Superposition ⋅ 33

Earth is a great place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live here.

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I decided that I wanted to hurt tonight, apparently…I sat down and willfully put on the album, “From A Basement On The Hill” by Elliott Smith. I’m one track in right now and I’m already feeling ...


I have been absent. I know this. I have been struggling with a very deep depression that has been ruling my waking life with 12-16 hours of sleep. It’s all I can do to do the bare minimum and ...


Software engineering makes me feel stupid. I must be stupid. I am stupid. Hello, my name is( { myName: “dumb person” } ); yeah…whatever…we’re not here to talk about that though…or are we? Oh, ...


I guess I’ve been gone for kind of a long time now? I don’t know exactly how long it’s been, but it feels like it has been a long time. I haven’t been able to read or write anything on here…not...


I feel like I should write something because I haven’t written anything in a long time, but I don’t have a whole lot to write about…I’ve hit this point where I feel like my life is just static an...


“It’s not my fault It’s your own fault I’m not human at all I have no heart.”


The sun is red…or red-brick orange, maybe? And it’s not even 3PM yet and it feels like dusk…it’s just so dark…and it’s so hot, almost 100 degrees or something, I haven’t even been outside because...


I’m just calling this entry #1 because I might write another entry later tonight…I can kind of feel it in my bones…lately this website has been saving my fucking life, and I have to thank all of ...


“Well, you know I hardly speak… …and when I do, it’s just for you… …I haven’t said a word in weeks… …cuz they’ve been keeping me from you.” So…this has been a weird day. Golnar and Brittany bot...


I’ve been feeling so tired lately. Tired like I’ve never felt before…like, I will wake up and it will just hurt…and I’ll have to nap after I get home from work…I’ll go through my entire work day...


My baby sister came to visit…I live with my parents right now because I made a giant mess of my life and I am trying to clean it up…so she didn’t come visit me…she didn’t really come visit our pa...


I think I’ve finally admitted to myself that YOU are not something I should be holding on to anymore…and does that mean I’m going to do anything about it? I don’t know? I might just hold on to ...


“I offed myself today, but I’m alright…I’m with all my friends cuz they’ve all died.” The fucked up thing about getting older is that you and all of your friends don’t die…and you’re not with e...


Last night I spent a lot of time really thinking about my life…I mean, I spent a lot of time just dissecting that shit…pulling it apart…putting it back together again…watching the way it worked, ...


I’m listening to “A City By The Light Divided” by Thursday. I’ve only ever listened to this album once and I wrote it off…now I’m sitting here, re-exploring it and really enjoying myself. I had...


The people at CERN just fired off some neutrinos that traveled to their destination 60 nanoseconds faster than light particles. Everything you have ever been taught about the physical world is w...


It’s so weird…how I just got left alone. Even on this fucking site…everyone just stopped reading. All of my friends are gone. I seriously have no idea what the fuck happened. Do you ever have...


So last night I ate about double what I did on Tuesday…I was expecting more of a trip, but it ended up being super mellow as far as visuals go…it was just a bit of a body high and then EXTREMELY ...


I guess I haven’t written anything in a while…I guess I should write something. Class is good…kind of, I mean…I’m kind of feeling like I’m in way over my head, but it turns out everyone else in ...


I mean, maybe he’s not dead…maybe he’s just sleeping…I don’t know. I don’t know anything. I just believe. I finally decided to stop drinking…it’s finally time. I woke up today feeling a lot b...


“All my suffering’s a light and momentary pain…while the weight of an endless glory still remains.” Today has been a great fucking day. I skipped class…well…hold on, let me start at the beginnin...


Yesterday I had a surprise birthday party at work…it was pretty amazing. One of my favorite people in the entire world orchestrated the entire event…she set up the whole table and got me a bunch...


We created something… Music videos are fun, huh? Making music videos with two of your best friends in the world is fun. I sure do miss you today, you know? Can I just say that? Anyway… Today...


Fucking everything is different. Thank god for Cardi B. Gangsta Bitch music…that’s the only thing that even matters anymore. I wish I was a gangsta bitch…I wish I was some stripper ho. “The o...


I need to make some huge changes in my life…it’s been a long time coming, and it’s coming. Golnar has been bringing up that I need to stop drinking…plus, there is this…angel or something that’s ...