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Earth is a great place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live here.

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My wife and I stepped outside to go get a load of laundry and our apartment manager was out talking to one of our neighbors with a bunch of police officers. She was the victim of a home invasion...


In the summer of 2020, during the BLM marches, they burned down several buildings in my community. The tore apart the police station. They looted countless businesses. I expect more of that toni...


Sometimes I think I love my job Sometimes I think I hate my job I guess we’ll see how I feel tomorrow when pay day comes around. Sometimes I want to write happy music (Why the fuck can’t I just ...


I want to write some new music but I don’t have any new music inside of me and I don’t know how to put it inside of me…and even if it is inside of me and maybe I’m not recognizing it, maybe I don...


I feel like writing but I don’t really have anything to say. It’s 4:07 PM and I haven’t eaten anything yet today. I’ve been glued to my desk. I’ve taken two bathroom breaks, and other than tha...


Half our team is in Krakow and this insane deadline is still looming over us like a dark cloud filled with pus and rats and purple lightning cancer. So After working nine straight hours from 9-6...


It’s been in the works for a while now. I went a few weeks without a drink not even that long ago, but last weekend, with all the friends and family in town for the baby shower, I definitely had ...


June 14, 2022

I need Aderall in Questions

They tested me for ADHD in middle school a bunch of times…like three times. They tested me several times because the test came back and said I didn’t have it, but everyone was like, “Uh…yeah this...


June 11, 2022

Thank you... in Questions

Thank you brother For teaching me about the white gloves The us VS them And why we need a poker face Thank you for teaching me about the indigo flame Thank you for teaching me about where I came...


…someone replaced all your creamer with mayonnaise I can’t stop thinking about putting mayonnaise in coffee. I don’t even use creamer, I drink my coffee African-American like a real man. We wen...


It’s 12:34 am and I’m wrapping up some work for the evening. But I have to finish the last couple of tracks on this Kendrick album, so I figured I’d kill some time on here while I listen. We’ve ...


I think the most frustrating thing is that I don’t even get to experience manic episodes anymore…which, means I also don’t have psychotic episodes…but it’s pretty one sided. The antipsychotics I...


I’ve had a few coworkers ask me about my music over the last few months, and it’s something I have been hesitant to share with anyone, let alone the people I work with. But I picked out a song or...


October 27, 2021

Blocked in Stories to bide the time.

So I blocked the user that left that last comment. She said she was a reader for a long time and has read my cocaine fueled and pill fueled “and every drug under the sun” fueled “rants”. Then sh...


So, on my last post…you know, the one about how I thought my neighbor was being an asshole for being super judgmental? Some user named “Out of Doubt: End time” commented this: “You should have w...


We have these neighbors that are Mormon, and we’ve been pretty good friends with them over the last couple of years, but starting in August the husband has started saying some shit that is just p...


So I had my weekend this last weekend. Overall, I’d say it was beneficial. My wife booked the hotel for me, and it looked really nice in the pictures, but when I got there it was pretty old and ...


There’s this one lady who has really fucked with my head through a few of my manic episodes. Telling me she is some higher dimensional being and that she knows who I am and that I’m fucking up my...


I have been using Open Diary since I was 15, and it looks like old habits die hard. Even though I am not a frequent user anymore, sometimes I just feel the need to write this out into the ether. ...


August 10th at 11:52 pm, we welcomed our son into the world. He was born at 9lbs 9oz, and 23 inches. My wife is a fucking warrior woman. I was so amazed to watch her, how composed she was through...


July 24, 2020

Praise be to Satan in Questions

My wife and I watched a documentary the other day called “Out Of Shadows” or something like that…it was on Youtube. It basically stated that all of the people in Hollywood, all of the rich and po...


July 19, 2020

Arrow in Stories to bide the time.

What a strange year, right? Pandemics Killer hornets (sort of) Nation-wide protests Secret police The president is shilling beans My son will be here any day now, could even be tonight. I woul...


December 21, 2019

An update. in Questions

I just felt like I needed to share a little update with the internet. Mostly because I have been living in San Diego for the last 6 months and have been away from all of my friends and family so ...


I actually went for a run on Saturday. Other than that I just stayed home. I’m only writing because I want to remember last night. Lex invited me to Kung Fu De Mayo, which is this thing her fr...


Everything was fine…or maybe it wasn’t. I can’t remember in this moment. It felt like I was having a fine day…I was laughing, I was having a nice time, hanging out with Lex and watching shows. T...