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It is really challenging but I don’t want to catastrophize about the events happening at work. Last month, our person at the top went on leave. Her second-in-command quit. I walked into work t...


March 03, 2025

Rain on my Parade in Current Events

I caved on Saturday and went to the office. I missed my kids too much. I can’t be still. I am robbing myself of the present. I get a deep sinking feeling whenever I try. I have to be internall...


March 01, 2025

333 in Current Events

I am not a machine. Everyone got to see that I am human yesterday. I am cooked. Medium rare. I am taking today off unless I decide at the last second to go in. I miss our kids so much it hurts...


February 24, 2025

Blue Monday in Current Events

I hit my breaking point with my content addiction. The worst of my content addiction is pornography. I was frustrated with my therapist in my last session when I told him that I wanted to tack...


February 22, 2025

Butterflies Fly Away in Current Events

Virginia brought up Jonah yesterday. She took the long way but asked me if I had a crush on him. I confirmed it. When she introduced us in December, she said she felt the energy between us. She ...


February 21, 2025

Push in Current Events

I talked it out with my coordinator about him shrinking the program. If he wanted, he could be an authoritative, totalitarian, dictator. Nobody would stop him. Instead, he creates space for me. ...


I don’t want to learn the culture of my people. I want to learn God through the culture of my people. I Spy With My Little Eye: Uncivil Rights I felt like I was in the twilight zone at the Harm...


February 17, 2025

Health Shamer in Current Events

On Saturday, I wanted to do everything but forced myself to do nothing. Today, I want to do nothing but have to force myself to do everything. I hit a breaking point with my diet yesterday. Dis...


February 16, 2025

No Pain No Gain in Current Events

You will never win the war. You can only win the battle day by day. I understand myself better knowing that ADHD was my problem this whole time. My brain is manipulative. I am conditioning myse...


February 15, 2025

Round Dance in Current Events

I was so proud of my boys. It didn’t look like it was going to happen but we came through at the last second and showcased our song at the Round Dance. It was an amazing turnout. This was our ...


February 14, 2025

Programming in Current Events

I had a dream that my elder had a dream that I did Sundance. This is a nightmare. If any of the elders in my life have a dream that I did our most sacred ceremony, then it is non-negotiable. I h...


February 13, 2025

He/Him NRG in Current Events

A little suffering is good for the soul. It builds resilience. This is the thought I have before I push myself out of my comfort zone. At the Harm Reduction conference yesterday, I grabbed the m...


February 11, 2025

Conundrum in Current Events

My coordinator has a lot of animosity about the participants in our program. He has a lot of animosity toward them as well. I don’t like it. He’s making it feel like we are at war with our parti...


February 09, 2025

Philanthropy Blues in Current Events

We are trying to do philanthropy but they have us doing big business. We haven’t been serving our kids because we have been serving numbers and that is the frustration we have been feeling. We d...


February 08, 2025

Red Rebel in Current Events

We recruited our first speaker for our first Our Eldest Brother event. Sean Rayland-Boubar. We want positive male role models to come speak to our youth. We have the drug, gang, and sex traffick...


February 06, 2025

Response-Able in Current Events

I explained to my coordinator, my friend, that I felt disturbed about seeing him so broken yesterday, and I didn’t understand why until I got home. I think I learned something about you that yo...


February 05, 2025

Surface Pressure in Current Events

My coordinator buckled under the pressure. He disclosed to me that he had a nervous breakdown the day prior. He’s only human. He needs to put himself first and is considering taking a leave of a...


A little suffering is good for the soul. It builds resilience. [Existential Content Advisory] My walls of Jericho have come down. There was no Trojan horse. Lord knows I didn’t let anyone in. ...


Welcome to the winter of my discontent. I call my roommate a 40-year-old teenager. Meanwhile, I am struggling to regulate my emotions. On the surface, I’m peachy keen. I’m just a chill guy. Un...


January 25, 2025

Steam in Current Events

I didn’t explain why the community walk felt like I was walking through somewhere wartorn. We walked along the river, tent city. It was full of debris. The neighborhoods were boarded up. Buildin...


January 23, 2025

Battlefield in Current Events

I am questioning my choices. A little bit of suffering is good for building resilience. So they say. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and did my first volunteer shift at a shelter. I donat...


January 19, 2025

Spacetime in Current Events

I am not one of those vile and profane gremlins that needs to be coddled when upset. I’m an adult. I need to be alone to process things. I’m inflexible on this matter. I don’t want to need peopl...


All my defenses are down. I was sick for almost a whole month. I was barely able to keep it together. Now that my body is done healing and I am on the other side of it, all my defenses are dow...


January 01, 2025

Defying Calamity in Current Events

I love that New Year New Me energy. Most people in my age group have given up and think the hype is stupid. It’s still my favorite time of year. It’s when a lot of people stop feeling fine and I...


October 14, 2024

Monidoo Mukwa in Current Events

You need to own your story so that you can change it. What is your story? I’m just having a scheduled existential crisis. I wish I had a shaman to interpret the will of creator. I am asking fo...


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