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The grotesque metamorphosis of a Bi-Polar human into a Tri-polar monster.

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I’m listening to “A City By The Light Divided” by Thursday. I’ve only ever listened to this album once and I wrote it off…now I’m sitting here, re-exploring it and really enjoying myself. I had...


The people at CERN just fired off some neutrinos that traveled to their destination 60 nanoseconds faster than light particles. Everything you have ever been taught about the physical world is w...


July 30, 2018

Everyone is gone

It’s so weird…how I just got left alone. Even on this fucking site…everyone just stopped reading. All of my friends are gone. I seriously have no idea what the fuck happened. Do you ever have...


July 26, 2018

More mushrooms

So last night I ate about double what I did on Tuesday…I was expecting more of a trip, but it ended up being super mellow as far as visuals go…it was just a bit of a body high and then EXTREMELY ...


July 25, 2018

Over my head

I guess I haven’t written anything in a while…I guess I should write something. Class is good…kind of, I mean…I’m kind of feeling like I’m in way over my head, but it turns out everyone else in ...


July 20, 2018

The King is Dead

I mean, maybe he’s not dead…maybe he’s just sleeping…I don’t know. I don’t know anything. I just believe. I finally decided to stop drinking…it’s finally time. I woke up today feeling a lot b...


July 18, 2018

Birthday

“All my suffering’s a light and momentary pain…while the weight of an endless glory still remains.” Today has been a great fucking day. I skipped class…well…hold on, let me start at the beginnin...


July 17, 2018

Untitled.

Yesterday I had a surprise birthday party at work…it was pretty amazing. One of my favorite people in the entire world orchestrated the entire event…she set up the whole table and got me a bunch...


July 15, 2018

Seven years ago today...

We created something… Music videos are fun, huh? Making music videos with two of your best friends in the world is fun. I sure do miss you today, you know? Can I just say that? Anyway… Today...


July 14, 2018

Changes

Fucking everything is different. Thank god for Cardi B. Gangsta Bitch music…that’s the only thing that even matters anymore. I wish I was a gangsta bitch…I wish I was some stripper ho. “The o...


July 11, 2018

Still sick...

I need to make some huge changes in my life…it’s been a long time coming, and it’s coming. Golnar has been bringing up that I need to stop drinking…plus, there is this…angel or something that’s ...


July 10, 2018

I'm sick, booooo...

We’re in the middle of a vicious heat-wave and I have a cold…and okay okay, I know that a COLD doesn’t come from the cold…I get that, trust me, I’m a doctor, but it’s still ironic because that’s ...


July 07, 2018

NEW SKATE!!!!!!!!!!

Life has been super eventful lately. I don’t know if it’s good or not…but it’s totally different. There’s been a lot of talk about moving to Oakland…like, I have been talking with one of my best...


July 05, 2018

Schmappy Schmourth

Mother fucking fourth of July. I am like, the least patriotic person in the entire world…I think nationalism is a fucking vapid human construct and borders are nothing but a way to accumulate an...


July 04, 2018

kisses

I’m sitting outside at a Starbucks on campus…I should be doing homework right now, but I really just don’t feel like starting this new project…we have to build a Hang-man game using NodeJS and Ja...


July 03, 2018

Breakdowns

I had some giant break down a year and half ago…landed in the hospital…it wasn’t good. The doctors told me I needed to be on disability. My parents took me in and told me I didn’t need to leave...


July 02, 2018

Station of the new cross

I’m listening to The Coloring Book on repeat. Glassjaw “I can’t breathe without you…” I woke up and went to work this morning…dragged myself there…I felt fine, I’m just so sick of it. The woma...


July 01, 2018

My biggest Ex

I can’t remember if I said this or not…but she hit me up on Instagram and asked me what I dreamt about…she wanted to know if I was some psychic vampire that’s still trying to ruin her life throug...


June 29, 2018

Physical

I just got done with my physical. I guess I have Restless Leg Syndrome…so that’s going to be annoying as fuck for the rest of my life. Other than that, I’m super healthy…like, the doctor seemed...


I just lost my two best friends out here in the span of a week, and I’m trying my best to process it. On top of that, my best friend in SLC and my best friend in Oakland are going through some m...


June 25, 2018

Long Beach City

So, tonight was pretty great. I really wasn’t expecting it to be. I took some of my Propanolol before it even began because I was stressing. You know…that real stress. That anxiety attack shi...


It’s like my spell on you is worthless. … I just took my anti-anxiety meds for the first time. I probably should have tried them without alcohol (I know, I’m an idiot, right? Come on…I already ...


June 23, 2018

Some sort of good vibes

Let’s take a moment to express some gratitude…I find that it’s good to do that from time to time, so you can remind yourself why you stay here…because there has to be a reason to stay here, if th...


June 22, 2018

Night Beach Mornings

I woke up this morning and said “no” I went back to sleep. I finally got out of bed at some point…maybe around 2PM…and I showered…and I drank some Gatorade…and I threw it up…and I drank some wa...


I have been feeling so alive lately, and so grateful for the people in my life. I have met some new and amazing people. I still want to die. Lately, I have so much anxiety over the idea of dea...


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This is the story of my life.