matt. I think that our time has passed and I need to move on with Kenny. ...
My life is a constant stream of utter bullshit. I went out with Matt the other night. I ended up getting sick right after I ate dinner. I apologized to him and he actually seemed like he was eit...
I just broke up with Kenny. It sucked so much ass. He said he appreciated my transparency and being straightforward with him. But he cried. I feel relief. But also like adick
things right now in Who I Am
Just as quickly as I realized my fingernails were so long and pretty I bit them off because anxiety. I’ve been on and off crying today. I’m trying to just keep things moving. Works been stressf...
Yoooo I’m drowning in fuckin bills. Kenny has helped so much by like buying me food and cooking with me and helping me make better decisions. I feel like I just can’t get shit paid off no matter ...
He told me that he loves me. And… I think I may be having those feelings too?? I think I’m finally starting to open my heart up again.
Life it goes on, what can you do in Who I Am
I had a good conversation with my parents last night about everything. I’m leaving town tonight for Denver with Kenny. He bought me a fitbit in my favorite color for our hiking adventures. What ...
Life it goes on, what can you do in Who I Am
I had a good conversation with my parents last night about everything. I’m leaving town tonight for Denver with Kenny. He bought me a fitbit in my favorite color for our hiking adventures. What ...
I miss Matt. I do. He knows me so well. I can’t stop thinking about him. I think there is meaning behind that. I feel like it’s not over between us. I’m really sad. I feel like I just had my mon...
New relationship things in Who I Am
Today I was surfing facebook and saw that Alex got fuckin married. Wowww. I found out because his baby momma Kennedy now has his last name on facebook and I was like..what. Clicked and saw some w...
Having 3 days off makes me feel like I’m on vacation, especially with the weather the way it has been. Absolutely amazing. And hot as FUCK. Hit up my hometowns’ fair and it was pretty nice, Kenn...
Today was pretty great. Such a good day at work, just getting better at my job. I always want to be the best at what I do. Saw Cherek today, she started her new job at my gym so that’s fun. Alll...
Aint it fun in Who I Am
So idk what I left off with, and I’m borderline too lazy to check. So here’s a general life update… I cut off Bobby. I told him I didn’t see a future with him and that was basically the end of th...
I’m on week 9 of training at my job, and it’s going pretty well. Also, Bobby stopped talking to me because I told him I couldn’t see a future with him. This also only took 9 weeks lmao. Actually ...
I talked to Bobby. I told him that I think I still have feelings for my ex and I told him I don’t want to lead him on. I said I was sorry. He’s a really sweet guy. Always super respectful with me...
I think I need to end things with Bobby. Like. Not that we are a “thing” even but I just can’t. He likes me too much and I’m straight up leading him on at this point because I’m finding myself le...
Booo. I guess I have high standards for sex. Last night was a solid 6/10 tops. Tops. I hate bad sex. Lowkey wanna take a nap, its been a weekend man. I’m tired. I think I just wanna not be touc...
I’m feelin soooo fuckin fat today. My eating has been incredibly shitty, working at a desk all day is absolutely killing me. I love my job, but it is a HUGE difference. I’m getting used to the wh...
Daaaaaamn yall. I think he’s vibin with ya girlll. Which is fuckin dope. This entire week has been fuckin rad because I’ve spent the entire work time basically with him. Our work group planned o...
I love animals so much. I frequently go through moments where I get really sad and simultaneously really angry because I’m not wealthy and it’s not possible for me to save all the animals that ar...
the weekend/monday in Who I Am
Friday was an awesome day. Got to work and immediately we were served with a breakfast! I think we did 2 maybe 3 hours of actual “work” haha it was my trainers last day before his sabbatical and ...
Tired Thursday in Who I Am
I’ve been sleeping so shitty lately. Idk if it’s my bed or what. I have to take melatonin and Tylenol pm if I want to see any sort of uninterrupted sleep. even then im lucky to get 6 hours of unc...
I had a feeling once I started getting into an online community again, it would shut down. I’m really sad about this, almost moreso than I was about Open Diary. I feel like I’ve grown so much as ...
I’ve been fighting every urge in me that is screaming to call Matt and cry to him about how I made a mistake and that I want him back. That’s probably not even really what I want. I’m just stress...
The heart wants what it wants in Who I Am
I’m starting to think that since day 1 of me noticing men (14..15…whenever the f that was) that my heart is stupid as fuck and doesn’t know what it wants, it just goes for whatever is going to hu...
