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Old Wound...
I broke up with my ex sometime at the end of March or beginning of April. To recap… He started drinking in secret and doing harder and harder drugs. By that point he’d already lost 2 good jobs an...
Sleepy...
I’m currently sleepy. I should have one to bed earlier last night. My house needs cleaning along with a laundry list of other stuff. Had a meeting at work today. People really enjoy hearing them...
Catch Up...
I’m a bit behind. I meant to catch up earlier. I met up with POF guy again… let’s call him JM. He came over on a Wednesday afternoon around 3:30. We talked and eventually moved to the bedroom. I...
Just Argh...
I was right about Monday. It was this continual giving me a hard time about my date. J didn’t believe that all we did was make out. In his world, I fucked some random guy in the park. B I think...
Who Knows...
Ok.... so I made a date with a guy from POF. Realistically it was just us meeting and having a couple drinks. The couple of days prior to the date were just not so great. Been on an emotional ro...
Ugly Cry...
Today was a long day. I was exhausted last night but couldn’t go to bed until I fed everyone. Of course by the time I got done I had hit my 2nd wind and knew I wouldn’t get to bed anytime soon. ...
Movies...
Sometimes I wish my love life could be like in a movie, but it never is. Where’s my Noah? Where’s my happy ending? I don’t think I have one. I’ve made efforts. HS guy just basically wants nothi...
Infinite Playlist...
I need to quit watching movies with love stories. It’s not good. This weekend it seems to be a Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist sort of weekend. Michael Cera is so awkward it’s ridiculously a...
Always Breaking Stuff...
Basically this past weekend I did nothing but sleep because I was depressed and miserable. I’ve decided that a lot of it is because I’m an extrovert and I recharge my batteries by being around p...
I want...
I want my house to be clean for more than 5 minutes. I want somewhere to deliver pizza to my house. I want someone to want to spend time with me. I want someone that I have electric chemistry wit...
Assumptions...
I automatically assume when someone doesn’t text/message me in a timely manner that I have done something wrong and I’m just an annoyance and they didn’t want to talk to me anyway. I hate feeling...
Jesus...
Ok, so after thinking about it for a bit and then compounded with my weekend… I don’t really expect there to be a guy out there that is interested in me. My crazy far outweighs my hotness at this...
Not a date...
So apparently guy did not consider the other night a date. He also is not interested in actually going on a date with me because of my animals. Or at least that’s what it boils down to. He said i...
Date...
So I had a semi quasi date last night. I’ll call it a date since he paid for dinner but he didn’t have to. I finally gave in and created a POF account. I didn’t include my first name or post a p...
POF...
Then there’s that time that someone convinced you to sign up for POF and once you finally finish and look at the matches, the 2nd guy listed under your ultra matches and chemistry matches is a gu...
The point...
I’m at a point in my life where I realize that I have very few friends. I would say I have one close friend. But she’s been working so much the last few months that I just haven’t seen her like ...
Dating...
Like how does one even meet people now? My last bf I met through work but that was kinda premanagement status so work people aren’t an option now. I don’t really go out much and even then I’m not...
Bang...
Yup, my birthday started off with one. My friend texted me at 6pm yesterday to ask if I would take her to the ER. Sure, I’m a good friend and don’t mind. So I leave my house, go pick her up, take...
Nap time...
I figured I’d write before I try to take a nap. Last week I got the nurse practitioner to write me a script for phentermine. So far so good. I’ve definitely been more awake and more productive o...
God I must be dumber than I thought...
So yeah… I wasn’t worth a 2 hour drive. Then the next night he said he’d be here at 8. When I asked why so late, because his mother wanted him to wait until she got home. Are you an adult or a ch...
Not worth it...
I am not worth a 2 hour drive. He loves me. He misses me. He wants to hold me in his arms more than anything in the world. He wants to have a baby with me. There’s no other girl he wants. But dri...
Just ugh...
I’m laying in bed. I should be feeding animals. But no… like whatever he was wearing has just permeated my room and I kinda hate it. Like it just smells like him. While it was all fun and games i...
Agitated...
My day hasn’t exactly gone as planned but really how often does it? Went out last night. M picked me up and dropped me off so I could drink. He came in to see the dogs and use the bathroom. Keep ...
Just life...
It’s a fairly busy weekend. Yesterday I spent something like $200 just on animal food. I still need to properly grocery shop for myself, which I despise by the way. But really I think that is mos...
Go with your gut...
So apparently my gut is pretty much always dead on. I got a phone call today from the ex around 12:15 while I was at work. He was higher than a kite and no I don’t mean like he smoked weed. He wa...
