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01/03/2018
I had my appointment with my therapist today. The first thing I did was mention my awful appointment with the other therapist. i wanted her to know that i A) at least tried and B)wasn’t 100% cli...
Got an appt with my old therapist!
IM SO EXCITED!!! I called my old therapist’s new place to day to see if they were scheduling appts for her yet because last month they said that they wouldn’t be scheduling her appts for her unti...
Time for an update
James got back from his visit home for his father’s funeral on Saturday. His mom has no plans on moving out here. James DID text me once while he was gone asking how I would feel if his mom cam...
12/05/2017
I officially cancelled my next therapy appointment. I just cannot mentally get past how much I couldn’t “click” with this lady. It just seemed off from the moment I walked into her office and s...
Therapy appt with new therapist
I should really write this recap tomorrow when I have a clearer mind BUT no time like the present: The Good: I got a second opinion of whether she thinks i have depression or am bipolar. She said...
It’s been almost 24 hours
And I’m feeling better. No more puking since the 5am episodes. I did have what felt like a racing heart for most of the day at work. Every time I stood up, I did this drunken sway type move. At ...
Idiot thing
You guys. I did an idiot thing. In my defense I didn’t think the result was going to be as bad as it was. Though, it could have been a lot worse. Yesterday, I was feeling pretty meh all day, b...
A Good Thanksgiving
I feel like I’m walking on shells just waiting for the bad news bomb to drop because the hubby and I actually had a really good Thanksgiving, just the two of us. James cooked a turkey; it was his...
Another voicemail left
I spent the majority of my weekend mentally debating on whether or not its really necessary for me to continue therapy with someone new. I found a private practice online that accepts my insuranc...
Points for trying
I find got enough courage to start looking around for a new therapist. I don’t know how to explain how much anxiety I get making that first phone call. It takes EVERYTHING in me to place the ca...
11/14/2017
Y’all. Thank you for being my voice of reason on days that my own brain can’t. You guys basically were right saying that I shouldn’t let a possible error on the receptionist’s part sever the tie ...
Just thinking
So I’m thinking about seeing a brand new therapist and starting over. I was gonna wait until this week to contact the new place that my old therapist is moving to/moved to to see if she started t...
Bisexual explorations
I’ve been sort of in a mood today, so what better time to write. So I had to look back to see where I last left off. My last entry stated that I had just had my last appt with my therapist before...
Happenings
I had my last appt with my therapist today. She told me where she’s going! Hallelujah! She said that I should call them in a month or two if I want and she should be started by then. The mindfuck...
Bicurious, Heteroflexible
I kissed a girl and I liked it. Um. So on Saturday evening me and a couple of teammates went to the local gay bar that we sometimes frequent. But BEFORE we got there, me and one of my teammat...
09/06/2017
I took some natural probiotics this morning. I think I’m almost done deflating. Carry on.
Not sure what's next
My brain was completely scrambled Wednesday after my therapy appt. This was the appt that she was supposed to tell me the details about her new job, how to go about initiating the transfer legal...
Untitled
I absolutely need the next two weeks to fly by. And I really think I need a new antidepressant. On Tuesday I found out that my therapist is leaving the clinic that I go to. I 100% broke down. ...
07/28/2017
I’m “working from home” today. We’re in the middle of moving offices and today is the last day of the move because all of our stuff has to be out of our old office before Monday. The dudes in t...
True story
One of the managers at our New Mexico location wanted to fire one of our employees. So he drafted a termination letter and was going to send it to our company’s lawyer for review buuuuuuut he acc...
Doing anything and everything to avoid actually working
So I did end up keeping my appointment with my therapist. It was Wednesday, July 5th. I showed up in a super good mood, and instead of deeming me “fixed” she was smart enough to take that into ...
06/14/2017
I should get a gold star folks. I made it through the entire day without cancelling my therapy appointment they had literally just scheduled for me. I legit almost had a panic attack thinking a...
Full circle
I had my follow-up with my regular dr this morning. i told her I stopped taking the zoloft because of the flip in side effects, and I listed what the side effects were. I actually made a list a...
First of June
Last night was our last football practice of the season. Our last game is on Saturday. We.are.screwed. Half of our team is injured and unable to play. That’s not an exaggeration. So yesterda...
5/18/2017
I mean thank goodness y’all don’t write too often so that I can go 2 weeks without logging in and not be behind too much. My hometown had an F2 tornado go through it two days ago. 1 person died,...
