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The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

by Superposition

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May 06, 2019

Everything is Fine

I actually went for a run on Saturday. Other than that I just stayed home. I’m only writing because I want to remember last night. Lex invited me to Kung Fu De Mayo, which is this thing her fr...


May 04, 2019

Psychosis

Everything was fine…or maybe it wasn’t. I can’t remember in this moment. It felt like I was having a fine day…I was laughing, I was having a nice time, hanging out with Lex and watching shows. T...


May 01, 2019

Melting Brain

Running through your own mind like a hot knife through butter it sizzles and bubbles in an off-gold smoke as you breathe in and breath around within and without your eyes begin to betray you abou...


April 28, 2019

Amanda

She told me not to write about her anymore, but I can write about whatever I want…that’s kind of the point of having this thing. Buuuuuuuut because I’m a petty bitch sometimes, I decided to make ...


April 27, 2019

Magic Castle

One of my friends is a magician from Manhattan, and last night he invited me to The Magic Castle in LA. It was pretty god damn amazing. I saw so many mind blowing tricks that, at a certain point...


I pulled a theme card for the day, it was Yesod. Yesod is the conduit from the higher dimensions to the third dimension. A literal, sentient, gateway. You dream through Yesod. This card represe...


April 23, 2019

I Quit

I actually don’t have a lot of time to write today, but I feel like I need to come and write a little bit about what’s been going down because I feel like everything has been changing so rapidly ...


April 21, 2019

Astral Projection

I did some astral projecting last night. Traveled to see my boss and talk to her about everything. She said she knew that everything was out of her control and she knew everyone was pissed off ...


April 20, 2019

Venting and Stuff

I slept in today. I still can’t remember my dreams, but I know I’m having them. Today is 4-20, so I’m going to buy an eighth of some really nice stuff to take to a party at Deanne’s place, but ...


April 20, 2019

I Blew Up

I blew up for the first time in a long time. I feel like a total asshole. I want to crawl into a hole and die. But I was just pushed too far. I was asked to help open this restaurant…so I cam...


Eating acid in an empty mansion by the beach was a really good time. So, about Lex. I met Lex through Brittany a few years ago, I was super depressed and Brittany offered to come over to cheer m...


April 13, 2019

Fever Dreams of Rehab

The Alpha Brain is finally kicking in, I think. Last night my dreams were insanely vivid. It’s crazy because I even felt like, at a few points, I began to question if I was in reality or not, but...


I wish these human bodies had detachable parts. I have the worst headache right now, and I honestly believe with all of my heart that if I could just take my brain out and soak it in some saline...


Maybe I should just kill them all? Maybe that would be easier? I wonder if I could kill all of my friends fast enough, before the ones still alive started to catch on to what was happening…I’ll...


Waking up early is really fucking with me. I’m not sleeping any earlier still…it’s been about a week and a half. On Monday I woke up at 5:45, so I think I got approximately four hours of sleep?...


April 08, 2019

Brittany's Texts

“I was feeling for a while that maybe you didn’t feel good about being friends or wanted to keep me at a distance or something because I felt like I always hit you up but I’d never hear from you ...


April 08, 2019

Mushrooms and Blunts

Yesterday was a good day, which is cool, because I have been having good days in spite of some difficult feelings I’ve been having lately, so I’m glad that I’m able to do that. I woke up early a...


April 05, 2019

I Hate First Dates

Seriously, what the fuck? Can’t we just skip to the part where we’re comfortable with eachother and we can be real with eachother and it doesn’t feel like a chess match? Not tonight, apparently...


April 04, 2019

Shitty friends

So, I haven’t talked to Brittany in quite some time now. I don’t know how long it’s been, but definitely over a month. She’s complicated because I’ve known her for several lifetimes, so we have…...


April 04, 2019

The Blue Place

I’m trying to keep a dream journal as part of the lucid dreaming project, but so far I haven’t remembered my dreams either night since I’ve started. So…I dunno, maybe I should cut back on the flo...


April 04, 2019

The Blue Place

I’m trying to keep a dream journal as part of the lucid dreaming project, but so far I haven’t remembered my dreams either night since I’ve started. So…I dunno, maybe I should cut back on the flo...


April 03, 2019

Dating

So…dating…what a topic. Why have I decided I want to start dating all of the sudden? I don’t know…maybe it’s the episode I have every spring? Maybe I just want to fuck? I’m intimidated at the ...


April 02, 2019

I want to throw up

I felt fine all day at orientation, it was good seeing my old bosses in a new setting and I work with some of my old co-workers that I really get along with, so it was cool, everything was cool. ...


So, I wrote this whole long entry…and it was basically just some cry baby tirade about how mad I am at tattoo culture, and I said a lot of really means things…that I actually meant, but that I di...


I just don’t ever want to lose or forget this: “One more thing: I prayed for a friend like you for years. I swear to god. You are totally one of the most captivating, beautiful and sweetest huma...


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This is the story of my life.